A Round Trip To Love Volume 1 Chapter 13 134 Feb 25, 2020

Vol 1 Chapter 13

" Not the same way as how we did it," he smiled, " I want to hold you."

"…………." I opened an eye and asked in a blur. " Hold….. how do you mean?"

I always thought that the ultimate was simply using the mouth.

" It's ok I'll teach you. " As if coercing me to gulp down a magic potion, Lu Feng's level of expertise in kissing reached an extraordinary level.

As I descend into a stupor, a certain area in my body which I never paid attention to suddenly felt a stabbing pain.

" Ouch! " I struggled against this unexpected development, " What's that? It hurts…… take it out……"

" Don't be scared." He smiled seductively, " It's just my finger for now."

I finally comprehend what that imply. " No, no….. I don't want that, take it out quickly……"

" Don't be nervous, it will not hurt after I apply some lubricant, and I will go slow."

" NO! " I stubbornly proclaimed. " Absolutely not…… I'm not doing it anymore. Let me go."

At the end of the day, I am still a normal man, possessing my full faculties, why would I be willing….. to be penetrated.

Think about it, it was not a bodily part constructed to accommodate such an oversized tool.

" Xiao Chen." Lu Feng slowly twisted his eyebrows.

I can tell he was displeased, and tried my best to make amends: " Let us discuss about this another time…… I will use my mouth for you today OK? " I was scared out of my wits, just the thought of that process is akin to being murdered.

" What are you afraid of ?"

" I ………" How could I not be afraid, if it was you being f*****, you would be afraid too.

Lu Feng pressed down on me, covered my mouth, his hand sliding down my back and his finger forcefully invaded me.

" No……" I shake my head helplessly, " Let's consider doing this another time. Give me some time to prepare myself."

"You are really full of useless talk." In his current state of impatience, his strength could barely be contained and my whole body stiffened from his finger assault. I bore with it and did not push him away.

He added in another finger, my eyes almost filled up with tears: " Please stop this, Lu Feng, I really can't….. it hurts."

" It will be alright. Just bear with it for a while."

I bit down on my lips and did not say another word.

How can it be….. alright.

A swift sensation of coldness, it was him squeezing some lubricant in. This so-called lubricant turned out to be of barely any help besides providing some coolness.

My thighs were being adjusted into a humiliating posture bent over my chest.

I was as rigid as a wooden puppet.

How is this different from being raped？

I turned my head to the side in an unnatural position to avoid making eye contact with him. This horrifying feeling reminded me of the dread facing a child who has just had a swab of alcohol on his arm awaiting for the imminent stab of the needle.

Even inching in with minimal effort made me tremble with pain, no way….. it is never going to fit. Moreover, this sort of intimacy depraved of any affection and interaction is not something I crave……..

It went further in and I could bear it no longer and started resisting: ” No more! Stop it, stop ! Lu Feng…………”

” What's wrong with you now?” He obviously did not feel good holding it back too, his expression steeped in frustration, he bent my legs further.

” I can't.” Blinded with pain, I started shoving and hitting at him randomly.

” Be good, stop fooling around !”

He was apparently furious.

I took in a deep breath, kept my mouth shut and stopped ‘fooling around'.

What beautiful, what pleasure, what intoxicating, they are all lies. You said you liked me, you said you cared for me….. those are also lies.

In, out, in, out….. I can only feel two types of sensation, one is pain, the other is also pain.

I could only stare at the ceiling in a haze.

After experiencing every threshold of pain, it is finally over. Lu Feng pulled out with satisfaction, lying next to me panting heavily, one arm still wrapped around me.

My mind was in a blank for a while, then I came to a realization that I had just gone through the initiation of homosexual sex. I turned around to look at Lu Feng, his eyes closed looking completely spent. He did not appear to have noticed……. that I did not even……… had an erection once.

I turned back around, buried my face into the pillow, and just wish to fall asleep.

" What's wrong?"

I shook my head in silence.

" Why aren't you talking?"

"…………….." What do you expect me to say. Neither a leisure chat nor a serious discussion do I have the energy for.

"You're unhappy?" His voice turned harsh.

" I am not." I replied slowly.

" Why?"

"………………"

" Are you unhappy with what we did? " He raised his hand to turn my face, continuing with unconcealed anger, " Are you unwilling to sleep with me?"

" No, it's not that." I braced myself. I like him, I do not want to fight with him, I do not want him to be mad at me.

Lu Feng looked at me coldly for a long time: " If you feel that you had been violated, you can jolly well make a report to the police."

I almost choked.

" Take a mirror and look at yourself, what sort of expression is that on your face? !" Lu Feng sat up and flipped the covers over, " If you are so unwilling to have sex with me, then we might as well not be together anymore."

The air suddenly turned icy.

The precious thirty seven hours of just me and him time was supposed to be something that could not replaced with pure gold. It has now been abruptly reduced to just twelve hours.

The remaining hours now seemed like an intolerable eternity.

I spoke to his back, " How about…. I'm thinking, maybe I should just head back to school first…….."

" Up to you." He did not even turn his head around.

I could only get out of bed, put on my clothes, retrieve my bag from the living hall and open the door.

Walking is making my wound feel worse. I was only just able to make it from the Lu's mansion to the auto station. Standing in front of the ticketing counter, I searched through my bag for a long time before I realized that I did not bring enough money for a ticket.

Embarrassingly, I left and settled myself onto the benches at the waiting booth. Feeling a little cold, I hugged myself tightly.

I would rather die than return to find Lu Feng for a loan.

No money and no means for a ride, I felt completely at a loss.

Why could he not be a little more considerate to my feelings? No matter what, I am still a guy. I do like him, but I still retain the basic pride belonging to a male species. Could I not be allowed to even have a moment of hesitation before I completely cast off my dignity as a man?

Just because the time I took to cast it away was a little longer has caused him to be so annoyed.

Who on earth does that……. ousting a lover whom you just made love to into the middle of a winter night.

I rubbed my eyes, wrapped my legs up for warmth. There are not many travelers late at night, the lady at the counter gave me a once over with curiosity.

What is so unusual ……. have you never seen a boy cry?

I lowered my head, nose sniffing miserably. It is cold indeed