Chapter 73 - Extra 3

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It was a winter afternoon. This was supposed to be a comfortable time of day, with the lazy afternoon sunlight slanting in through the windows. However, it wasn’t. It had just snowed outside. Not even a sliver of the sun could be seen. Looking out from the window, one only felt cold.

Yang Siran had two evening self-study classes on Sunday. He left home quite early. Either way, it was just him. It didn’t make much of a difference whether he was staying alone at home or in the classroom. He wore a down jacket over his school uniform, which made him look a bit bloated. His chin and mouth were buried in the collar of the down jacket, revealing only half of his face. There were earphones in his ears. He was listening to a playlist full of English songs. These could be used as practice. KBm8lS

There were a few marble steps outside of his apartment building. A thin layer of snow covered them, rendering the steps as slippery as the surface of a mirror. Yang Siran lost his balance as soon as he stepped on. His entire person fell forward; he hadn’t looked up just now, so hadn’t realized until the moment he lost his balance that there was actually someone in front of him.

I’m going to embarrass myself

Recently, the company was promoting a new artist. Yang Siran ran into him at a fashion show. He was honestly young and handsome. The boy was just past the age of twenty. When he saw Yang Siran, he nodded and called out with a smile, “Siran ge.” The company was promoting him very diligently. All his resources were excellent.

Everyone at the company was saying that Boss Geng was treating him exceptionally well. Things weren’t so simple.

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After the fashion show in France, Yang Siran and his assistant got on a flight back home. Only now were there truly no outsiders around. His assistant noticed that the other’s expression was a bit dark. Thus, he leaned over and lowered his voice to tell Yang Siran, “Don’t overthink things. Nothing lasts forever in this industry. You’ve been with him for four years already. It’s been a pretty long time.”

Yang Siran pressed his lips together. He didn’t respond. uzr2KY

“You aren’t the you of before anymore either. It’s not like you won’t be able to hold your own if you don’t have anyone to back you. There will definitely be some difficulties, but not to the extent that you’ll be bullied by anyone.” Yang Siran’s assistant had been working with Yang Siran for over two years. Aside from their work relationship, their personal relationship was honestly pretty great too. He could say a few things in private to him. “There’s no need to be hung up over a kid. Let him do what he wants. You can each take what you need. Taking a million steps back……it’s not necessarily a bad thing to remove yourself from this relationship.”

Yang Siran obviously couldn’t hide his relationship with Geng Jinwei from his assistant. It hadn’t been a secret for a long time. However, Yang Siran still refused to answer. He turned his head to the side and looked out the small window. The cloud cover was pretty thick today: the clouds were packed tightly together. It was very beautiful, but it made one feel a bit stifled when they looked at it.

Yang Siran immediately headed back to the company when he landed. He didn’t go home first. He knocked on Geng Jinwei’s office door and heard the other respond from the inside.

Yang Siran opened the door and walked in. Then, he gently closed the door behind himself. He looked at Geng Jinwei and called out, “Boss Geng.” wh7dyJ

“You’re back?” Geng Jinwei calmly asked.

It had already been close to four months since Yang Siran had come back. The same amount of time had passed since he had last seen Geng Jinwei. He quietly walked over to the other, eyes glued to him. He had really, truly missed him a lot. He was worth a lot more than he had been before, but some feelings wouldn’t change.

A few steps away from the office desk, though, he stopped in place.

——That boy was sitting next to Geng Jinwei’s legs. Yang Siran abruptly made eye contact with him. The boy was looking up at him. He even cocked his eyebrows and greeted Yang Siran. YTwdte

Yang Siran stood in place. He pressed his lips together before nodding in greeting too.

When he got out of the office, Yang Siran leaned against the wall next to the door. After a moment of silence, he heaved out a soft, long sigh.

On the other side of the door, Geng Jinwei told that boy, “You get out too.”

The boy wasn’t too willing. He still wanted to say something else, but Geng Jinwei’s foul expression made him keep his mouth shut. Who dared to actually be defiant around him? J1TdOk

There was no rule that said a sugar daddy could only have one lover. That wouldn’t be a lover anymore – it would be a beloved. Since the very start, Yang Siran had already prepared himself for this. Only, he had been rather fortunate. In the past few years, there hadn’t been anyone else around Geng Jinwei. In times of peace, one would always forget that some things were originally supposed to happen. This resulted in a forceful impact to one’s heart when these things really did happen. It was hard to accept. This was a bad habit that was the consequence of a peaceful life. Yang Siran looked at himself in the mirror and scoffed.

He was wearing black silk pajamas. This made his skin appear even paler. While sitting on the bed with one leg bent up, a strip of his pale, white ankle got revealed. This had a strong visual effect. It made him seem mesmerizing.

In the throes of pleasure, Yang Siran bit Geng Jinwei’s Adam’s apple. Immediately after, he started feeling regretful. Thus, he gently kissed that area.

Geng Jinwei had furrowed his brows because of this bite. He used his hand to squeeze the other’s chin. Yang Siran was forced to lift his head. It was hard to tell what Geng Jinwei was feeling based on his facial expression. He lowered his gaze and asked, “Angry?” CjqfYv

Yang Siran maintained eye contact with him. He didn’t look away at all. He still wasn’t willing to lie. Sincerely, he answered, “Not angry……but I am a bit sad.”

Geng Jinwei stared into his eyes. He let go. “Sad about what?”

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Yang Siran’s voice was slightly hoarse. He honestly replied, “Sad that you’re not mine and mine alone.”

This sentence was a bit out of line. It was probably the first time that Yang Siran had said anything of the like. After too many good experiences, anyone would start feeling a bit cocky. He wasn’t an exception either. grPmHd

Yang Siran wrapped his arms around Geng Jinwei’s neck. He buried his face in the crook of the other’s neck and woefully called out, “Uncle……”

Geng Jinwei used his hand to rub Yang Siran’s neck.

When cold people did these slightly gentle things, it was always enough to suffocate someone. Yang Siran closed his eyes and asked, “Does he call you that too?”

Geng Jinwei glanced at him again. His big hand randomly ruffled the other’s hair a few times. His movements weren’t gentle. Because of this, Yang Siran opened his eyes. Geng Jinwei stared at his eyes that were slightly red at the rims and didn’t respond. He only said, out of the blue, “There are so many young boys and girls out there. Aren’t you going to try with them?” NslCB4

Yang Siran immediately felt a bit nervous. He blinked and asked, “Have you heard something? I didn’t. I’ve never fooled around. I’m clean.”

He truly was clean. In so many years, even the amount of times he had touched himself was pitifully scarce.

Was there anything Geng Jinwei didn’t know? The person in his arms was always obedient in speech, but in actuality, was stubborn on the inside. That stubbornness was clearly visible in his eyes. The light in his eyes had never dimmed after all these years.

At the end of that night, Yang Siran practically fainted. He had completely run out of energy. His palms were wet; he wanted to grab Geng Jinwei’s hand, but failed to do so. Geng Jinwei suddenly told him, “Let’s stop here.” RQIGaF

Yang Siran gently blinked his eyes. His eyelashes started trembling. He didn’t even dare to speak too loudly. Softly, he asked, “……What?”

Geng Jinwei removed a fallen eyelash that was stuck to his face. In his deep voice, he said, “Let’s stop here. Don’t come over again.”

Yang Siran was in his prime. These were the best years of his life. For some people, it was fortunate to be able to separate peacefully from their ex-sugar daddies. Most sugar daddies were very generous. After a considerable separation fee, they also usually wouldn’t forget about their previous obedient lovers if they received any spare resources. Even Yang Siran’s assistant told him in secret, “This is a good thing. Boss Geng won’t mistreat you. In the future, as long as you don’t start a direct feud with Su Chen and don’t obviously provoke him, life will be so easy. Let’s not make things harder for ourselves. Right now, you’re no longer a nobody in our company. We’ll just diligently film movies and earn money. What a wonderful life.”

The people who knew about this all thought that Yang Siran had lucked out. The past few years, his sugar daddy had wholeheartedly promoted him. Now, he was popular and no longer needed to worry about carrying this secret with him. He was clean. xBDdf0

But Yang Siran’s initial goal had never been for Geng Jinwei to make him popular. He had never thought about that.

Thus, some things were like a person drinking water – only the person drinking the water knew whether it was cold or warm.

From the first time that Yang Siran had seen Geng Jinwei at seventeen until now, it had been almost thirteen years.

When he had been with Geng Jinwei, he had lowered himself to the ground to like this person. All of this had been done willingly. He wanted to like that person in this manner. Perhaps others considered him cheap for doing so, but regardless of whether it was cheap or not, that was the kind of person he was. Since the beginning, his affections had formed in this manner. He didn’t feel like this made his affections less valuable than others’. These were all his own choices. There was no better or worse when it came to love. G129eY

But this didn’t mean that Yang Siran really didn’t have any pride, really didn’t care about his reputation anymore.

Did he still like him? Of course, and not even the slightest bit less than before. However, Yang Siran really never went to Geng Jinwei’s house again. He never glued himself to the other’s legs in his office again. When they saw each other, he would politely call out, “Boss Geng.” At most, he would merely turn around and silently stare at Geng Jinwei for a few seconds after he had walked away.

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No matter how much he liked him, he wouldn’t pester him. He had already been blessed by fate to have spent a few years by his side. Not every romance could come to fruition. Compared to so many one-sided crushes that never amounted to anything, he was already extremely fortunate.

“Shaoyi ge, Yuan Ye ge.” Yang Siran’s seat was one row behind theirs. When he saw this couple, he immediately walked over to greet them. “You two are so handsome today.” pDEWCO

“Are we not handsome normally?” Yuan Ye cocked an eyebrow while smiling. “Has your Yuan Ye ge become less handsome or has your Shaoyi ge’s face become less appealing?”

“Neither, neither,” Yang Siran hurriedly said. “It’s mainly because you usually never wear suits.”

Fang Shaoyi greeted him too. He lowly said, “Director Zhou is over there. When everything’s over, go say hi to him. Last time, you dropped out of his film last minute. It was nice of him to not make things difficult for you. Don’t offend him. Have a nice, long conversation with him.”

These days, Yang Siran was often in contact with these two. They were technically quite close. Sometimes, Fang Shaoyi would lecture him like this. Yang Siran would always diligently listen and remember everything the other told him. He would also always follow the other’s instructions. xnQTD0

There was never a lack of actors of celebrities at movie festivals. Yang Siran saw Su Chen too. All the rumors now were saying that Boss Geng spoiled him greatly. He was like a lust demon, given how good he was at coaxing people. The little boy truly did seem to shine when he smiled: he was quite likeable.

He called Yang Siran to a halt, wanting to talk with him. He even affectionately addressed him as “Siran ge.”

Yang Siran was always friendly too. If others saw how well they were getting along, they could probably take a picture and start promoting a CP later. Yang Siran didn’t want to promote a CP with this person. Since debut until now, he had already racked up quite a few CPs and often got tied to others for promotion. However, he didn’t really want this to happen this time. Thus, when Su Chen scooted a bit closer, Yang Siran silently took a step back. He refused to give this person the opportunity.

A sugar daddy’s ex and current lovers. Such a CP was honestly a bit awkward. Ilnzg7

Su Chen didn’t mind that he wasn’t being cooperative either. He smiled and asked, “Let’s add each other on WeChat, Siran ge?”

Yang Siran pulled out his phone and scanned the other’s QR code. Su Chen lowered his head and quietly asked, “The candy is delicious. Can Siran ge share a bite with me?”

After successfully adding each other, Yang Siran put his phone away. He lightly chuckled and said, “Use your skills to take it.”

The candy really was delicious. Yang Siran had cautiously kept it in his mouth for four years. Now, Su Chen was asking him to share a bite. Disregarding whether or not Yang Siran could bear to share with him, what did he have to share? He himself didn’t even have the candy anymore. rIBKjE

Yuan Ye knew about his situation. Yang Siran had told him a long time ago. Su Chen was just as friendly when he saw Fang Shaoyi and Yuan Ye. He acted like a little fanboy. Eventually, Yuan Ye even joked with Yang Siran, “Isn’t this Geng ge’s new lover?”

He didn’t know yet that Yang Siran and Geng Jinwei’s relationship had already ended. Yang Siran chuckled and said, “I guess so. Looks like I lost my sweetheart.”

Yuan Ye cocked an eyebrow and looked at him.

Yang Siran sighed. His gaze was filled with slight sorrow. He softly laughed and said, “He’s young and energetic. Who wouldn’t like him?” LMdndb

After Yang Siran said this, Yuan Ye scoffed. He pressed down on Yang Siran’s head for a bit and threw out, “Doesn’t seem like that to me. You don’t even understand your sweetheart. What a waste of so many years. Think long and hard about it.”

Yang Siran looked up at him. Yuan Ye only said, “Rack your brains.”

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What was there to rack his brains about? That person was already gone. He had already thought about his affections for over a decade. What else was there that he didn’t understand? Only because he clearly understood the other could he stop himself from obstinately clinging to him, could he truly be so carefree, and could he refuse to mention that deep love that he had felt for the other since his youth. He had acted out the role of a greedy lover who had given up his body in exchange for resources. He wouldn’t ask for anything else. He had long since figured the other out.

Yang Siran very rarely took the initiative to contact him. He only sent out simple blessings during holidays. OX58mK

On the day of Geng Jinwei’s birthday, Yang Siran sent him a message: Happy birthday. Wish you well.

Geng Jinwei replied: Thank you.

Yang Siran stared at those two words. He finger slid up and down his phone screen. Despite how impulsive and reluctant he felt, he ultimately didn’t respond to this message.

His former sugar daddy was truly generous. There was nothing bad to be said in this regard. Yang Siran’s status in their company didn’t change at all. He still had handfuls upon handfuls of good resources. The company would invest in movies for him; he also received endorsement offers for top tier luxury brands. Eventually, everytime Yang Siran received some valuable resource, he would send a message to Geng Jinwei: Thank you. Wish you well. tiLcem

Have a wonderful Mid-Autumn reunion. Wish you well.

Merry Christmas. Wish you well.

Happy New Year. Out with the old and in with the new. Wish you well.

Geng Jinwei replied to this New Year’s message: Happy New Year. HVPiBJ

Perhaps the fireworks outside were too stunning. Juxtaposed, Yang Siran seemed extra cold and lonely as he stayed in his room by himself. He stared at the three words on his screen. Surprisingly, he failed to control himself. As if scared that he would feel regretful or not dare to send the message, he quickly typed up a few characters and clicked send: I miss you so much.

This message definitely wouldn’t get a reply. Yang Siran wasn’t an obsessive or clingy person. The other was even less of the hesitant type. Since they had cut things off, they needed to cut things off cleanly. There was no need to be wishy-washy.

Someone like Yang Siran was never lacking in pursuers. There were male and female celebrities of about the same status as him in the industry. There were also younger celebrities eager to spend time with him. Or, there were a few sugar daddies who had money and influence. As long as Yang Siran agreed, he could find a very good replacement. It wasn’t like there weren’t any young and handsome ones.

But it was impossible for Yang Siran to agree. His heart was completely dedicated to one person. Many years ago, it had already melted because of that one person. He didn’t have his own heart anymore. OSm0bP

He was signed under Fang Shaoyi’s company. He was an artist under Geng Jinwei. Most of the time, it wasn’t too difficult for him to avoid dangerous situations. Additionally, people usually wouldn’t try to do anything to him if he didn’t want them to. However, there were always certain instances when a capitalist would feel impulsive after too many rounds of drinks and Yang Siran would fail to figure out a way to properly remove himself from the situation——

He had gotten drugged at the meal table. At night, someone unlocked his hotel room with a spare card. Yang Siran was burning up in his sleep; each breath he expelled was hot air. Someone lifted up his shirt while he was dazed. Yang Siran couldn’t see too clearly. Only, when he reached out and touched that person’s arm, he broke out in a cold sweat.

As soon as he touched the other, he knew it wasn’t him. If it wasn’t him, it wasn’t okay. He reflexively flipped over to avoid the intruder. He had no strength in his arms or legs. Fortunately, he worked out regularly. In the end, he successfully managed to escape.

Yang Siran wasn’t in the right state of mind. He pulled out his phone and actually dialled that number that was etched into his memory. The voice through the phone was raspy and deep, but it wasn’t cold. To Yang Siran, it sounded warm. The man asked, “What’s wrong?” IFH2vY

“I……” Only when he started speaking did he realize that his throat was already so dry that he could barely speak. Under the influence of the drug, his brain was already muddled. In this state, he panted helplessly. While sprawled out on the ground, he said, “I’ve caused trouble for you……I beat someone up.”

“Who?” The other’s voice always carried such strength. Without realizing it, Yang Siran actually started crying. He lifted his tired hands to wipe the tears away and heard that person say through the phone, “Send me the address and room number.”

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Yang Siran practically muttered out with his hoarse voice, “……I can only be yours.”

People arrived very quickly. Even after they had already taken that person away, Yang Siran still didn’t know who he had beat up. He didn’t want to know either. 3FHJvn

When he opened his eyes again, he saw that figure that he had engraved into his heart many years ago. His eyes were still so deep set. The lines of his face were still so hard. He looked too aggressive and not gentle in the slightest.

Yang Siran came back to his senses. He sincerely apologized, “I’ve caused trouble. Sorry, Boss Geng.”

Geng Jinwei was standing next to the window. He looked over at Yang Siran and asked, “Is this your first day in this industry? Did your sense of self-preservation get eaten by a dog?”

Yang Siran didn’t refute him. He nodded and said, “I was careless.” H8U35F

“You were careless?” Geng Jinwei strode over. In only a few steps, he had already reached Yang Siran. He stretched a hand out and grabbed Yang Siran by the hair, forcing the other to look up at him. The viciousness in his voice caused one’s heart to tremble. “You were careless? Should you be apologizing to me? Who should you be apologizing to?”

Geng Jinwei threw back his blankets and placed a hand against his abdomen. He forcefully pressed down. “You dare to put anything in your mouth and swallow it? You couldn’t even tell that the drink was fucking drugged?”

This sudden physical contact caught Yang Siran off guard. Even his heart started quivering.

“So now you dare to accept invitations for dinner gatherings even when your assistant isn’t around? Really fucking badass.” Geng Jinwei’s hand trailed down Yang Siran’s body and stopped a few inches below his abdomen. He pressed down on that area as the vein in his forehead pulsed. “If he had added just a bit more, you’d be ruined. Do you know what ruined means? Fucked up? If he had gotten his hands on you, you would’ve been getting carried out horizontally today!” U cRQ0

Geng Jinwei tightened his grip on Yang Siran’s hair. Yang Siran arched his back even more. Geng Jinwei was right in front of his face. He clenched his teeth and asked, “Where’s your brain? I asked you where your brain is!”

He was truly outraged. He often got angry at other people, but this was the first time he was getting mad at Yang Siran. In all this time, Yang Siran had never done anything to make him angry. He saved people a lot of worry. This was the first time he had gotten entangled in anything, and it was a horrifying incident. If that person had really succeeded, the consequences were unfathomable.

Yang Siran incessantly apologized. Voice hoarse, he said, “I made a mistake.”

“You did make a mistake.” Geng Jinwei let go of him. Because of this, Yang Siran lost his balance. He only managed to remain sitting after propping his arm against the bed. “You almost scared me to fucking death. Fuck.” 3NOdzw

Yang Siran forgot to respond. He looked up at the other. His face was still bruised from when he had injured it last night. He was ghastly pale and barely looked alive. He looked as pitiful as could be. Yang Siran had truly suffered quite a fright.

Geng Jinwei reached out and tugged him closer to his own body. He kept a tight grip on the other while pressing Yang Siran’s face against his chest. The hand on Yang Siran’s head still couldn’t be considered very gentle.

His scent instantly rushed into Yang Siran’s nostrils. Yang Siran’s mind suddenly went blank. He couldn’t think of anything. His mouth was open and his lips were trembling. For a long, long time, he couldn’t say a word. His lips were completely colorless. Thus, his furious sugar daddy lowered his head and bit down on his lips until they started bleeding.

Geng Jinwei had kept him around for four years. In the beginning, aside from Yang Siran’s assistant and Geng Jinwei’s personal chauffeur and assistant, nobody had known about this. Yuan Ye had found out only because Yang Siran himself had admitted it. Aside from this, nobody else knew. Eventually, as time passed by, more and more people started making guesses. However, because of Geng Jinwei’s cold face, nobody dared to actually spread any rumors. To this day, Yang Siran was still clean in the eyes of the outside world. There was nothing bad to say about him and he had no secrets to be exposed. 9ZGoyu

This was how one treated a true lover. As for the ones where the whole world could hear about the rumors, they definitely couldn’t be real.

Later, Geng Jinwei squeezed Yang Siran’s chin and asked him, “Don’t you have any idea how much I’ve done for you?”

Story translated by Chrysanthemum Garden.

“I do.” Yang Siran incessantly nodded his head. “You’re good to me.”

“You do?” Geng Jinwei scoffed. “If you do, would you still be thinking about me every fucking day? Are there no other men in this world aside from me? Nobody else can fuck you?” dbtedH

Yang Siran still nodded. He looked extremely obedient. “There are. There are plenty of men, but they aren’t mine.”

“Seems to me like you don’t have a brain,” Geng Jinwei said.

Yang Siran scooted close. He intimately nipped at Geng Jinwei’s ear. His voice was low and deep. It was also filled with a cautious adoration. He didn’t say anything extra. As usual, he only called out, “Uncle……”

Each individual needed to take responsibility for their own affections. Whether bitter or sweet, they were all one’s own choices. They were one’s faith; they were one’s innermost desires. Nkjvt1