Chapter 94

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Fan Shen’s ability had disappeared?

Xiao He was astonished, but his heart soon filled with intense happiness.

If so, did this mean that they could be together?

If so, would they no longer have any scruples?

If so, they...they…

He couldn’t think of anything better than this. All of his fear, worry and dread disappeared at this moment.

Xiao He couldn’t hold back anymore. He took a step forward, stood on his tiptoes and kissed Fan Shen.

Fan Shen was a little startled, but he soon dipped his head, caught Xiao He by the waist and deepened the kiss, adding to its passion.

This was their first real kiss.

They gave each other their first kiss.

They’d gone through a lot in the mental worlds, but in reality, all of this was new to them.

Xiao He’s heart opened, and he felt that this kiss was countless times better than what he’d imagined.

Fan Shen relaxed, feeling that this man was the salvation fate had granted him.

The only love...that belonged to him.

As they kissed, they grew a little aroused.

They’d never tasted physical pleasure, but they’d experienced it mentally many times.

They’d been separated and grieving for six months. After instantly shedding the load on their minds, they only wanted to get closer, even closer, until there wasn’t the slightest gap between them.

Even so, Xiao He still had a little reason left in him. He knew they were at home, and it’d be too unreasonable if they just slept together in the living room.

He pulled Fan Shen into his bedroom, but as soon as he opened the door, his heart abruptly jumped.

This room...hid all of his feelings inside.

He’d...just revealed them to him without the slightest defense.

Even in the grip of passion, Xiao He couldn’t help but feel a little embarrassed.

But when Fan Shen saw the room full of portraits, it was as if he’d been struck by lightning.

As if he'd found the key to a box and opened it up, countless fragments of memories scattered through his mind.

He remembered all of the memories that had been temporarily sealed.

The beautiful memories that belonged to the two of them, Xiao He and him.

Fan Shen looked back at Xiao He with a gaze as intense as a blazing flame.

“Xiao He...I’m sorry for making you bear so much.”

His low voice was faintly rough from distress, and it even held a little bit of a sob.

Hearing Fan Shen’s voice like this, Xiao He broke down and cried.

He leaned against him, holding him tight, unable to control his emotions no matter what he did.

He cried too shamefully, uglily and unreasonably.

But once Xiao He thought of the life he’d lived for the past six months, desolate as ash, he broke down until he was beside himself.

These were tears of joy, but because the joy was too sudden, strong and unbelievable, he cried until he was hoarse.

Fan Shen held onto him, reluctant to let go in the slightest.

He kissed him and stroked him like a treasure he’d lost and then regained, one he cherished so much he couldn’t describe it in words.

Even without those memories, he’d love Xiao He all his life.

But at this moment, he’d recovered all of them.

Besides deep love, there was also intense heartache.

He felt heartache for Xiao He, his lover, who’d given so, so much for him.

Once their embrace ended, what happened afterwards came naturally.

But to be honest, it didn’t go as smoothly as he’d imagined.

This was Xiao He’s first time physically taking it. Fan Shen patiently opened him up for a long time, but in the end, he couldn’t hold back anymore, and his movements were a little rough. He did Xiao He until he cried.

Xiao He felt that he was really useless, but he couldn’t help it.

It was really terrible. After he woke up, he didn’t have the face to see Fan Shen.

But Fan Shen only had distress left in his eyes.

His Xiao He shouldn’t be so thin and wan.

It was all because of him, because of the harm he’d caused.

After the pain and guilt came a strong desire to make it up to him.

He had to give him the best of everything and dote on him all his life. He had to make him healthy, so he could spend the rest of his life with him.

“Xiao He...Xiao He…” He called his name softly. Fan Shen couldn’t control the speed at which his feelings kept flowing out from the bottom of his heart. “Thank you, thank you…”

“You don’t have to thank me.” Xiao He kissed him, saying softly, “I love you, Fan Shen.”

Fan Shen pressed his lips against his and quietly responded, “I love you, Xiao He.”

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The consequence of indulging in lust was that he couldn’t get out of bed.

Fortunately, Xiao Rong had the foresight to come back secretly on her own and make some discreet inquiries first.

Before she’d even gone in the door, she'd heard her brother’s completely unsuppressed moans. She was a girl with no experience, after all, so caught off guard, she was so embarrassed that she closed the door and left again.

She’d wanted to wait until night to return, but she still hadn’t seen the two men come out. For fear of scaring her parents, Xiao Rong simply took the two of them out for a trip.

In any case, it was at public expense, so she might as well go, hmph!

And when Xiao He woke up two days later and found out his parents had gone to Sanya, he could only sigh softly and tell Xiao Rong to be careful.

Xiao Rong muttered, “Brother, take it easy, be careful of getting kidney deficiency.”

Xiao He was completely dismayed, but he unexpectedly couldn’t refute her. In the end, he could only hang up.

Just then, Fan Shen came back.

Xiao He hurriedly hugged him and asked anxiously, “How did it go?”

Fan Shen’s tightly creased brows relaxed, not showing the slightest trace of depression. “Sure enough, it’s only quiet when I’m near you.”

Xiao He was a little disappointed… At first, he’d thought Fan Shen’s ability had disappeared. As it turned out, it hadn’t—it was only because he had been beside him.

To be honest, this mind-reading ability was powerful, but its side effects were too violent. If Fan Shen lost it, Xiao He would be a hundred percent willing.

But now, it looked like it wouldn’t be that simple.

Fan Shen kissed his neck and said softly, “It’s alright, this way, we’ll never be able to part.”

Xiao He’s neck tickled from his kisses, and he couldn’t help but shrink it.

After a while, he heard Fan Shen’s low voice. “No, it’s me who can never leave you. Xiao He...you won’t leave me behind, right?”

The way he said the last sentence could be called pitiful.

His words made Xiao He’s heart unexpectedly tremble. He looked back at the man’s ocean-blue eyes and couldn’t resist asking, “What if I did leave?”

Fan Shen’s eyes abruptly darkened, and he said lowly against his lips, “Even to the ends of the earth, I’d have to take you back. I’m the only one who can ever be by your side.”

“Isn’t that fine then?” Xiao He kissed him back, his eyes filled with a smile.

—Fan Shen, I’m the only one who can ever be by your side too.

The End.

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I can’t believe it’s over. It's kind of amazing how much translating has changed this life. It took me a year to finish translating this book, and somewhere around 300 hours. The same ballpark as Runaway Guide... In that time, I filled 13 more pages of my notebook with vocabulary, learning 754 new words.

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