Chapter 3 of 9
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“Hey, I wanna go here! I wanna try their beef fried rice!”
Karin thrust her smartphone into my face as we walked. Her request
for this lunchtime was a Chinese restaurant she’d supposedly looked
up in advance.
“Where are we, anyway? I think we’re lost… Wait, Sub-Level 12?
That’s below sea level, right? Is that really ok?”
“You like Chinese, dontcha Eri?”
“As much as the next guy, sure. But this place…their menu’s got
nothing but the tingly kind of spicy. Don’t they have any of the
hotter Japanese-style stuff?”
“What’s that now? I’m hearin’ a lotta grumblin’ for someone who
woulda just gone and gotten us stuck in an infinite loop if I’d left
it up to them! Unidentifiable red grease on one side, somethin’ you
could eat with one hand in five seconds on the other. Just hit up
Caren’s place in Shibuya if that’s what you want!”
The boy was clutching the smartphone he’d been handed with both
hands, staring intently at the screen. Karin placed her hands on his
shoulders and addressed him mock-apologetically.
“You listenin’, kid? This girl’ll burn your sense of taste right
out. Hang around with her for too long, and you’ll end up rolling
around on the floor with smoke comin’ outta your ears. And don’t even
get me started on the horror that’ll be waitin’ for you the next
morning…”
The boy nodded. “I see.”
“Y-you’re saying that, but it’s not like you eat anything other
than junk food. I’m getting ulcers just thinking about it.”
I still had some reservations about our choice of dining
establishment, but in a sense I was in luck – it happened to be
located near a district that I needed to visit in order to make some
purchases. And time spent delving the bowels of this labyrinth was
hardly time wasted, even from a work perspective. I might have
already known these places as points on a map, but it was always a
very different experience to visit them for real.
–
We descended an elevated walkway at a leisurely pace, bound for a
city block filled with commercial facilities. Our route had been
slightly roundabout, but it was more than worth it for the view.
Through the spaces between the high-rise buildings we could see the
artificial shore, where beachgoers’ parasols bloomed like a garden of
flowers. Windsurfers’ colourful sails adorned the open ocean.
Out of nowhere, Karin prodded me in the side. “She says she’s
wonderin’ how your wound’s getting’ on.”
“Kouyou, you mean?”
She nodded. At that moment, the Ogress dispelled her spiritual form
and manifested next to us. The walkway creaked a little, as hundreds
of pounds of artificial matter formed from concentrated mana suddenly
settled on top of it. The townspeople around us started at her
monstrous appearance. A youth gliding past us wobbled on his electric
skates, and almost fell over.
Kouyou walked alongside us with heavy steps, matching our pace, her
white kimono fluttering behind her. It was almost like a barrier had
been erected down the middle of the walkway.
“It’s fine. To tell you the truth, it still hurts a lot, but I’m
alright. Thanks.”
I stretched upwards a little to place a hand on her neck. Her eye
swivelled around for a moment to hold me in its gaze, her head still
drooping forward, and then she returned to spiritual form.
“…Hm? Kou-you?” The boy looked around us in confusion, and
stretched out a hand to the space that Kouyou’s massive bulk had
occupied until a moment ago.
“Kouyou’s still here, with us. She never leaves Karin’s side. She’s
just in spiritual form right now.”
“…That’s amazing.” The boy must have been shocked to his core,
because his eyes were wide as saucers. You know you can do the
same thing if you try, right? Knowledge like that would have been
even more basic than common sense for an ordinary Servant, but even
that seemed to be beyond him.
“I know, right? There’s no way I could ever get her on an elevator
in a million years. And she sends escalators into reverse, too!”
“Amazing.”
“I’m sure you could find something else to compliment her on”, I
muttered. Karin’s face was positively glowing, as she waxed lyrical
about Kouyou like a proud mother. Suddenly, she whirled around to
look at me.
“Anyway, I was thinking. Don’t you think it’s about time you gave
this kid a name? Since you’re in charge of him now and all. I know
what Caren said, but I’m pretty sure she just meant it from an
administration perspective. You can’t expect to actually call him
“(TBD)” forever.”
“Well, we have been.” That said, what she said made sense. I’d
been mulling it over too, in some corner of my mind. The problem was
that the true name I’d had so much confidence in - Saint-Exupéry
– had been politely but firmly turned down by Ms. Fujimura, and I
was struggling to make any more progress.
“This Exupéry guy
didn’t have any nicknames, did he?”
“He did, but…just “Saint-Ex”, I think.”
“Not exactly the cutest name in the world, huh… How about Little
Prince?”
“A little bit on-the-nose, don’t you think? And it doesn’t exactly
solve our problem. It’s not like we can just casually call him that.”
I admitted that it suited him, but it wasn’t a name you could use in
the middle of the street. Karin crossed her arms, and pulled a
thoughtful face.
“Yeah, guess you’re right… Lots of nobility among Servants
anyway, so it could get pretty confusing. We think he’s French,
right? How do you say “little prince” in French?”
“Look it up yourself, why don’t you… “Le Petit Prince”, I
think?” I was pretty sure, anyway. I remembered it from the title
of the book in France, its country of origin. “Hoshi no Ouji-sama”,
in Japanese.
“I see, I see… Then how about we call him ‘Pran’?”
“'Pran’…” She’d taken it from the French pronunciation. We
might as well just be calling him “Little Prince” as far as
meaning went, but this way seemed much more like a name. I turned
back to him with a sigh.
“Would you let us call you Pran for a little while? I’d like to fit
you with a classification tag as well. I don’t want you wandering off
and getting yourself lost.”
He nodded with surprising vigour – although I could not swear to
how much of what I was saying he understood.
“Praaan.”
“Don’t stretch it out. It’s a short sound. Pran.”
Karin gave a carefree laugh as she watched our exchange. “It’d be
nice if you really were the Little Prince, huh, Pran? Just like Eri
says.”
“I think maybe we should be trying to find his Master, rather than
playing at True Name Discernment.”
The child himself, as usual, seemed nonplussed.
–
Once the pedestrians around us had thinned out, Karin leaned over to
murmur in my ear. “So, who was the scary lady back there?”
Her eyebrows were knotted seriously as she whispered, but I could
sense that on some level she was putting on an act. As likely as not,
Chitose had stirred a different kind of curiosity in her to what she
felt towards my mysterious Servant, and she was enjoying the novelty.
“The hell was that “Stigmata” stuff all about, anyway? Eri, you
called her Chitose, right?”
She rested her head on my shoulder, and then started to slide her
face in even closer. She could be a real nuisance sometimes.
“C'mooon, just tell me. It’s some super secret thing that you don’t
want anybody asking about, ri~ght?”
“Then don’t ask me. And you’re way too close.”
“My bad, failed my will save. Anyway, you know her, right? I guess
that suuuper retro getup makes sense if she’s one of Caren’s friends.
She’s not one of your upperclassmen at school, is she? Don’t tell me
she’s famous?”
That Karin had happened to meet me at the lecture had been the worst
luck. Although Chitose’s existence wasn’t really much of a secret -
any resident of Mosaic City could find out about her if they looked
in the right places, or asked one of the Caren Series.
“Famous, huh…well, she used to be, I guess. Not so much any
more.” I resigned myself to telling her the truth. It was better to
come clean and explain now than have her poking around in strange
places.
“Chitose’s…she’s my grandmother.”
“Y'what? Your grandmother? So she’s like…an old lady?”
“That’s right.”
“But…wait, you mean…?”
Karin looked at me blankly, her expression frozen in surprise. For
better or for worse – mostly worse – we’d known each other for a
long time, but the only other time I’d seen her look this shocked was
when she learned that I didn’t possess a Holy Grail. Even so,
eventually her insatiable curiosity won out.
“People from before the war can’t reverse their ages like that, can
they? Even if they could, wouldn’t it take, like…all their Command
Seals…?”
“Chitose’s always looked like that, since a long time ago. But she
really is my grandmother.”
“You’ve gotta be pullin’ my leg.”
“She’s not exactly famous, but she’s well-known in certain circles,
I guess? The girl in the hat must have something to do with that.”
“Then…she’s a magus? You’re tellin’ me your granny’s an actual,
proper Master? Eri, that’s crazy. Damn, this is something really
big…” Karin paled, and she stared at the ground with a hand over
her mouth. Pran gazed up at her, a concerned expression on his face.
“Hahah. Seeing this reaction makes me wonder why I didn’t tell you
sooner.” I cracked an awkward smile. This hadn’t gone as I
expected.
“I-I’m sorry.”
“Don’t worry about it.”
A true magus, whose lineage dated back to the pre-war era. That
pointed to a deep connection to the previous Holy Grail War.
–
Karin, with the sensibilities particular to the post-war generation,
had rarely spoken to me about her household. As a result, there was a
limit to how much I knew about her family situation.
I did know that her house was located in Shibuya, that she had
siblings, and that she attended the middle school in her district.
Her parents, much like the rest of their generation, had been granted
Holy Grails; however, they had not accepted them. They rejected their
usage wholesale, and had apparently never so much as activated their
Command Seals, while their Servants remained stowed away and
unsummoned. There were not many such people in this city, but they
did exist.
Such a strict worldview would undoubtedly have had some effect on the
way they interacted with and raised their daughter. I couldn’t see a
Servant so visibly abnormal as the Ogress Kouyou being well-received
in her household, and I didn’t think it was a coincidence that Karin
came so often to visit me and spent so little time at home. Perhaps
it had been the fact that I had been visibly making a living on my
own, free of the ties of family, that had put her at ease around me.
Karin spoke very little for a while after that – or so I thought,
but by the time we’d finished our lunch at the Chinese restaurant not
only had she returned to her normal self, she was even more
boisterous than usual. If she was going to be like this, perhaps I
should have pinned her down with a more serious response.
From there, the three of us set a course for our new destination,
where I had some business: a throng of innumerable tiny shops nestled
beneath the overpass, selling all variety of magical items.
Collectively, they was known locally as the “Akihabara Department
Store”. If you asked any one of the multiplicity of eccentrics who
made their living here, they would tell you that in the past this
place dealt in parts of electrical appliances, and that its nickname
came from the jargon of that time.
Since coming into possession of a highly-versatile kind of magic in
their Command Seals, the people of this city had come to be connected
with magecraft, and had pooled their knowledge to build for
themselves a highly unique magical culture. From the perspective of a legitimate magus, the
amateurism on display here would probably be cause for loud and
derisive laughter, but both the Holy Grail and the municipal
administration AI permitted it. Perhaps the obsessive dispositions
that this place fostered resonated with them.
I too made frequent use of this place. For better or for worse, the
inexperienced and naïve teenager Utsumi Erice was still permitted to
bumble along in her role as Reaper, and no small percentage of that
time was spent in this witches’ den.
–
The surface floor of the Department Store was nothing more than shops
selling souvenirs for visitors - little talismans radiating
Akihabara’s trademark brand of sketchiness, curse-charms, room decorations to
satisfy anyone’s vanity. Hidden among this array of knick-knacks were
items that would exhibit genuine – albeit weak – effects, in
exchange for expending some of the owner’s Command Seal. They could
be thought of like little gates that gave the mana manifested by the
Command Seal shape and direction.
Pran and Karin were both looking around in amazement. Something
caught Karin’s eye and she stopped in her tracks.
“Hey, it’s that kinda creepy-cute doll. So this is where they sell
it! It’s pretty popular among the higher years at school.”
“Ugh, that thing’s gross… What is it? Is it supposed to absorb
your bad luck for you?”
“Apparently, if you keep it on your person, you can see your
Servant’s dreams. And different dolls show you different dreams.”
“Huh…”
It might as well have been snake oil, and an effect like that meant
nothing to me anyway. I could understand why Karin was talking about
it positively, but I still didn’t feel good about it.
“Hey, I’ll get you one if you want.”
“For me? I don’t need one.”
“Come on now, don’t be like that…”
In the end, the doll wound up being foisted onto Pran.
–
As we made our way deeper into the heart of the labyrinth that was
the Department Store, its atmosphere began to change, and the faces
of the people around us took on a much seedier bent. Perhaps the most
notable change was the gradual appearance of shops tended by Casters
– Heroic Spirits versed in magecraft. Their trade was in tools they
had crafted from scratch, or charms made by tinkering with or tuning
existing goods, and their prices were extremely steep.
The ichor that was healing my stomach wound at this very moment had
originated from one of these places. A few drops of this liquid,
sealed inside a small glass bottle the size of my little finger,
would cost a month’s living wage.
I’d better stock up on charms while I’m here. But that’s not the
real reason I’ve come to this place…
–
At a corner of a road deep in the Department Store’s heart, far from
the sight of any passers-by, Karin’s feet stopped abruptly as though
they had been glued to the ground. Next to her, the boy stopped too –
or rather, he struck his head on something sharply, and staggered
back.
“Ouch…”
“H-hold on a sec, Eri – I can’t get through.”
“There’s a wall here.” The boy spread his hands out in midair, as
though acting out a pantomime in the middle of the street. I could be
less sure what was happening to Karin, but for her part, she looked
as though she was experiencing some form of psychological resistance
to proceeding any further. In light of where we were, I could
immediately hazard a guess as what was happening.
A screen that impedes spiritual beings? I’d
never even realised that there was a mechanism like that installed
here. Apparently, neither fully-materialised Servants nor Servants in
spiritual form like Kouyou were exempt.
Kouyou materialised next to Karin, and thrust the tip of one wicked
claw into the invisible wall. Under the strain, an intricate,
glittering magical symbol flowered in midair like an inkblot. She
leaned in to deliver an accompanying headbutt, and the surrounding
walls and floor began to audibly creak. Even Pran lent his aid,
pushing valiantly against the back of her leg.
“Whoa whoa whoa – Kouyou!?” Faster than I could try to stop
her, a man in his late middle age appeared from the shadows of the
passageway. I’d seen him before. He was the doorkeeper for the shop I
was bound for, and it went without saying that he was well-versed in
magecraft.
“Hey there! Don’t break it.” He waved his arms wildly, in an
attempt to force Karin and Kouyou back some distance.
“You may pass. They may not. And they can’t hang around here,
either. Send them back where they came from.”
“They’re with me.”
He shook his head expressionlessly.
“Erm…”
“What, so one look at us and we’re out on our ears? You’re kidding
me, right? Hey, hold up a moment. Now that I get a good look at you,
you’re actually a pretty good-looking guy…”
“Karin, just leave it” I chastised her, as she veered wildly from
disagreement to flattery and back again. After giving it some careful
thought, we gave up on entering the shop and returned the way
we’d came.
–
Karin’s anger was roused, and she complained all the way back.
Although, as a Master, she probably would have been able to enter if
it had been her alone.
“What was that about, anyway? They were, like, super strict.
What kind of shop even is it?”
“It’s a relic shop. It specialises in curios, artefacts, items
plundered from tombs…that sort of thing.”
“Re-lics?”
“Whaddaya mean, relics?”
Karin and Pran interjected at about the same time.
“Uh… If I said “summoning catalysts” instead, does that make
more sense?” Karin shook her head. I supposed that it was only to
be expected that a next-generation human wouldn’t be familiar with
this sort of thing.
In short, this shop dealt in items that could be used as the basis
for a summoning ritual. It was managed by the two-man team of an
aging man who purchased its goods, and a Servant whose name had gone
down in pre-war history as a formidable salesman. I was well aware
that the wares it handled were the genuine article, but I hadn’t been
aware of its security system. It wasn’t the kind of place that
children usually wandered into in the first place.
Karin’s eyes began to sparkle as I talked. “So it’s like Aladdin’s
cave in there, right? Sounds like it’s full of the kind of things
explorers and archaeologists dream about!”
“Well, maybe. Or maybe it’s all a heap of useless junk. Depends on
who’s looking, I guess. It’s not like they make displays out of it or
anything. It’s nowhere near as exciting as going to a museum.”
That said, a magus devoted to necromancy or conjuration magic would
drool over some of the goods on display there. Those traps…those
little gremlins that that woman, Kundry set…if she used a catalyst
for them, it would have had to have come through that shop.
That was my reasoning, anyway, and today I’d come to investigate
directly. I was mulling it over, when Karin suddenly pointed out
something that I hadn’t even considered.
“Well, that’s a shame. Would’ve been nice if you’d been able to
have a look around in there with Pran.”
“…What?” For a moment I was taken aback. The idea hadn’t even
entered my head.
“That’s why we’re here, ain’t it, Eri? So you can show the kid all
kinds of relics? See if you get anything out of him.”
“…Y-yeah…” I gave an extremely vague nod. Karin peered into
my eyes, her expression taking on a slightly harder edge.
“Say, Eri…let me see if I can read your mind right now. “Oh, I
guess that’s a thing we can do”…right?”
“…Yeah, I guess it is.”
“Hey now.”
It was beyond unlikely that we’d just be allowed to freely examine
the most precious of their wares - but on the other hand, ultimately
they were businessmen. Without negotiating, there was no telling what
we could wrangle. And besides, if they really had handled a catalyst
that had ultimately been used to endanger the peace of the city, the
threat of reporting it to a municipal administration AI would have
been enough to make them tell me what I needed to know.
“You sure you’re all there today, Eri? Good grief. Weren’t you on
my ass just a little while ago about this not being a shopping trip?”
“…Allow me to apologise profusely.”
Karin announced that she would soon be returning home, so our party
accompanied her to the Akihabara stationfront to see her off. To be
honest, I was itching to see the back of her.
At this time in the afternoon, the stationfront plaza was bustling
with people of all shapes and sizes hurrying briskly across towards
their destinations. The scent of aromatic spices wafted from a food
truck, and gaggles of people gathered around street performers. The
boy seemed to be a little tired of walking, and I had no choice but
to lead him onwards by his small, dainty hand. How far away from him
should I stand? How tightly should I squeeze his hand? Right now, I
had no way of telling.
I’m a babysitter, aren’t I? No matter how you slice it. I
thought about how long I was going to spend looking after this child,
and instantly came over a little more sullen. He was no battle-scared
hero deserving of respect, nor was he some cold, calculating
maverick. If he had been an oddball like that, Karin would have had
no trouble handling him for me, and in time I would have started to
feel more comfortable as well.
But he was a child, and it was inevitable that we would end up
competing over looking after him. Although maybe that was just what I
was telling myself, while I secretly nursed my irritation and
jealousy.
“Tell me if you’ve got another job, alright? I’ll come as long as
it’s not during exams.”
“I keep telling you, no. I don’t care if you’ve got exams or not,
there’s no need.”
–
Video was playing at a noticeable volume on a gigantic screen mounted
on the wall of one of the stationfront buildings. I had initially
dismissed it as nothing but advertisements, but something about it
must have caught Karin’s attention, because she had abruptly started
to gaze at it intently. I watched in silence.
A violent clash between two Servants played out onscreen, edited
together at a fast pace from footage captured from multiple different
angles. A Noble Phantasm was unleashed, and immediately accompanied
by onscreen captions. The swirling gale that it left in its wake
encroached upon the spectator seats, and a barrier moved to intercept
it with seconds to spare. The crowd behind it erupted with cheers of
amazement, more fired up now than ever.
As the drone camera continued its flight, the full spectacle – a
battlefield upon which multiple Servants duelled – came into view.
The arena was meticulously modelled on the Colosseum of ancient Rome,
although it was built on a far grander scale than the existing ruins.
“Whoa! Hey, did you see that just now?”
“It’s not my thing.”
“Eh? Eri, don’t tell me you’ve never heard of the Grail
Tournament?”
Just the suggestion was enough to make me pout. “It’s some show
they put on at the Colosseum, right? It’s just not really something I
care about.”
Now the screen had changed to a promotional video for a new
tournament series. No small number of people in the plaza had stopped
in their tracks to look up at it.
“So you’re telling me you live in Akihabara, but you’ve never gone
to see the Grail Tournament? Not even once?”
“What’s wrong with that? It’s just play-fighting, anyway. It’s all
just for show.”
“Now hold up. I’m not sure I’m gonna take that lying do–
actually, just watch for a minute.”
“I’m telling you, it’s really not my thing.”
“Come on, you know you wanna!”
“H-hey, Karin, cut it ou-” Her hands gripped either side of my
head, and forced it to look up at the screen.
It was playing through the climactic stages of an old match. From
beneath the debris hurled high into the air by the merciless impact
of a Noble Phantasm, a lone figure streaked forwards, low-slung and
fierce. Judging by her impossible speed, she could only be a Servant
- a knight, clad in armour of deep indigo. She leaped to avoid an
arrow from the enemy that pursued her, and clung to the face of one
of the many stone pillars that lined the arena.
In an instant, another slash closed in on her. The pillar sailed through
the air, its base pulverised – but she was atop it now, and she was
still standing. The programme replayed her acrobatics once more in
slow motion for the viewers.
Her enemy’s power was spent, and in that moment she saw her opening.
A single bound was enough to close the distance. Her sword whipped
through the air, its thin blade shining with magical energy, and it
sang fiercely as she drove it through her foe’s chest.
It was a killing blow, with no trace of mercy.
With their spinal column precisely
shattered, her opponent was unable to maintain their physical form
and burst into tiny particles of light. Looks like they’re
done for. They won’t have gone back to the Throne, but that was
probably enough to leave a mark on their Saint Graph. Their Master
won’t have gotten off easy either.
Game Over. The name of the winners flashed dazzlingly onto the
screen. “Tournament victors – Servant: Galahad, Saber-class.
Master: Koharu F. Riedenflaus…”
Koharu…? Wait…Galahad!?
A mighty cheer arose from the spectator stands. In seconds, the arena
was blanketed in flower petals. An emblem, the symbol of the Holy
Grail enclosed by a laurel wreath, flashed up rotating onscreen, and
the programme cut to the post-match interview. Questions were being
posed to a stalwart-looking female knight – with lustrous azure
hair, and peppermint-green eyes.
“…Ah…” The penny finally dropped on what Karin had been
trying to say.
“That knight…she looks a lot like that girl from the Pre-War
Human History lecture…”
“Right? Right?”
She looked so much like her – like the girl in the hat. From her
tone of voice during her answers, to her courteous air. But her age
looked very different, at least externally, and her voice was a
little deeper. She was still young, certainly, but she had the
stature of someone in at least their late teens. There were probably
about ten years between them.
“Yeah, that’s what I thought. I’ve been thinking all this time, I’m
sure I’ve seen her somewhere before…”
I couldn’t deny that my interest was a little piqued by the
unexpected connection. “Do you think they know each other?”
“Know each other? I’m telling you that’s her! Haruko’s probably
just a false name. She’s a super-famous athlete in the Grail
Tournament, right? She’s going in disguise!”
“What? But…” I failed to conceal my confusion, and received a
punch to the shoulder from an exasperated Karin for my trouble.
“Or are you gonna tell me that isn’t your thing either? Even my
little brother could have guessed that!”
“Give it a rest, will you? Why do I even have to care about these
things, anyway?”
“Well, I guess.”
–
Even so, I knew the basics. The Grail Tournament was, in short, a
sport – a game in which opposing fighters competed, safely and
legally, within the bounds of predetermined rules. The wielding of
powerful weapons, and even the unleashing of Noble Phantasms, was
monitored and controlled by the Holy Grail through its municipal
administrators. It was a world about as far removed as it was
possible to get from the shadows in which I crawled.
“Hang on, she said “Galahad”, right…? So one of the Knights
of the Round Table has been summoned? And they were here? In
Akihabara?”
I couldn’t believe it. It couldn’t be real. Galahad, the Knight of
the Grail. Son of Lancelot, the Knight of the Lake, and the noblest
holy knight to ever sit at King Arthur’s table. And…she was a
girl…? You can’t be serious…
Almost as shocking was that I had heard nothing of this from my
master. The Knights of the Round Table possessed powerful magic, and
a strong connection to the Grail; they could potentially affect the
city’s functions. The Knight of the Grail, all the more so.
“Someone from outside of Akiba, I guess. There’s no end to the
people coming in from other districts with their sights on the Grail
Tournament.”
“It gets crazy dangerous around the Colosseum every season, thanks
to the fans making a spectacle of themselves. It’s no end of trouble
for me.”
“Oh? Sounds like a handful.”
“It’s just…it’s just a graveyard, that place. It’s a great big
graveyard.” Part of me had grown irritated with the know-it-all
expression plastered on Karin’s face and wanted to hurry up and
change the topic, so I’d started speaking more harshly than I meant
to. But at the same time, these were my true feelings.
“Grail Tournament? What a load of crap. It’s just a game, right?
It’s all just make-believe. I’ll never understand what enjoyment
people get out of turning Servants into an exhibition. Don’t the
fighters know they’re just being turned into commodities to bring
more spectators to the show? We twist the ideas they held dear and
lay them out for everyone to see, and we trivialise the skills they
spent their entire lifetimes perfecting – how can that be ok?
Servants aren’t meant to be our slaves!”
Karin stared back at me, not the least bit cowed, but I continued
with my tirade.
“Maybe the people in the stands feel like they’re fighting
alongside the competitors, but that only lasts until they get bored
and find something else. How are they supposed to understand how the
Servants in the arena feel from behind a safety barrier?” It was a
grotesque farce, that had propagated in order to make Heroic Spirits
mistake themselves.
Karin had waited carefully for me to finish my piece, but now she
spoke. Her voice was quiet, but laced with anger.
“How dare you make fun of something people are serious about.”
She grabbed me by my necktie and pulled me in. From up close, I could
see her eyes were blazing.
“Honestly, I’ve never even really paid much attention to the Grail
Tournament. But that attitude of yours is wrong, Eri.”
“Huh?”
“How sincere other people are isn’t something you get to decide.”
I immediately made to retort, but something about her gaze told me
that this wasn’t up for debate.
“You can call it an exhibition or a farce all you want, but the
people who’re in the arena, the people who’re actually there –
they’re putting everything they’ve got into making it entertaining
for us. Even the Servants – you think they get through to the final
rounds just by doing what they’re told? Of course not. What are you
trying to say, that nothing’s important unless people are dying? That
without the impact of kingdoms falling or ages ending, it’s all just
some kind of childish joke? That the kinds of jobs people wrote about
in that human history you love so much are the only ones worth
doing?”
“That’s not what I’m…”
“You seem to think old-fashioned ideas way outta the reach of the
common people are the only things worth caring about, Eri. And you
need to cut it out.”
“Well, you wouldn’t understand, would you, Karin? A…a next-gen
like you…”
She drew a sharp breath. Her eyes softened, and she bit her lip.
Finally, she gave a small sigh.
“I guess maybe I wouldn’t.”
I fell silent. I’d said something that I should never, ever say. My
anger died away, and bitter regret welled up in its place.
“…I’m sorry. That was too far.”
“It’s cool. Don’t force yourself. If that much was enough to earn
an apology, we’d never talk at all.”
This wasn’t her being humble. I was sure she was well aware how sharp
her own words had been.
Patience was far from Karin’s greatest virtue. Often her emotions
would flare, and we would fight.
–
But we would never, ever allow things to stay that way.
–
Karin gently took my right hand in her left, and squeezed it tightly
to her chest. Her right hand she opened, and extended towards me.
“Karin…”
Gingerly, I took the hand she offered me, and pressed it to the gap
between my breasts. From the places our bodies touched, I could feel
her heartbeat through her school blouse – and she could feel mine.
This was our little ritual. A humble promise known to us alone.
We leaned our faces in close, and whispered quietly.
“You know, we only fight because we don’t understand well enough
yet.”
“Understand each other, you mean? I don’t think we’ll ever manage
that as long as we live.”
“Well, what’s wrong with that?” She flashed a grin. “Damn. I’m
pretty sure I was still taller than you just a little while ago…”
“Only by a little, though.”
“Where do you get off, suddenly overtaking me?
“It’s 'cos I’m hitting my growth spurt.”
“Eh? So am I!”
This time, I was the one who smiled.
I was me. And Karin was Karin. Even without the next generation of
humanity, or the Holy Grail, or any of that, we understood that deep
down we were different people. It was inevitable that our different
viewpoints would come into conflict. But we were irreplaceable to
each other. If one of us ever lost the other, that would be the end.
Lost…?
Karin suddenly broke away and looked around us. Startled, I followed
her gaze.
“Hey, where’d the shrimp go?”
“E-eh!?”
In the midst of the hustle and bustle of the stationfront plaza, we
had lost sight of Pran. He had wandered off somewhere while our
attention had been occupied by the TV screen, and our argument
thereafter.
“Why can’t you just look up his tag, Eri?”
“Uh…truth be told, I haven’t actually attached it yet…”
“…You need to get that head of yours looked at.”
In the middle of our frantic back-and-forth, Karin’s attention was
suddenly diverted elsewhere. She was conversing wordlessly with a
Servant currently in spirit form – quite literal telepathy.
“…Damn. Momi’s saying she got so caught up in our argument, she
forgot to keep an eye on the shrimp.” Karin let out a rueful groan,
and she covered her forehead with her. Her Command Seals flared on
the back, and Kouyou came into view, her great head drooping
remorsefully.
“Hey, it’s not your fault,
alright? This is a bit
of a pickle, though…”
Safeguarding this Servant had been an assignment like any other, and
I should have treated it as such. But instead, I’d been looking down
on it as glorified babysitting - and now this. How irresponsible
could I be?
Karin, ever the optimist, grinned at me - “We’ll find him in a
flash, don’t you worry!” - and we split up to search.
–
Worry twisted in my guts, and my composure level was dropping rapidly – but for all that, finding the child didn’t even take ten minutes.
“So that’s
where he was? Good grief…”
In a corner of the plaza, a man in a Hawaiian shirt plucked lazily at
the strings of a guitar. A typical street musician, of the kind one
could find almost anywhere in Akihabara’s shopping district. Pran had
crouched himself down next to him, and was listening intently to his
performance. This concert, however, had an audience of one. All of
the other pedestrians hurried past, not one of them stopping. During
our child-hunt, we had paid most attention to flashier performers who
had drawn much larger crowds, and had overlooked this place.
A guitar case lay open at his feet
for people to toss coins into. A meagre collection of coins and notes
– physical money was considered minor currency in this town – was
visible inside, but I could hardly call it a good day’s takings.
Honestly, it might even just be money he’s put there
himself beforehand to prime the pump…
The guitar player was an unremarkable man, with an unshaven face
covered in dark stubble. He could not have been that old: late
twenties, perhaps, or early thirties. His weary appearance seemed
vaguely familiar to me - perhaps I myself had passed him by many
times in the past, although not once had I really looked at him.
His black hair was messy, and now
that I looked closer I could see that his eyes were blue. He had a
long nose, and features that seemed somehow Mediterranean. Is
he a Servant…? The possibility
came immediately to mind, but there was no-one nearby who looked
anything like a Master.
A cord connected his guitar to an amp speaker, which broadcast its
melody at a rather conservative volume for a street performer. My
knowledge of music was virtually nonexistent – but now that I was
stood before him, listening, even I could sense an astonishing
mastery in his playing. His melody was lonely, and passionate, and it
spoke directly to the heart.
Had that sound been what had drawn the boy here, to where he squatted
now beside him, enraptured? If so, could he perhaps be a Servant with
some connection to the arts? It merited consideration. Relics weren’t
the only things that might hold clues to his true name.
But alas, this performance was fatally ill-suited to the bright and
cheery resort atmosphere of Akihabara. It did not take much thinking
to understand why his guitar case was so empty. In the evening,
perhaps it would be different – but in this splendid sunlight,
beneath this clear blue sky, few tourists or townspeople would want
to indulge in this requiem he played.
“Damn, it’s like a funeral in here.” Harsh words in my ear, and a
hand clapped on my shoulder. The musician glanced up for a moment in
the middle of his performance, to look at Karin, who had rejoined us
and now stood at my side. He slowed his playing, and spoke.
“Are you two with the kid, by any chance? He’s been sittin’ here
watchin’ me for a while now, all on his lonesome. Thanks for yer
custom, by the way.” He flashed a grin, and Pran bowed in response.
He probably didn’t understand what was happening.
“That’s right. He’s with us. We took our eyes off him for a moment,
and he wandered off.”
He peered at me closely. “…Well, you sure ain’t his sister. And
it’s not like Servants just go and get themselves lost.”
“You think we’re up to something, old man? You don’t know how much
we’ve been running around looking for this kid.”
“Hey, could you cut it out with the “old man”? There’s a lotta
shady sorts around here. They’ll go out lookin’ for families,
'secure’ their lost kid, an’ then demand a reward.” He
wasn’t wrong. That was the reason we were more panicked than usual.
“So, what are we gonna do? Tell you what, why don'cha tell me this
kid’s name. And if you can’t, I’ll report you.” Command Seals
glowed on the back of his upraised right hand, in the distinctive
polka-dot pattern that indicated an ordinary citizen. His Master
status was given, not innate.
This is bad…We’d only just
decided on calling him “Pran”. The odds he would respond to it
were not encouraging. I was on the point of revealing some details of
our situation in an attempt to convince him – when suddenly he
raised his hands in mock surrender, and gave a derisive laugh.
“Gotcha, didn’t I? I just got a bit jealous watchin’ you two havin’
such a nice time out in the sunshine, so I thought I’d have a bit of
fun.”
“…You want me to knock you into next week?” Karin wheeled
around with a swish, and feigned the motion of driving home a reverse
roundhouse kick.
“Whoa, easy there! They say you should let sleeping JKs lie.”
“Good job I’m a JC then, huh?”
“Oh, you’re a next-gen? Yeah,
that’d explain it.” He plucked a battered box of cigarettes from
his pocket, but then glanced at Pran and put it back. This
plaza’s a no-smoking area, anyway.
He at least seemed like someone we could talk to.
“Um…this boy’s name is Pran.” I ventured. “It’s a bit
complicated, but-”
“Eh, don’t worry yourself about it.” His candid attitude was a
breath of relief.
“Well, you did watch him for us
while we were looking. I’m not sure it’s thanks enough, but if you
don’t mind…” I picked up a square plastic container from where it
lay inside the narrow guitar case on the ground, uncertain as to what
it was. He’s selling this, right? I think it’s some kind of
media…
“Oh, you’re buyin’? Sorry to ask this, but have ya got cash? The
purchase code should be on there.”
“Whoa, is that a CD? That’s hella neat!” Karin looked at the
object I held in my hands, and beamed. The man’s face lit up, and he
leaned forward. He was sat down with his arms and legs bent, so it
was a little hard to tell, but he was fairly tall.
“Oh? You know about these?”
“Course I do! We’ve got rental shops in Shibuya, right? It’s pretty
fashionable to walk around with an MP3 player nowadays. What are you
doing in front of a station with a bunch of street performers?
Wouldn’t you be better off going there instead?”
“Well, 'ppreciate the advice, but…I think Akiba’s more my speed.”
Hm? What’s that? Looks a bit like an anime girl… The
design on the T-shirt he was wearing beneath his Hawaiian shirt
suddenly caught my eye. Now that I thought about it, his guitar case
was also covered in similar-looking stickers, and I could see
something like a keyring dangling from it.
“Excuse me, but…you’re not an 'otaku’, are you?”
“Yeah, one of those” he nodded with a smirk.
–
“Otaku” was a term for a group
of people from the pre-war world, most notable for their unique brand
of thinking, creativity and consumerist culture. The influence this
exerted over their daily activities and lifestyles was far too great
to dismiss as a simple hobby. Their culture had spread far and wide,
and for a time they could be found all across the world world in
various guises, but as a faction they had held next to no political
power. Eventually they had fallen into decline, almost taking
pleasure in their irrelevance – my master’s words, mind you, not
mine.
My hypothesis was that perhaps, their culture had been somewhat akin
to a religion. And I understood that there was a time when Akihabara
had been regarded as one of their holiest sites. These days this town
was known for its beach resort and the bazaar of magical goods that
was the Department Store, but even now antique shops and hangout
spots stubbornly persisted to cater to these “otaku”.
–
“Name’s Kuchime.”, he said. “A plain ol’ guitar player, as you
can see. You girls come to Akiba often? If there’s any anime songs
you like, I’ll play 'em for ya.” And he strummed a bar or two of a
cheerful tune.
“…Wow!” Pran’s eyes sparkled at this new melody.
Karin, meanwhile, exploded with laughter. “Ahahaha! You really need
to get a cooler pick-up line.”
A “pick-up line”? Was that what this was?
The notion of a society of free love had been developed by the ancient peoples of Greece and Rome, and although it had been lost during the Dark Ages, it had been rediscovered
in recent times and was to some degree alive and well in this new
world. There were even those who warned that should we lose it, we
would cease to be human. To me, however, the idea was still an
unexplored continent that lay beyond my understanding, and something that could be even more dangerous than a Servant gone insane if one was not careful.
I had thought that Karin, as my peer, had more or less shared those
reservations - but today, she looked a little like she was on the
brink of becoming an explorer. Or was this perhaps the distinctive
urge to feign adulthood that came with puberty?
“Let me hear that last song one more time. It’s pretty. Does it
have lyrics?”
“That it does. I wrote 'em down on the booklet in the CD case.”
I handed her the slip of paper. She scanned it, and her face immediately creased in distaste. “……Damn. This is…dark. Like,
super depressing.”
Certainly, the lyrics on the page were far from lighthearted. It all
but invited criticism like Karin’s.
“Kuchime, do you do, uh…vocals? Do you sing as well?”
“Sure do. Or sometimes, anyway. Those lyrics are just a little
somethin’ I made up for the song. I’m an improviser at heart.”
“Improv, huh? That’s pretty cool. But…” Looking satisfied,
Karin made a proposal. “Can’t you play something more…you know.
Something to lighten the atmosphere? Something that’ll make me wanna
lose myself in the rhythm and dance? Oh, and no anisong. Something
you’ve made yourself.”
He ran his hand roughly through his
hair, and grinned. “Well, it ain’t exactly in-character for
me…but it’s my first request in a while. Let’s see what I can do.”
Kuchime’s melody echoed once more around the plaza. Before, it had
clung to the surface of the wintertime river like a fine mist, but
now, in answer to Karin’s request, it bounced hither and thither like
a tumbling ball.
–
With the change of melody, even our secluded corner of the plaza
suddenly felt as though it were bathed in sunlight. Passers-by halted
in their tracks, and a crowd slowly began to gather around us,
arranged in a half-circle with Karin and Pran in the front row.
Ugh… I’m not good with this kind of atmosphere. And
even if I was, I wouldn’t have the right to be here anyway.
Step by step I beat a tactical
retreat, drawing back to a place where I could watch them from a
distance. Music really is powerful, huh… It’s seized
these people’s hearts so easily, and changed the mood in this place
so quickly. Suddenly, I realised
that Kouyou had appeared by my side. Here, in this spot where we
wouldn’t bother anyone, she lay down with her belly to the ground,
listening quietly to Kuchime’s music.
Finally, Karin began to step in time with the twang of the guitar,
and was soon starring in her own street performance.
“Didn’t she say she needed to go home soon? Is she sure she should
be doing this?” I put the question to Kouyou, but she simply
rustled her head, and plucked at the air with a claw.
“Eh, you can play the guitar too? …Oh, the koto’s more your
forte. I see.”
–
Truth be told, I could not perfectly understand what Kouyou was
saying. It was was thanks to the Mystic Code app I had installed in
one of my forelocks that I could communicate with her on this level
at all. It guessed the general gist of what she was saying, based on
samples of previous conversations and interjections from Karin, and
showed me what it conjectured to be its broad meaning –
effectively, analysing and translating her body language in real
time. In Kouyou’s case, I was able to communicate with her clearly
and in person, so the translation accuracy was particularly high.
This was one of the problems that came part and parcel with
Berserkers, but Karin didn’t seem as though she minded it in the
slightest. She had told me in the past that, although she was her
Master, even she did not hear Kouyou’s thoughts as human speech;
rather, they came to her as wordless ideas.
Incidentally, this app did not work at all on Pran. It had only
returned the vaguest of suggestions, so in the end I had removed him
from the list of targets.
–
“Hmm. Is Karin good at dance classes at school or something? Now
that I think about it, I guess we do have those…
…Wow, there’s even more people coming.”
Slowly but surely, the plaza had filled up with people. The crowd
that had gathered stamped their feet to the rhythm of the guitar,
enraptured by the dance. In the centre of the ring, Karin surrendered
herself to the music, transforming pure joy and elation into balletic
motion – and her dancing drew forth new melodies from Kuchime’s
guitar, and mingled with his humming vocals like another instrument.
La-la, la, la-la - now she herself began to sing, wordlessly,
defiantly. It sounded like a challenge to Kuchime: I’m the one of
us who’s enjoying this moment to its fullest. Is that all you have?
I could never beat her. Really, I couldn’t. She
whirled alive and free, hair flying, sweat glistening on her skin,
and even I was transfixed. Kouyou gave a low growl.
“No, she’s not…she’s not getting picked up. She’s just messing
around…”
The Mystic Code app could read nothing more into the vacant look in
Kouyou’s eyes, but to me she looked troubled, and deeply sad. It was
only a guess – but she was the lead player in the legend of the
Ogress, the tragic heroine, the villain to be slain. Perhaps this
spectacle had stirred something within her.
But Karin danced, paying no heed to the mind of the crowd, the melody
of the guitar draped around her like a veil. Joyful, and carefree.
Her song echoed around the square, in answer to the humming of Kuchime’s vocals. The child stood enraptured, as though he were committing
every note to memory.
His gaze was fixed on Kuchime, who lowered his eyes away from the
crowd as he played, as though rejecting against the reality that he
was here in this place. Perhaps it was just a habit of his, but the
sight stayed with me.
That night, an unexpected visitor called on my apartment: Manazuru
Chitose, my grandmother.
–
It was the first time she had ever visited me here. When I saw her in
her black sailor uniform, looking up at me through the monitor of the
security camera installed on the outside street, I had rubbed my eyes
and then immediately suspected some kind of trap.
“I won’t be long. But there’s something that it’s important I tell
you, Erice.”
But it had been Manazuru Chitose, in the flesh. She was at ease as
she entered, paying no mind to the magical security measures I had
installed or the barriers I had erected to deter passers-by. Had she
had some instruction for me, a message or a word to Ms. Fujimura
would have been enough. The fact that she had come all the way here
in person set me on edge. And even if that weren’t the case, you
could hardly say the two of us have a good relationship.
It had to be something to do with the boy. I could think of nothing
else.
Pran had just finished his takeout dinner. I’d tried my hardest to
avoid any overly-exciting dishes. He sat on the floor, on the
opposite side of the room to the table across which Chitose and I
faced each other, playing precariously with some toys I had brought
out for him.
“My…so that aeroplane was in your apartment all along? It brings
back memories…”
“…Mm.”
This was a disaster. Her timing couldn’t have been worse – on
account of the aeroplane she was referring to being one of the very
few items I had brought with me from the house in Shinjuku. It was a
propeller plane, painted red and white: Caudron C.635 Simoun
“F-ANRY”. The plane beloved by Saint-Exupéry,
and a final memento from someone very dear to me.
“So? What do you want from me?” Bluntly, I broke the silence. I
already knew what she was going to say. I didn’t want to put it off
any longer.
–
“Say – it’s been a long time since you two last saw each other.
Why don’t you take this chance to have a bit of a catch-up?”
The interruption came from a man dressed in a double-breasted vest,
and a sharp necktie coloured a deep, sober red. He had removed his
suit jacket and held it folded in his arms. He had appeared
spontaneously from nowhere, but he was leaning against the wall a
short distance away as though he had always been there, watching us
calmly. Chitose shot him a reproachful sidelong glance.
“G-good evening, Lucius…Mr. Lucius, I mean.”
“Bonam Noctem, Erice. What an array of teaware you have
here. Would you mind if I brewed some? I feel a little parched.”
“I, um…no, I don’t mind. Some of it, uh…might be getting old,
though.” I had a feeling some of my tea had remained untouched ever
since the time I had first moved here, when I had excitedly bought it
in.
The man pulled various tins of tea leaves down from the shelf and
stared at them, comparing. Pran put down his model aeroplane,
tottered to his side and began imitating him in an attempt to help.
In the midst of his discussion with the boy, he turned back to me.
“Ah yes, that’s right. I would much prefer it if you would just
call me Lucius, as you used to. You need no formalities. Is it not
unfair, that only Chitose should address me that way?”
“A-alright.” I stammered. In stark contrast to my nervousness,
Chitose just expelled a tired sigh – and then drove her point home.
“Is it not ordinary for girls of a certain age to maintain a
respectful distance from fully-grown men? You should take care not to
become too familiar, or it may be thought unseemly.”
“Haha, you’re right at that. I’ll bear it in mind.”
Try as I might, I could not stop my attention from being drawn to the
crooked cross-shaped scar on his cheek. The suit was a new look for
him, but his smile was the same as it had always been.
–
Lucius: the Servant who had stood by Chitose’s side through many long
years. The person I respected above all others. The man I adored.
Much like Ms. Fujimura, he had known me since I was a baby. He had
taken the role of my teacher, and had strictly hammered into my weak,
infantile body the skills I needed to protect myself. With the
unbreakable iron conviction of a soldier, he had taught me to stand
back up whenever I fell, and to push onwards until my work was done.
He had taught me of the value of defeat, and the fickleness of
victory.
–
Chitose’s voice pulled me back to reality from idealised memory.
“When I said there was something I wanted to talk with you
about…” She placed the tip of one dainty finger on the rim of the
teacup. “I meant that I want you to refrain from your work for a
little while.”
“…Wh-…What?”
I blanched bone-white. This was absurd.
“…You can’t! I won’t!” I kicked the chair away and slammed my
fist on the table, staring Chitose down.
“What right do you have to…to…!”
She sipped her tea in silence, her facial expression deliberately a
little hurt. “I’ve already discussed it with Caren.”
She said it as though it was nothing, but that was the final nail in
the coffin. This was not a decision that could be overturned. My
grandmother was prone to jokes, but not to deception. In Mosaic City,
her final word was equal to the judgement of the Grail.
But even understanding that, my anger would not be quelled. She would
steal my work from me? Then for what did I leave that house? For what
had I become reviled as the Reaper, as I cut down Servant after
Servant!?
My shoulders heaved with ragged breaths. I somehow calmed myself.
“What do you mean, “For a while”…?” I asked.
“I mean two months at the least. There is something I need to
investigate first.”
“And my work will get in your way, will it?”
She nodded wordlessly. I turned my gaze to Lucius next to her, as
though pleading for help – but all he did was furrow his eyebrows a
little, and return a pained smile. A warning, that there was no
meaning in further pressing Chitose for her reasons.
–
After that, Chitose asked me a number of things about Pran, but my
head was in a daze, and I cannot recall what I answered. Her
questions seemed innocuous, but that only served to highlight the
absurdity of her taking such an interest in this single meaningless
Servant. It had all simply been my misunderstanding. This child who
had appeared before me was nothing unusual or special.
After they departed, I was left staring at the teacups that remained
on the table. I knew that if I wasn’t connected to Chitose by blood,
I wouldn’t be so irate. I would be burning with the desire to break
free of these shackles that had been placed on me.
But that was beyond me. Beyond me, who had chosen to run instead of
fight.
It had been a busy day. A day of fortunate and unfortunate meetings.
But even so, it had ended without having to end a Servant’s life.
So today had been a good day.
–
I had bathed, and I had tended to my wound. My body still itched for
the ached and pains of my daily training, but that would have been
irresponsible when I was still barely out of my sickbed. I would
stretch for a short while, and then I would go to sleep. I flung
myself onto the bed of my darkened room, too exhausted to even turn
on the light.
“Hey. Could you perhaps open this?” The small figure of the boy
stood in front of the curtain, illuminated a little by the faint
light filtering through.
“You sure talk funny… Um, do you want to see what it looks like
outside?”
I roused myself sluggishly, and opened the window lock at the bottom
of the leg of the bed. The window was elevated a little from the
floor, and on the other side was a small veranda with a rickety
handrail. There was nothing to see outside but the back alleys of
abandoned buildings.
In the darkness, the boy let out a small sigh. But he remained
squatting by the window, winding himself into the curtain, his golden scarf
floating in the night breeze.
“The moon’s covered by clouds, so you can’t even see the beach.
Actually, before that - just make sure you don’t fall, alright?”
“I won’t fall.”
“Ok.”
–
I staggered back to bed, and soon I was sound asleep. I’d avoided
mentioning it to Karin, but last night, the boy and I had ended up
sleeping in the same bed. I had been loathe to drag the folding bed I
kept for these occasions from the storage room, and it was covered in
dust and not immediately usable. And in any case, the bed this room
had come with was king-size, and too wide for a single person.
But no matter how large my bed was, no matter how soft or warm -
I would always be denied a tranquil sleep on days when I had struck
down Heroic Spirits. Their maledictions continued to ring in my ears,
raging at the untimely dissolution I had forced upon them.
“Ah…oh no. They’re coming…”
The evil spirits writhed beneath my skin, clamouring with impatience.
If I didn’t wrap myself with bandages, my bedroom would end up awash
with blood again.
–
These evil spirits had tormented me ever since I had first drawn
breath, and it had not been Chitose or Lucius who had told me how to
parley with them, but Caren. My master. She had taught me – to seek
to compromise with them, rather than see them as a problem to be
solved. To come to the realisation that no-one could save me from
this. To see that this was not a senseless agony that had been
imposed upon me, but rather that I had been granted the wisdom of
truly knowing the suffering of others. Forgive them their crimes, and
accept them into your heart, she had said.
Did I suffer this curse because I lacked a Holy Grail? Or did I lack
a Holy Grail because of this curse? It doesn’t even matter, not
really. But I want to know – why only me?
These were questions for my parents, but they were no longer in this
world. All I had left was endless repetition, asking and answering my
own questions thousands upon thousands of times.
If I didn’t start thinking more constructively, I would end up unable
to move forwards. So I might as well think about what business
Chitose had coming here.
–
Chitose was a recluse to the core, and rarely left her house, let
alone the Shinjuku district. The fact that she had come to Akihabara
alone was proof of the sheer abnormality of whatever was happening.
She had not just come for a friendly talk with my master. Her
attention was fixated on the Akihabara district as a whole, and the
need had arisen to crack the whip over Ms. Fujimura directly.
Caren Fujimura might currently be the administrator of Akihabara, but
in the time immediately after the reshaping of the world, her
jurisdiction had been Shinjuku. Afterwards, she had relinquished her
administrator privileges to the lower-ranked members of the Caren
Series, and moved her base of operations of Akihabara. It was she, my
master, who held the highest rank among the Caren Series of municipal
administration AIs. The other Carens were copies, each with their own
unique orientation. Perhaps that was why their personalities all
slightly differed.
Well, 'slightly differed’ doesn’t really describe it…they’re
like completely different people. Although I’m not really convinced
what the advantage is to that.
It would be a mistake to expect compassion and understanding from
Manazuru Chitose. I was under no illusions about that. I had had
absolutely no intention of staying that house in Shinjuku to become a
magus - no matter how much I might be imitating one in my life here.
Through my work, I had learned that the people known as “magi”
were incorrigibly self-centred creatures. More than a few lurked in
the shadows of this town, attempting to meddle with the Grail in some
nefarious way or other. I had clashed many times with their Servants,
and seen first-hand the callousness with which they handled them.
Perhaps there’s something afoot in the shadows of this town…and
she’s concerned for my safety? Although even that concern would
be the self-centred sort, that was ultimately only for her own
interests.
I had little idea what Chitose’s
goals might be, but perhaps by separating me from Caren, she was
hoping to lessen the burden on the municipal administration AI. Even
with more copies, she was struggling to keep up, and this city was
beginning to groan under its own weight. A symphony of contradictions
and hypocrisies. And if that was the case…
–
…Then more must die. More, and yet
more evil Servants must die by my hand.
–
A whisper slipped unbidden from my
lips. “So the war…isn’t over yet…”
I unconsciously clapped a hand over my mouth. That was a dangerous
thing to think. If I was not more careful, I would be removed by the
Holy Grail.
No matter how much I worried over my many questions, no answer would
be forthcoming. In an attempt to distract myself, I reached for an
object made of glass and leather on my bedside table, and held it in
my hands. It was one of the items I had brought with me from my old
house, along with the model aeroplane from before: an antique-looking
pair of aviator goggles. Although they were actually intended for
motorcycle use.
A sudden tiny cry startled me. Looking frantically to the window, I
saw the boy leaning out, about to fall. I hurriedly scrabbled to him
and pulled him back, holding him close.
“Damn it, I told you this would happen!”
“The sky. I can’t see it.”
So he’d been trying to catch a glimpse of the sky. We could go up to
the roof, but it wouldn’t make much difference. It was saturated with
light pollution.
I was very aware that he was a strong-willed child, and there was no
telling what he might get up to if I left him alone. Left with little
choice, I lifted him up onto my lap, and sat facing backwards on the
veranda. With the metal latch of the curtain as a handhold, I leaned
precariously out into the night.
“Maybe you can just about see it from here. What do you think?”
Above our heads, framed by high-rise buildings, we could see a tiny
patch of night sky. As I’d expected, it was a bleary, leaden shade of
grey. The child clung to me as he craned his neck to look.
“…”
“…That’s how it is.”
As a Servant, he was powerless. He didn’t even know his own name.
There was no telling when he might become my next assignment. And if
he did, I would kill him.
…Ah…
A single tear trickled down his cheek. He said nothing, but his body
was trembling.
“I won’t leave your side. At least, not until I know who you are.”
Inconceivable words, coming from my mouth. I knew they were nothing
but cheap lies, but now that I could feel the faint warmth of his
body, I could no longer think clearly. He had said there was
something he had forgotten - “Not until we find it”, I told
myself vaguely.
But the child shook his head firmly. “We can’t stay together.”
“…I know. You’re right, I know.”
Was it his solitude, that his tears were for? The uncertainty of
being under a starless sky?
If only we could have seen the lights of an aeroplane as we looked up
at the darkness. If only we could have followed that trail, a trail
carved by a man, across the nighttime sky. But there were no
aeroplanes to be found anywhere in this new world. Such was the
future that the Holy Grail had made.
That night, we went to sleep as two strangers in the same bed. I left
the doll from lunchtime next to my pillow.
I did not dream.