Chapter 21 - Is it because of me?

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He had liked the little bird awfully much; 8-year-old Bo Qin believed that the little bird must have adored him just as much as he did it.

Or he had until his grandfather had opened the cage, and the little bird he had intimately raised up left him without a shred of hesitation. ViOG7Z

That had been the first time Bo Qin had realized that whatever you liked, you had to clasp firmly in the palm of your hand, disallowing even a single chance for it to escape.

However, from then on, he had not a thing or a person he liked enough to want to hold onto forever.

Until–

Now. PvsALa

The man slowly withdrew the ugly look on his face, carefully and gradually loosening his hold on the diary. Thank goodness only the cover was slightly wrinkled.

Bo Qin stroked the spine of the diary he would have skipped over if he were not looking for it, gently placing it back to where it belonged.

Xiao Mu was his, in life and in death. That wouldn’t change even if that thrice-damned secondary personality appeared.

He was his, forever. XDQzKw

Ding! Bo Qin’s favorability: 94

Xie Mu leaned against the lakeside railing, lazily tossing in fish feed, ze, see, there’s a surprise.

“Xiao Mu.”

From behind him, someone called out his name. The youth turned around, a smile of pleasant surprise appearing on his face, “Bo Qin, you finished your business?” OHNsnC

“Yeah, I finally finished, and now I have time to accompany you.”

The handsome man smiled as he walked to the side of his lover, his large slender palm spanning across the railing. He bent his body slightly, his lips descending.

He didn’t wait for the youth to react before deepening the kiss. When the kiss ended, the look in Xie Mu’s eyes thawed.

Bo Qin slightly cast down his eyes to watch the flushing youth looking back at him. His chest was undulating up and down, his breathing uneven, and his inviting lips moist, as if glossed with honey. His pretty, round almond eyes were slightly disoriented with arousal from his teasing. dRUWKM

“Why’d you kiss me all of a sudden…”

The youth asked softly, hesitating for a few moments.

Story translated by Chrysanthemum Garden.

“Because you’re too sweet.”

The man observed him, his hands wandering over the youth’s body uncontrollably. XLsdQw

“Don’t…This is outside…”

Xie Mu rejected him quietly, his eyes shy.

“What’re you afraid of; there’s only us here.”

Bo Qin repeatedly pecked the youth’s fair and tender face, his magnetic voice deepening as if he were trying to bewitch him, “Didn’t we do it here before? En? Didn’t it feel good?” I46nB2

“That’s because you insisted…”

Xie Mu’s body became easy and pliable from the teasing. Although he was unable to hold up against his lover’s searching, he still tried to rebuff him, “A-and that was at night…”

“Then can we not during the day also? And it’s even better for seeing my Xiao Mu’s pretty body.”

“You can’t!” Q2qNYF

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He timidly disengaged his hand, his rosy lips speaking in a halting manner, “I-I didn’t mean too…”

Initially, Bo Qin had not thought much of it, but after seeing his lover’s ingrained fear of his anger, his heart ached. uXP3If

From the time the two had gotten together, he had told him to be completely subordinate to him. Those were the rules for all of his lovers.

Xie Mu had remembered it even until now, unable to forget even if his memories had been erased.

The man let out a gentle smile as he lightly sucked on the youth’s earlobe, the originally fair color flushing from his ministrations. Xie Mu’s eyelashes trembled uneasily, his lover’s indulgent voice beside his ear.

“XiaoAuthor’s note:

Xie Mu: Trying my hardest to carry the pot

Even though I wasn’t able to drive the car, the overturned car was locked in. Next time, I’ll make sure not to let the gong touch the shou‘s waist… gYSduB

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When you’ve grown up, come back and then ask me that question again. Be good.

Xie Mu got up and out of bed, clothing himself to hide the ambiguous marks. JQFlN

Bo Qin was outside on the balcony, smoking a cigarette.

Last night, he had had a dream. In it, his grandfather had punished him for raising a pet by ordering him to kneel in the ancestral hall for a whole night. The second day, early in the morning, he had returned to his parents.

When he had opened the door, he saw four stark-naked human bodies.

He could vividly see the body of his biological mother. After a whole night of kneeling, his body was already weak, and as Bo Qin tried to retreat, his knees softened, and he crashed to the ground. BPIaFQ

The four people were at first speechless with astonishment, before they began smiling.

His mother, without a stitch of clothing on her body, grinned particularly sharply. His father was smiling as well as the other two men and women.

Bo Qin was in a difficult situation, caught kneeling on the ground, and threw up.

His mortification, disgust, and strengthlessness were enough to last for a lifetime. Klndi9

And now, his lover had been touched by somebody else.

Even if he knew it wasn’t his fault, Bo Qin still could not hold back that train of thought.

The man stood on the balcony, fiercely inhaling a mouthful of smoke, his brain rerunning the sharp laughter of his parents.

And there was also that hideous thing as well as that place from where he had been birthed. 6A iZe

He pinched the cigarette, covering his chest and thinking back to that scene. He retched a few times and barely held in his vomit.

Thank goodness Bo Qin was no longer a kid; he only gagged a few times before he straightened his body as if nothing had happened.

But then, from the corner of the man’s eye, the shadow of a person entered.

His body instinctively stiffened, but he slowly turned his head to meet the youth’s paling gaze. Z0JadO

Xie Mu watched him blanked and asked, “Why did you want to throw up?”

The youth reached out a hand to point at himself, a hickey left by the man the night before still present on his neck.

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“Is it because of me?”

His eyes were desolate, seemingly about to tear up, “Is it because you touched me?” 2PJbAz

“What really happened during the period I was unconscious…”

Author’s note:

Xie Mu: Trying my hardest to carry the pot

Even though I wasn’t able to drive the car, the overturned car was locked in. Next time, I’ll make sure not to let the gong touch the shou‘s waist… gYSduB