Chapter 5 – Anxious and Out of Control….Something is Wrong

Hah…calm down, me.

My mind is confused and my thoughts are running wild.

I take a few deep breaths and calm myself down.

A big chicken….what the hell is that?

And if we’re bartering, food should be good enough.

The problem with money can be solved by selling ores.

I don’t know the value of the ores so I can’t say for sure.

…….for now, let’s calm down before doing anything.

I look at Boss-san and Shuri’s eggs in front of me.

Somehow, I feel relieved.

For a while now, I had a vague feeling in my mind that I’ve been avoiding.

It was something I couldn’t help but think about but I ignored it and it seemed like…I’m reaching the limit?

What was it? Bad dreams, lack of sleep, and I suddenly wanted to do something unnecessary and I’m somewhat confused….

Did I even have this personality?

I’m feeling a lot of anxiety right now.

That’s for sure.

The reason is probably the transformation of the forest which is happening everyday.

Looking at my companions, I understand that they are fine but the scenery I see changes almost everyday.

I can’t blame myself for feeling anxious since it’s the most normal reaction for me.

In addition, the fact that I couldn’t talk to anyone about it worsened my anxiety.

I tried to not think about it and just shrug it off but….

Given my personality, I would feel uncomfortable but there’s no way I’d feel too anxious about it. Why am I feeling out of character?

Well, it’s a good thing that I only have reckless ideas. If I took it out on my companions and hit them, it means I’m no longer me.

I should be aware of my current state.

Since I’m feeling anxious, I need to figure out how to deal with it.

First and foremost, I need to calm down.

Phew.

And let’s find out the cause of my out of character behavior.

Something is wrong.

No, I truly wanted eggs.

But not from big chicken but a regular chicken egg….

I want…pancakes.

I’ve been trying to think about it because when I remember it, I feel like I want to eat it!

I also want rice.

I want oyakodon, katsudon….no, this is not working.

Yeah, now that I think about it…my desire for food is out of control.

Let’s change our mood.

It's been a while since I’ve gone running to the lake.

Moving your body is also a change of pace.

….maybe I’ll think of something better when it comes to eggs.

….No, I’m thinking about it again.

Change of pace!

---Scene Change---

I ran to the first lake I could find.

Kurou gave me a look as if saying he wants me to ride him but I refused.

He gave me a pitiful look but I did my best to hold out.

As I ran through the forest, I noticed a lot of change.

Some of the trees I had always seen had grown one size bigger.

Some of the flowers seemed to have changed their shape.

Lately, I’ve been seeing monsters that are not hostile which is something I have never encountered before.

No, those hostile animals are monsters so they should be different….

Are they the normal animals of this world?

I mean, what’s the definition of a monster in the first place?

….I don’t know.

I stopped once and looked around my surroundings.

The impression I get from the forest is quite different from before.

In particular, the intensity and quantity of magical power around is different.

I realized once again that I’m in a different world.

No, I already know about that but….there’s something strange on how I accept things recently.

What’s wrong with me?