A Round Trip To Love Volume 1 Chapter 39 123 Apr 24, 2020

It is Lu Feng. My hands and feet froze as I rooted myself to the spot by the door. From this vantage point I could see him clearly in the brightly lit living room, while he could not see me standing in the dark.

Carrying with him a travel-worn appearance, he was undoubtedly exhausted.

” No !” The rigid response from Yi Chen revealed no traces of deceit, ” What business do you have with my brother ?”

” Yi Chen, don't lie to me, how could he not have gone to you ? Where else could he go ?” His imploring tone of voice and stance displayed a hint of humility.

” I am not lying to you.” Yi Chen glanced towards the kitchen anxiously, seemingly worried that I might dash out, ” My brother is mad at me, he took off to Shanghai alone and have not been back since, he even changed his mobile number without informing me.”

The majority of it is the truth.

” If Xiao Chen is here, let me see him. Just one look, one look is how I ask for .”

” I already said he is not here !” My absolute silence has given him the added stimulus to refute his arguments. He must have gathered that I do not wish to meet Lu Feng, increasing his boldness, ” Believe it or not, that's up to you !”

The lone set of tableware proved to be the best defense, Lu Feng took one look, resigned to the fact, and did not speak further. They had a standstill for a long while before he continued with apparent difficulty: ” How can this be……… it would only make sense for him to come to you……. you were always close with him…….”

Yi Chen became flustered: " To tell you the truth, I made a grave mistake, which made him sad, I fear that he will not want to see me again for the rest of my life. He did not inform me when he left, making me go almost crazy searching for him everywhere, it has been several months I had no news of him, do you still think he would come looking for me here ?"

Yi Chen, I am so sorry.

" This is impossible…… I have been to your house to look for him……… he did not go home……… and he is not here…….. where else could he have gone all alone ?"

" How would I know, I heard that he might have gone to Shanghai, " Yi Chen was losing his patience, " If you have the ability, then comb through the whole city, you might just find him there."

" I already did that, he is not there ."

Yi Chen was very surprised: " You….. How did you know about Shanghai………"

" I met Xiao Chen there ."

Yi Chen made a slight exclamation " Oh ", and turned quiet for a while: " So what if you have met him ? My brother is not the same person as before. Don't forget that you abandoned him, not writing to him even once, why bother coming back now ."

Lu Feng was dumbfounded: " Is this what he told you ? How could I not have written ? I wrote him letters for an entire year !"

" You're a liar !" Yi Chen clenched his teeth, " I am always the first one to run to my family's mailbox, there were never any letters from you !"

" Why would I send it to your home address, if I did that, it would all be confiscated ! Every single letter I had to divert to a friend in England to mail it to Xiao Chen's school. I made sure I left instructions for him to send his letters to my school address so it will not get blocked by my family. He was the one who never replied ." Lu Feng turned downcast, "He must have given it a thought, and decided not to have anything to do with me anymore, in the past…….. he had always been sensitive to others' opinions … …"

" My brother he, he……. he…….." Yi Chen hesitated, " He transferred out of his school ."

Lu Feng looked at him in astonishment, and could not speak any further.

" The people responsible for collecting mails probably did not bother to return them to the post office…… that's why you did not know. …….. As long as it was something meant for my brother, they did not even want to touch it…….." Yi Chen had to choke out the last sentence, he certainly remembered how reputable Cheng Yi Chen was during that period, the mere mention of his name causing mass disgust and widespread terror, " It's not your fault…… but pity that idiot, coming to me everyday to ask, is there a letter from Lu Feng, is there a letter from Lu Feng……"

" Transferred ?" Lu Feng repeated himself lost in thoughts, and gave a long exhale: " It's no wonder then… … that he would forget me ."

" What do you mean he forgot you !" Yi Chen was livid, he probably could not stand anyone misunderstanding his brother, this foolish child.

" He may not say it out loud, but whatever it was that was eating at his heart, would I not be able to tell ? That sorry guy did not try to be in another relationship for five years, obsessively waiting for you, if not…….. if not for the fact that he found out you were getting married, he likely would have never gave up and wait for you his entire life, ……… he forgot you ? ! That's the biggest joke ever ! It is you who have forgotten him ! You can even marry a woman, I must applaud you !"

" You don't have to make him out to be saint !" Lu Feng tried to control his temper, " Waiting for me to return ? If he was indeed waiting whole-heartedly for me, would he have had so many sex partners ? Countless ! What am I to him ? Of course, I know I don't have the rights to expect him to wait devotedly for me, but the least he could do is not keep changing men so happily …………"

" What shit are you spouting ! ! !" Yi Chen is trembling with anger, " Get the fuck out ! Who's the son of a bitch who told you these nonsense, and you believed it ? You cannot see for yourself what kind of person my brother is ? ! Did you fucking grew eyes out of the back of your head ? ! !"

" Xiao Chen said it himself !" Lu Feng spat out each word, his face turning green.

" How is that possible ? ! !'

"…………….."

" I understand now ! You must have done something to upset him am I right ? You are getting married aren't you ? He must have said all these to disguise his real emotions… …"

" I am not getting married, and Xiao Chen knows this, " Lu Feng is growing frustrated, " I told him long ago that the engagement was a farce. We nearly……… got back together ………."

" Then it must be because of something else ." Yi Chen's intuition can be scaringly spot-on at times, " Did he catch you red-handed in bed ?"

Lu Feng bit down on his lips.

" You bastard… …" Yi Chen lunged forward ready to throw him a punch, but his fist was caught firmly.

" What can I do ? Yi Chen would not even let me touch him, and I didn't want to force him ! I confessed my love to him, and even gave him the keys to my house, but he did not give me an answer. When I hug him, he struggles so badly, I am afraid that he would get mad so I didn't dare to push his buttons, I could only endure. In the office, I had to secretly look at him all day, he does not know how torturous it was for me! When you like someone, you naturally want to hold him, what is so unusual about that ? ! ! I am a man with normal sexual needs, how long can I keep enduring ! Thinking of him day and night made me sleepless, that could be why I behaved so recklessly ? I found a man who looked like him as a substitute, but trust him to actually catch me in the act, what shitty luck do I have !" Lu Feng exhaled deeply.

" Yes ! It is all my fault, I wanted to apologize. But I am never the sort who is good with words, I can't coax, and the more I try to explain the worse I made it sound," He was so agitated he started pulling his hair, " If I can be half as eloquent with him as I am in conducting business negotiations, I would not land myself in such hot soup today. In front of him, I become an outright moron, I cannot do or say anything right, what can I do !"

" He avoided me for several days before coming back to work, the moment I saw him in my office I cut short an important phone call. That guy …… he, he actually came just to resign !" Lu Feng gritted his teeth, " What's the meaning of that ? Why can't we talk things out ? I would have happily let him beat me or scold me, I will accept it all, as long as he can be pacified, anything is good. The problem is no matter what I said, he kept repeating coldly ' Please provide a signature, Director, I need a signature, Director '! He even prepared the penalty amount, am I really that unforgivable ? "

" I only slept with someone ! Even if it is a crime, the penalty should not be death, and it is not as if he had never ……….."

" My brother, he did not !"

" It doesn't matter if he did or not, I am not going to be calculative on that, what I mind is …….. "

" He did not, means HE DID NOT ! !" Yi Chen's eyes were bloodshot, his face contorted in fury, " He did not even touched anyone ! Except, except a man………." He paused, " Even that was because he got cheated, I bear a responsibility too ……….. My silly brother treated him well, after …… he found out that it was all a lie, he was so devastated that he left to Shanghai all by himself, he did not even want to see me …….. that was the only time, the only time ………."

Yi Chen lowered his head dejectedly: "My brother developed a deep fear of being forsaken, if that idiot can hit or scold, I would have felt better too. He only knew how to hide, he could not even retaliate after being hurt, even turned around to apologize to me…………. he just became a coward retreating into himself, not trusting anyone ………."

" And you, you this asshole !" Yi Chen sounded like he was crying, his voice hoarse, " He went to you, have you thought about how much time he took to consider, and how much courage he had to summon, before making that decision ! He never had much guts to start off with, but for him to take that huge step is not easy by any means, and you actually let him catch you with another guy ? You must really want to force him to his death ………."

" He told you he had been with countless men, that is him talking with his heart ripped into pieces, blurting random nonsense to bluff you, and you believed ?! ……………. Did you scold him because of this ?"

" ………………." Lu Feng slumped down onto the floor, " I know I am not in any position to mind, after all during these years I haven't been clean myself……….. but how can I be completely liberal towards the man I love ? When I heard him talking about those men, I literally went crazy……….. I must have gone insane, I…… I hit him, I……. I even ……….."

Lu Feng could not continue.

Yi Chen bombarded him with punches and kicks: " You bastard ! ! You are worse than a beast, you monster ! ! No wonder he became this way ! No wonder he is a walking corpse now ! ! You asshole ………."

Lu Feng did not retaliate, he was accepting the beating, until he suddenly came to an abrupt realization and grabbed onto his collar: " What did you say ?"

"……………" Yi Chen was breathing hard.

" You saw him ?" Lu Feng grabbed onto him tightly, " You lied to me? He came back ! !"

Yi Chen froze and did not speak.

" Is he here right now ?"