Chapter 57 – Calmly….Don’t Run Away!

I woke up because of the heat of my body.

I’m more feverish now compared to yesterday.

Yesterday, I also woke up in the middle of the night because of a fever.

My temperature will increase for a moment and then subside after a while. I guess I’m still going to be alright.

Come to think of it, just before I woke up, I thought I heard a voice.

I get up and look around.

It’s just the room I sleep in.

Is it only my imagination?

「Haa, even so….I’m too hot.」

When my new power is rampaging, I’ll never know what will happen so I put several layers of barriers on me.

This doesn’t mean everything will be alright but it is better than nothing.

After a while, my fever recedes.

「Fuuu」

『……..』

「Hnn?」

I think I heard something?

I look around but nothing has changed. I’m still alone.

I use magic to check the surrounding area but I find no problem.

『……..』

However, there’s a faint sound.

It’s too small to hear.

What is it?

I listen carefully but I can’t hear it.

I waited for a few minutes but still couldn’t hear it.

Is it another effect of my rampaging power?

I better pay attention.

I pick up the notepad on the headboard of my bed.

It was at the bottom of the bag I had brought with me when I was dropped into this world, a forgotten notepad.

I wrote down my thoughts yesterday.

I look over what was written and sigh heavily.

I did not sigh because of the future but to reflect on all the things I’ve been thinking about.

After a day, my excitement must have calmed down.

Reading it over again, I see many inconsistencies.

But I can’t say that they are completely different.

Don’t make enemies for nothing.

If you’re suspicious, everyone seems to be an enemy.

That’s pretty much me yesterday.

「Yeah, it’s because of the lack of information.」

There is a limit to how much information I can gather given how I can’t speak with anyone.

Besides, how can I even gather information about god?

The same is true for the apprentices.

It’s too much to ask.

I didn’t think much yesterday but most of my assumptions are wrong.

There are some things that don’t feel strange when I think about them now.

However, I need to change my way of thinking and look at things from a different perspective.

For example, the restriction that’s preventing me from leaving this world should be something that is placed on a hero.

I mean, if it were me, would I be able to take the life of a group of strangers even if it was to save the world?

I can’t. I don’t want to experience the weight of taking life.

So, what would I do in that situation?

I would run away.

The restriction prevented that.

It is possible that flying and teleportation are restricted in order to keep the summoned from escaping.

I think it’s a bit cruel but they are already kidnapping people who have nothing to do with it and making them heroes to kill others. What else can’t they do?

Though that’s the worst-case scenario.

In other words, the information I have now is not enough to answer the question.

And I forgot something very basic.

It’s the difference between “gods” and “humans”.

For example, they say I’m no longer human but I have senses of humans.

It’s because of the 80 years of lifespan.

How about gods? 10000 years?

Six months of waiting is too long for me.

However, for god, it might be a moment.

Since we live in different places, our fundamental sense may be different too.

I also forgot about one more important thing.

The apprentices know a lot about god and I don’t.

God decided that the world is now safe.

In reality, it was riddled with problems.

Therefore, I concluded that god’s not on my side.

However, it is also possible that the apprentices know more about god and could have done something, right?

And for that reason, they managed to hide a lot of things from god.

Thinking about it, can god still be considered as a foe….

「I’m too impulsive～」

As the outburst of my power grew stronger every day, I started to be afraid.

I was afraid that I would kill my companions.

So I impulsively concluded that.

In order to hold him accountable.

「This isn’t good. Instead of running away and putting the blame on others, I have to come up with a solution.」

『Buy time for now.』

Yeah, all I have to do now is figure out how to keep my power from getting out of control.

Do I just need to use the power?

Use it for something?

But, what on earth am I supposed to use it for?

Use a lot of it without causing damage.

I can’t think of anything.

「I guess I’ll have to look for it.」

Yeah, there’s no point in just waiting for something to happen.

『Make sure you know what you want in the first place.』

「I don’t want to die. I want to live with everyone.」

I’m not going to act like someone cool by saying I want to protect everyone.

I simply don’t want to die.

So for now, let’s focus on finding a way to survive.

Time will tell if god is a friend or a foe.

However, I must think of my next move if god happens to be a foe.

「But still, it’s funny how I can change my mind in just….two days?」

Was I like this before?

It seems like I was more cautious before because I’m scared….no, I was faster to change my mind before…

Maa, I don’t think my personality will change.

「Good morning.」

「Hnn? Ah, good morning, Usa. Sorry, I was late.」

It seems that I was too absorbed in my thoughts and it’s already past breakfast time.

Even though the children were waiting.

My fever has settled down.

I’m sure I’ll be fine.

After reapplying barriers, I head to the living room with Usa.

In the living room, the angels are busy fighting…..for bread.

I still can’t believe that I’ll be seeing angel battles because of bread.

「Good morning.」

「Good morning, Kuuhi. Sorry, I’m late.」

Kuuhi tilted his head slightly and shook it sideways.

I guess he didn’t know what “late” meant.

However, he understood sorry so he knew I apologized.

Flap flap

Flap flap

Flap flap

Flap flap

The two angels are flying around the room and they are noisy.

And the angel being chased is holding a basket of bread and is running while eating.

How can it eat while they are fighting?

Should I stop them?

Hnn?

It looks like the one eyes from the kitchen brought us our breakfast.

「Thank you.」

The face of a one eye looked in the direction where the angels were.

The next moment, the one eye vanished.

「Eh!」

I hurriedly turned my gaze in the direction of the angel and saw an angel stunned as the breadbasket was taken away from it and another angel grabbing it from behind.

How did the one eye move just now?

It looks like teleportation…..

Or did I see it wrong?

I check on Flying Lizard in the living room.

Flying Lizard seems to be staring at one eye with its eyes wide open.

Is it really teleportation?

「If the one eyes could learn magic, would they be amazing mages? Wizards? I’m not even sure if I could do that.」

Ah, the bread on my hand was taken too.

……..since I’m watching, I am some sort of involved.

「Usa, Kuuhi, let’s eat.」

「Is it okay?」

Usa looks worked as she looks at the angels.

「It’s okay. The one eyes are here.」

「Eat!」

Kuuhi quickly sits down on a chair and waits for us to sit.

They are already showing their own personality.

Kuuhi is good at not getting involved.

And he gives priority to eating above all else.

Usa tends to get involved easily and she seems to be gentle.

Ai and the others seemed to have noticed that too so they are always following her.

「……..Everyone’s smart. I envy you.」

Still, the evolution of the one eyes is amazing.