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For Fu Yuan, this kind of happiness was extremely unrealistic- aside from the people within the demonic cult, there was never another person who would willingly be close to him, and there would furthermore be no person that would willingly be like Xie Zhi An who was good to him.

Xie Zhi An told him, he would make up for all the love and caring that Fu Yuan was missing.

Just like a dream, Xie Zhi An would always give him many many surprises. He would make him a lot of good things to eat, take him to see scenery he had never seen before, and let him know, that there was still a person who would willingly love him.

These were too wonderful- wonderful to the point it wasn’t realistic in the slightest. Every day, he would both live in happiness, and also live in terror.

If Xie Zhi An wanted to leave, on what grounds would he have to make him stay?

As though sensing his unease, Xie Zhi An would be as though inseparable from him. One day, the other person suddenly asked him if he were to get better, what he wanted to do.

If he were to be better again, and was able to live long, what he wanted to do most was perhaps to do what Xie Zhi An wanted to do. Even if he did not especially mention it to him before, but whenever he mentioned the outside world, and go see other scenery, his pair of eyes would be especially bright.

Fu Yuan wanted Xie Zhi An’s eyes to always be filled with light.

Most importantly, he hoped that Xie Zhi An would be happy forever. But in this portion of happiness, he was afraid he would not be able to be with him forever.

Xie Zhi An said there was a way to save him, but in regards to how his own body was doing, it wasn’t as though he wasn’t clear on it.

Save him, ke, as a person who would die soon- how would one save them?

Pain that would burrow down into his marrows would constantly excite his nerves, and let him profoundly experience his own vitality gradually leak out. He originally thought to break the broken pot[1], that it would be good as is, but instead, Xie Zhi An told him that day,

“Demon Head, I found a way to save you.”

For him, these words were as good as a life-saving straw of grass. He even would fantasize- Xie Zhi An’s so-called roaming of the skies and earth, to see the tens of thousands of miles of mountains and rivers.

How great.

Only that he did not know- it turned out that Xie Zhi An’s method, was to use a life in exchange for another.

When he saw Xie Zhi An and Chang Ge standing together, Fu Yuan’s heart grew cold[2]. He was not willing to suspect the other person, but he couldn’t help but think- did he finally not want to play pretend[3] with himself anymore.

Xie Zhi An told himself, “Fu xiao Yuan, trust me- just trust me this once, I will cure you.”

He also wanted to trust him.

But when Chang Ge cut open the two people’s arms, and used some unknown method to have the two people’s blood exchange, once a wave of blood that did not belong to his own body slowly poured into his veins, at this moment, the Demon Head went mad.

He wanted Xie Zhi An to be healthy too- he wanted to stop this absurd treatment. But he was unable to do anything, nor could he do anything, and could only look at his quack, smiling in such a way more uglier than crying.

“You won’t- you won’t die.”

Of course he won’t die, but his quack would! He did not want to step through what mountains and rivers, and see the tens of thousands of miles of flowing rivers- what he wanted, was always Xie Zhi An, and no one else.

If he had Xie Zhi An…… If he had Xie Zhi An, just by having him, it would be enough.

Along with the blood exchange between the two people, some memories he never had suddenly poured into his head- for example, the ‘scenery’ from the Doctors’ Valley, that face of that father that would turn people in disgust, and also memories of having to look up to be able to see the Xie Zhi An when he was little.

“Since I was small, I never liked medicine. All the things this body is capable of was originally learned for you. Who knew- Xie Zhi An lived for Fu Yuan, that Doctor Xie lived for a demon head.”

His muting vital point was sealed- he could only redden his eyes to look at his Xie Zhi An, not willing let his tears come out, afraid it would blur his vision of the other person.

“In the beginning when I saw the guard up in your eyes, I was so upset- even though we clearly had such a good relationship before. Although it was me who shamelessly stuck onto you, you didn’t reject it once, did you? And even at the very end, slowly, you opened yourself up to me and accepted me. You are exactly like when you were little- even if you lost all your memories, you are still the same.”

“I really liked you, and also wanted for you be alright. Indeed, I wanted to roam the tens of thousands of miles of mountains and rivers. But you know, Demon Head- what I really loved most, was to gaze at every star in the sky with you.”

As he listened to Xie Zhi An go on, Fu Yuan could not help but close his eyes, not daring to look at the other person’s eyes again.

What had he done- Xie Zhi An had offered up his entire heart in front of him, and yet he had still suspected whether or not the other person was hiding a knife underneath.

“I know you won’t believe me, but…… but can’t you trust me when I tell you I liked you, and not doubt my true heart?”

I was wrong, I should have never doubted.

“I truly, really like you.”

Me too, Xie Zhi An. I too also deeply love you.

He remembered all there was, but Xie Zhi An forgot everything; he obtained a healthy body, and instead Xie Zhi An could only wait for death with every day.

Chang Ge reminded him, only the Doctors’ Valley would be able to protect Xie Zhi An. He brought the unconscious Xie Zhi An, and even used some light skill, but in the end, the entire person knelt before the master of the Doctors’ Valley.

“Xie Zhi An is my son- I will naturally save him, but I have a condition. You cannot tell him the truth, and cannot appear before him. Otherwise, between saving and not saving, it would make no difference.”

He could, if only Xie Zhi An could live on, he could do it.

In the beginning, he stayed in the cult, and did not even take a single step into the Doctors’ Valley as he had said. But when he looked upon those two marriage garments, he regretted it.

The quack cured his illness of suspect, but also made him contract the illness of yearning.

He could not hold down his longing, and stealthily entered the Doctors’ Valley in secret. He wanted to take one look- one look would be enough.

He did not know Xie Zhi An was this perceptive, able to immediately sense his presence. An unexpected surprise, perhaps- even if Xie Zhi An did not have any memories, he would still be willing to be close with himself like before.

As though nothing had changed, Xie Zhi An would still talk with himself, and smile towards him, and express feelings of closeness with himself, as though Xie Zhi An’s memories had not disappeared at all, just like before, as though nothing changed.

It was though he had realized Xie Zhi An’s dream, and also realized his own dream as well.

Involuntarily, he extended his hand over, but under Xie Zhi An’s uncertain gaze, he suddenly came to.

Because of him, Xie Zhi An was soon to lose his life.

That was his previously healthy quack who would sincerely tell him he would be able to cure him, and was also this world’s only person that would be that nice to him.

Within such close proximity right now, he could not even say a word of confession. Under an excuse of yearning, he pretended he was like a stranger, and confided unto him his affections.

Even though his lover, was always Xie Zhi An.

He could only look on as he took himself as a stranger, and become a friend; and see him, go from a person, until the end when he gets married and have kids.

That time, he looked at Xie Zhi An for a long time, and thought it was a good thing, that there would be an understanding person by his side all the time.

Was it really good?

On the day Xie Zhi An was to get married, he took the previous marriage garments and placed it in the other person’s room, and in the end wore his own marriage garment, and stood in a corner looking on at the coming and going guests.

But after looking on and on, Fu Yuan left.

At that time he thought- the skies were as vast as the earth. He should go in place of Xie Zhi An, and also go take a look for himself too.

[1] Literally, a broken pot, furthermore broken. Meaning that instead of trying to fix something, one intentionally tries to have it develop worse. Also means to not take responsibility (in fixing the problem).

[2] Also, disheartened, discouraged.

[3] To deal with someone courteously but without sincerity.

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