Chapter 28

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Chapter 28

We looked at each at close range as our lips repeatedly touched and parted. I was able to get a hold of myself by the flushed and feverish looking Aoi.

“We can’t anymore. We can’t.”

I mutter as if to convince myself. No matter if Aoi told me to and I was swayed, this isn’t good. Even though I calmed down and turned my face away, it was futile.

“Yuki…”

“Aoi-mph”

She forcefully held my face in her hands and kissed me. Aoi’s assertiveness and this situation surprised me to the extent that I couldn’t move. When she parted her lips away from mine, she said as if brooding over it.

“Just, for now…”

“Aoi?”

“Just today, can you do it…just for today?”

“But…”

“Yuki, do it…”

Different from just before, Aoi was looking at me anxiously, as is pleading. From that request, looking at the expression on Aoi’s face, I couldn’t reject her and so I kissed her again.

Out lips met and parted several times, and then we looked at each other at a distance where our lips are almost touching. Again, by this atmosphere, by Aoi, I’m being stimulated and swayed, but if Aoi asks for it, I thought it was fine to respond to her. I found myself putting my hands around her head and kissing her aggressively.

“Hngh! Haa, nnn, haa, nnn!”

Aoi made a small sound at the suddenness, but I pried open her lips with my tongue and invaded her mouth. I put one hand on her waist while holding her head tightly so that she couldn’t escape. I indulged in her and entwined our tongues as if relishing it, making obscene sounds. It felt so good that I wanted more and didn’t even care that I was dripping saliva. Aoi made a small groan and didn’t resist, letting me do as I want. Aoi whose body jumped a little was so lovely that I savored the kiss while changing the angle. The kiss with Aoi, whom I cherished so much.

“Nn, haa, haa, haa…”

When we finally let go of each other’s lips, Aoi seemed to be in pain as she gripped my clothes tightly and repeatedly breathed roughly. While like that, Aoi started leaning on my shoulder. I then calmly realized that I went too far and wrinkle my eyebrows. I felt like I’d done something that could never be undone.

“…with this, we’re done.”

I was swept away again. I’ve done it even though I shouldn’t of. While muttering with regret, Aoi was breathing roughly and nodded her head.

“I’m not doing this again, alright?”

Even though I did such a thing, to say it in this way, I felt guilty. Aoi smiled as usual, even though it wouldn’t have been weird for her to despise me for what I just did. While Aoi asked for it, I still thought about what I just did. It’s also my fault for being swayed. But after Aoi calmed down a bit, she suddenly hugged me from around my neck. I was flustered by her reserved way of doing so.

“Yuki… can we really not do it anymore?”

That flustered me even further.

“…What are you saying? You said that it’s only for today, didn’t you? …we shouldn’t be doing… something like this. I also went a little overboard, sorry.”

“…if you’re going to apologize, then I want you to do it again…”

I couldn’t hide my flustered self from Aoi saying her wish in a small voice. The ‘it’ she’s talking about is probably kissing on the lips. I’m not sure why Aoi wants me to kiss her—is it because she’s looking for reassurance? Or is it because she accepts most things I do and can’t say no even if she wants to? My head is chaotic. But I know I have to deny it.

“W-We can’t. Aoi, you have someone you like; you can only do it with the person you like. I did it earlier, but that’s not good. I’ll do it again but not on the lips.”

I hesitated to touch Aoi and so I put my hand next to her leg. It’s not good to do that when you have someone you like. I don’t have anyone I like, but I told her that I’ll support her love and if I can, I want to bring it to fruition.

“If it’s Yuki… it’s fine…”

“I-I said no, you have someone you like, don’t you?”

“But… but… if it’s just once in a while…”

“Aoi.”

Aoi is stubborn at times. I can tell Aoi has no intention of pulling away from her act of strongly hugging me, and not letting go. Aoi, who is strongly dependent on me and seeking for a peace of mind while having someone she likes, seems to be fascinated by the act where you feel affection and security the easiest. However, I felt guilty and regretful with what she asked me to do. What have I done to such a precious girl? Even when I tried to push her shoulders and push her away, she just held on to me tighter.

“Aoi?”

“…Yuki… I don’t want to.”

“But Aoi.”

“…”

She went silent in the end. It’s rare to see Aoi stubborn to this extent, and I became troubled by it. If I deny it both forcefully and strongly, Aoi will definitely obey, but there’s no way I can do such a thing and so I started thinking. Then one suggestion came to mind. I compromised by thinking of a plan I didn’t think was a good idea but should be fine if I’m careful. This is the only thing I can think of right now.

“All right, all right. Then, until Aoi goes out with the person you like… well, I’ll do it once in a while. Is that okay?”

“…Uh-huh.”

Aoi finally nodded and smiled happily as she let go of me. It’s difficult, but I don’t have a choice. With this, I’ve once again listened to her request.

From that day on, we were much closer than before, and Aoi became even more dependent on me and wouldn’t leave me.

Aoi often came to my house until my injury healed. Aoi’s worked increased, so we mostly exchanged calls and texts, but she still found time to come visit and take care of me. She cooked for me, disinfected my wounds, bandaged them, and devoted herself to me, while at night she acted spoiled with her clinginess. There were times she was frightened and scared because of the stalker incident, though that gradually calmed down, but at the same time, she started showing me affection to a dependent degree, more so than before.

I’ve been a bit troubled since then. Because Aoi’s been asking for kisses recently. Aoi, who clearly made pleading gestures and behaviors was too embarrassed to say it and would often hesitate to say it or remain silent but would still look at me with a passionate gaze. I pretended not to notice. If she clearly asks me then I’ll kiss her on the lips, but other than that I’ll kiss her, though not on the lips, and hug her like I’ve always done.

To be honest, I like Aoi, but if you were to ask if that’s of love, then I’m not sure. Even though I responded to what she wanted, I don’t even understand myself. I thought of her as a cute and precious little sister who needed a lot of care, and while there were times my heart would beat quickly, she’s a beautiful girl, so it makes sense even if we’re the same sex. Aoi is still cute, and I spoil her, but I don’t feel pain in my heart nor longing for her. I have the feelings of like for her, but I really don’t understand.

Besides, I feel guilty when I think about the person Aoi likes. I felt mixed feelings when we kissed. I’m a girl and her friend. Not that there’s anything wrong with same sex love, but the other person is a celebrity and has feelings for someone else.

And recently, another thing has been bothering me. It was when I was staying at Aoi’s house after my injury healed. She’s been obviously following and staring at me with her eyes. Moreover, when our eyes met, she immediately turned away from me, and when I tried talking to her, she was somewhat absentminded, making me wonder if she had something she was worried about—asking her about it made her flustered and dodge the question. She doesn’t look gloomy, so I don’t need to be worried, but it’s about Aoi, so I’ll get worried. I asked her several times, but she insisted she was fine, so I tentatively nodded in agreement, though I wondered if that was true. Disregarding my suspicion, Aoi had been asking for a kiss that day as well, but I managed to evade her well.

However, as expected, looks like I won’t be able to escape today. I’ve been staying at Aoi’s house as usual since we’ve been having the same off days. It was right after we got into the bed, and since I’ve been acting like I haven’t been comprehending what Aoi’s been trying to say as well as managing to dodge her kisses well, Aoi grew impatient and shyly asked me to kiss her on the lips.

“… we did it the other day, didn’t we?”

“We did, but…”

She’s been sulking a lot lately because we haven’t been doing it, and so I subconsciously pat her on the head. I smiled wryly while thinking I’m technically her friend and asked what I thought was self-evident.

“Why do you want to do it?”

“…B-Because it… makes me feel… at … ease.”

“You have someone you like, don’t you?”

“…But…Yuki’s… special.”

She said something that made me happy, but inwardly, I held mixed feelings. This girl is particularly blind, she thinks of me far more than I thought compared to what I previously said. That’s even to the extent of dismissing the person she likes. Plus, Aoi’s feelings are very, very heavy. They’re fragile and prone to being wounded so you need to treat her carefully. I didn’t want to end up hurting her in any way, so I ended up accepting it with a smile.

“Then close your eyes.”

Aoi obeyed silently. I put my hand on her cheek and gave her a fleeting kiss. I gave up thinking that it’s better to do this than to hurt her. Besides, this is only for a limited time until Aoi goes out with the person she likes. It’ll end when the times comes. This reassured me.

“Is that fine? Are you relieved?”

Aoi made a small nod, her cheeks reddening. She gets embarrassed every time even though she’s the one asking for it. If you’re embarrassed then we don’t need to do it, but Aoi asks quite often.

“I… feel relieved, but…”

I knew right away what she was trying to say, but she was so cute with her innocent reaction, so I felt like being mean to her and started teasing her. I feel bad, but she’s too cute I couldn’t stop.

“Then, do you want to be the one to do it?”

“Huh? I-I can’t…”

“Ehh? Then, I’ll sleep facing the other way.”

“W-Why?!”

I though she wouldn’t like it since we always face each other while sleeping, hugging each other, but seems like I was right. She doesn’t say it, but she has an anxious expression. Aoi’s easy to understand.

“Just because. Come on, hurry up.”

I gave Aoi an evasive answer and rushed her. The distance between us is small. Just moving her face a little forward, a simple act, and as expected, Aoi is flustered and isn’t moving. I knew she couldn’t do it anyway, so I just stared at her while laughing.

“It’s embarrassing, my face is… getting hot.”

“I’m the only one looking, come on.”

When I brought my face right in front of her, Aoi looked away, deeply embarrassed.

“Y-You’re too close!”

“Whaaat? But we we’re kissing just now.”

“That’s different!”

She said so a little strongly, but her face was still red. It’s funny seeing a shyful Aoi.

“Okay, okay. Before that, are you not going to do it? I’ll really sleep facing the other way, you know?”

“That’s… no good. …But… I-I can’t. I’ll… be too nervous…”

“Why? I compromised the other night, but I won’t do that today. Come on.”

I tried to approach the shy Aoi, but just before I could do so, she put her small hand on my face and stopped me. She’s been doing it even though she’s too shy to ask—this amount of shyness is a real mystery to me.

“Y-Yuki!”

She held my face and said it in a way as to resist, but while I said I wouldn’t compromise, I backed away easily. If that’s the case, then I also my own idea. Aoi seemed to have thought I wouldn’t back away and was wondering what happened.

“All right, all right, I understand. Then, I’ll be going to sleep. Goodnight.”

I said with a smile and turned the other way approaching the wall. This is the first time I turned my back to Aoi. Aoi was probably flustered at this point, but when I thought of trying to tease her a little more, she reservedly pulled on my clothes and called out to me.

“What is it?”

“…Are you really going to… sleep like this?”

I replied, wondering what she was asking at this point.

“Yeah, I’m already sleepy anyway. I moved over on this side a little, so you should have more sleeping space over there and have an easier time sleeping, right?”

“That’s, that may be true, but…”

“Hurry up and sleep. It’s already late.”

“…”

Aoi was silent as she couldn’t say anything regarding my sound argument. Still, she grabbed my clothes even more strongly than before and pulled on them. When I didn’t respond to her sole insistence, she pulled again a few times and mumbled quietly.

“Can you turn… this way…?”

“Hmm? I’m sleepy so let’s sleep.”

“… I don’t want to. …Hey, Yuki.”

“What is it? It’s spacious over there so you should have an easier time sleeping, right?”

“…It’s not easier to sleep…”

“That’s not true. That’s enough already, I’m going to sleep.”

I forcefully cut off the conversation by the cute, petulant acting Aoi by taking a deep breath. I thought she might actually go to sleep now, but I guess she doesn’t want to because she feels lonely. A little while after I cut the conversation, she repeatedly called my name.

“Yuki, hey… Yuki.”

“…”

“Yuki… Yuki.”

“…”

“Hey, Yuki? Yuki.”

“…Geez, what is it? Calling my name that much…”

She called me so insistently that I lost patience, and when I finally turned my whole body around, I found Aoi with tears in her eyes. I was taken aback. It seems like I overdid it.

“Why are you crying?”

“Because…”

“You really are a crybaby. I’m sorry.”

I comforted her with a gentle hug as I always do, and she immediately clung to me. I really pamper her too much. But I don’t think I’ll ever be able to stop this either.

“It’s lonely, so… don’t turn your back on me.”

“Okay, I understand. I only turned my back to you because you were hesitating…”

I smiled wryly at the fact that Aoi, who wants to be pampered and gets lonely easily, doesn’t even want to do that.

“That’s because… it’s embarrassing.”

“All right, all right, is that so. I’m sorry. Aoi, look this way.”

I guess there’s no helping it—I stroked her on the head and made her look up at me. Her tears receded, but because she seemed a little anxious and to apologize to her, I kissed her. The mere act of doing so had Aoi smiling as if relieved. I realized that I really am no match for her.

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