Chapter 116: Emotional breakdown (one / ten)

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"Axin is back, wash your hands and eat!" "Mom, I took the first place in the

class in the final exam!" In the dimness, the mother's cry was so familiar and

unfamiliar.

"My son is awesome! Dad takes you to swim on weekends!" Father always regarded

himself as the pride of his life, but Chen Xin no longer remembered when his

father stopped talking about him.

"Dad, I want to buy an astronomical telescope. I promise I can get four Aces

at the end of this semester!" When I was a child, I always yearned for the

sky. What was my ideal at that time? astronomer? astronaut? At that time,

everyone seemed to think the same.

"Son, you have to take care of yourself when you are alone, and spend more

time with your classmates in school. If you don't have enough money, just tell

me." I was admitted to college and left the house for the first time in his

life. A bank card was stuffed into Chen Xin's pocket.

"Hello, I am also in this dormitory, everyone will be a brother in the

dormitory from now on." Chen Xin can't remember who this is in the dormitory,

but it should be the eldest brother? The oldest, he always takes care of other

people.

"Axin, look at that senior sister, what a shame! Don't grab me, I want to

chase her to be my girlfriend!" Senior sister? Chen Xin was very impressed

with her. He didn't rob his brother, but his brother still fell in love.

"Whoever goes to the cafeteria to have a meal, bring me one! Hurry up! A point

back to defense!" A group of shirtless boys in the dormitory were playing

games. At that time, they didn’t even have many notebooks. What are you

playing? ? It seems to be CS.

"The lights are off, don't send messages to your girlfriend!" Someone outside

the door was checking their bedtime, and Chen Xin almost forgot that they were

not allowed to turn on the lights after ten o'clock in the evening in the

university.

"Senior, do you have a girlfriend? If not, can I be your girlfriend?" This is

the first school girl to confess to yourself? Since his sophomore year, Chen

Xin has been responsible for the work of welcoming new students every year. In

addition, he is more handsome, so he can't remember how many school girls

confessed to him.

"Little Chen, do you want to form a club with the senior?" Which senior is

this? Why don't you remember?

"Let's sing together! Celebrate the establishment of our new club!" When did I

form a club?

"What kind of song should I sing? I can play piano accompaniment. It happens

that there is a piano here." Senior sister who can play piano? Why don’t I

remember?

"Will you play that "End of the World"? That song was very popular a few years

ago. Why did I choose this song? Everyone celebrates the establishment of the

new club. Shouldn't they sing a more festive song?

"The song adapted from "Bamboo Song"? I will, I have studied the original

Japanese version." The senior sister sat in front of the piano, and the bright

music sounded.

However, it is strange that the senior sister sang the Japanese version, while

Chen Xin himself sang the Chinese version.

However, the two songs use the same tune and the melody is the same, so even

if the lyrics are different, Chen Xin and the piano sister still cooperate

very well.

When the two were singing together, the sound of the alarm clock suddenly

sounded, breaking the harmony.

Chen Xin woke up.

Reaching out to grab the phone on the bedside table and turning off the alarm

clock, Chen Xin sat up from the bed.

The newly installed ground source heat pump has started working, and the

temperature in the refuge at this moment has risen again. Compared with the

previous few days, it has not been so cold. Chen Xin does not need to shrink

in the quilt when he wakes up every day. The ideological struggle can get up.

However, although the person was awake, the memories that emerged from the

dream made Chen Xin feel melancholy and made him still immersed in those

memories.

The bits and pieces of living with my parents when I was young, the friendship

between my classmates, brothers, and friends in school when I was growing up,

and those who were in love in my life...

Memories are beautiful, but they are also heavy.

However, in addition to his parents, what Chen Xin cares most about is the

senior sister who sang with him at the end of the dream.

Strictly speaking, that is not the senior sister, because she and Chen Xin are

students at the same level, but they are half a year older than Chen Xin, so

she will let Chen Xin keep calling her senior sister after they meet.

Recalling the spirited self ten years ago, the memorable things I did in

school, and the people memorable, Chen Xin felt like he was attracted by a

huge vortex, and his emotions were constantly growing. The fall, unable to

break free.

After brushing his teeth and washing his face, Chen Xin did not prepare

breakfast as usual, but sat on the sofa with a bit of decadence and gloom.

Chen Xin is not surprised that he will dream about the past. People's dreams

are related to what he thinks. It is normal to have dreams every day and

night.

But... the people and things in the memories, the places full of memories, no

longer exist, and I can't go back~www.mtlnovel.com~ I looked at the paper I

posted last night on the wall and stood down. Chen Xin fell into deep self-

doubt. Can he really achieve this goal? Can you really stick to it? Does your

persistence make sense?

Chen Xin is not a person who is easily decadent or depressed, but at this

moment he is deeply in self-doubt and denial.

He was doubting his abilities, his motivation to keep on living, and his

purpose of living...

The end of the world is a stressful environment, and it is also a continuous,

almost endless stressful environment.

In such an environment, the pressure of survival, the mental loneliness, the

despair of not seeing hope in the future...

These emotions are constantly accumulating. Some people have poor bearing

capacity and may soon be emotionally collapsed, but even those who can bear

it, it is difficult to remain optimistic and positive in such an environment.

Because there is really no reason to make people optimistic, and there is no

future worth looking forward to make people positive.

Perhaps because of the existence of the system, Chen Xin could not put himself

under so much pressure. He felt that life would only get better and better,

and he was able to remain optimistic.

But when he recalled the past and the good things in the past, and contrasted

with the loneliness, loneliness, darkness, and coldness of the present, the

pressure and negative emotions accumulated from the end of the world to the

present erupted at this moment, and Chen Xin insisted again. Can't help it.

He is not a Brooklyn kid who can never be defeated, nor is he the kind of Long

Aotian who can transform his mentality from an ordinary person into a fight

for hegemony, slaying the gods and destroying demons in an instant after

traveling through another world.

Chen Xin is just an ordinary person, an ordinary person indistinguishable from

everyone else. He would cry, be afraid, be decadent, and despair.