Chapter 65 of 100

Chapter 65

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Yang Xiaoli remembered her habit of locking her diary after writing in it, especially when she was with Lu Xin, she was even more cautious. How could she have been so careless this time? It was obvious that Lu Xin had read her diary. Perhaps Lu Xin had already marked her with a red cross in his heart, and she no longer had the right to catch him in the act.

Yang Xiaoli lay on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, unsure of how to react. Should she rush to the next room and give that pair of scoundrels a good scolding, or should she walk away heartlessly?

She knew very well that if this had happened in the past, no matter what she did, it would have caused a mental blow to Lu Xin. But now it was different. Lu Xin had read her diary and understood that she, Yang Xiaoli, did not love him. Lu Xin was a man who appeared indifferent but had a strong sense of self-respect. He must have lost all hope in her. No matter what she did, Lu Xin might remain indifferent. After all, how many men with self-respect would be moved by a woman who did not love them?

Yang Xiaoli suddenly recalled the scene when Lu Xin and the woman from the next room returned to the single apartment. At that time, the woman was affectionate towards Lu Xin, but Lu Xin was indifferent to her. Yang Xiaoli deduced that at that time, the woman liked Lu Xin, but Lu Xin felt only a little for her. However, after reading her diary, Lu Xin became disheartened and desperate, and in a fit of despair, he ended up in bed with that woman. Ultimately, it was her own fault for not cherishing Lu Xin, which pushed him into the arms of that woman.

Yang Xiaoli was a person who valued appearance. She still had some feelings for Lu Xin's handsomeness. Otherwise, she would not have rejected the generous offers from wealthy businessmen and chosen to stay with Lu Xin. She was not just after his money. Being with Lu Xin, she enjoyed the pleasure of his good looks and the peak of happiness he brought her in bed. However, Lu Xin was too honest and not good at flattering. He behaved according to his income, but her first boyfriend, even with a salary of 2,000 yuan, could make a show of having 2 million yuan. He was very good at romantic gestures, and Yang Xiaoli was completely deceived by him.

In the past, Yang Xiaoli had taken Lu Xin's kindness for granted and often compared him unfavorably to her first boyfriend, criticizing him for not being as romantic or as wealthy. But when she realized that Lu Xin was being taken away by another woman and would leave her world forever, she began to recall all the good things about Lu Xin and his kindness to her.

People often only think of the good in someone when they are about to lose them and want to cherish them. Is it really true that human nature is inherently base?

Yang Xiaoli thought about the details of her life with Lu Xin. Compared to her first boyfriend, Lu Xin was clearly much handsomer, more talented, and much better in bed. More importantly, Lu Xin was willing to spend money on her. If he had 1,000 yuan, he would spend it all on her. In contrast, her first boyfriend, who had an average appearance and only seemed handsome because of his dressing, was frivolous and crude, probably because he had played with too many women. His abilities in bed were poor, and he often boasted about his wealth but rarely bought things for her or gave her money. He always used her money to play romantic tricks on her. He was good at lying and deceiving, which is why he had completely deceived her.

In the past, Yang Xiaoli always compared the strengths of her first boyfriend to the weaknesses of Lu Xin, always finding faults with Lu Xin. Now, as she was about to lose him, she began to compare the strengths of Lu Xin to the weaknesses of her first boyfriend and realized with great pain that she had picked up the sesame seeds and lost the watermelon. Now the sesame seeds were gone, and the watermelon was about to be taken by another woman, leaving her with nothing.

Thinking about this, Yang Xiaoli suddenly remembered the look in Lu Xin's eyes when they were intimate earlier. It was indifferent, with a hint of sympathy and pity. At first, she just thought his eyes were strange, but now, upon careful reflection, she realized that Lu Xin must have deduced something from her diary.

She quickly flipped through her diary and then searched for her first boyfriend's name online. She understood that he was a complete love scammer who had deceived over a dozen girls in the past few years. The reason he often disappeared was that he was moving between different girls.

Yang Xiaoli slapped herself hard. "Yang Xiaoli, you are a fool, a big fool, a fool who doesn't know how to appreciate what she has! Lu Xin is so good, and you didn't know how to cherish him!"

Recalling Lu Xin's past kindness to her and thinking about how deeply she had hurt him, tears streamed down Yang Xiaoli's cheeks. She knew that Lu Xin would not forgive her in the short term. In these few minutes, her mind had undergone a tremendous change. She realized that she could not easily leave Lu Xin and had become accustomed to his kindness. When she was about to lose him, she was extremely reluctant.

In the next room, Zhou Ya put on her clothes and calmly asked Lu Xin, "Since Yang Xiaoli is still here, how could you come to me? Do you really not want to be with her anymore?"

Lu Xin briefly recounted the events recorded in Yang Xiaoli's diary.

Zhou Ya looked at Lu Xin with sympathy, pulled him into her arms, and comforted him softly, "Sanjin, I can't give you happiness, and she can't give you happiness either. I believe you will find a woman who can make you happy. Don't lose hope in love!"

Lu Xin didn't know what to say. Zhou Ya's existence itself was an obstacle to his pursuit of pure love. How could he start a new, pure relationship with her? Fortunately, after the incident with Yang Xiaoli, he had already given up on so-called pure love.

After a moment of thought, he said to Zhou Ya in a low voice, "I'm not ready to break up with her completely yet. Maybe I've invested too much time and energy in my relationship with Yang Xiaoli, and I still can't let it go. I don't want to end that relationship without any return. Besides, I want to find her first boyfriend and completely ruin that scoundrel. Perhaps when I feel that being with her is completely meaningless, I will end it."

Zhou Ya and Lu Xin had been neighbors for over half a year. She had seen how much Lu Xin had invested in Yang Xiaoli. It was indeed a bit cruel to let him end that relationship without any return. She said, "I believe that after this incident, you will see that woman's true nature. In the future, don't invest in her anymore; instead, take more from her."

Lu Xin wanted to say more, but his phone rang, coming from his room.

He looked at Zhou Ya, who nodded at him. "Go back. As long as I need you in the future and you don't refuse, we will always be partners!"

Lu Xin smiled and nodded. "As long as you need me, I will do my utmost!" It seemed that many of the actions in bed were somewhat similar to bowing.

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