12. suspicion

The past week felt like a year. It was finals week and your professors decided to challenge the absolute most out of their students.Every day you were crouching down at your desk with massive books surrounding you, trying to fit as much information into your brain as possible.You thought back to your big sister telling you that psychology is an easy major and it is super chill and relaxing. And you dumbass believed her. Psychology is way harder than people think an not many excel at it.You were doing fine. Actually, you were quite talented but it was still annoying dealing with statistics about the human brain.Throughout the whole week you decided to turn off your phone because there was no way that you were going to get distracted by anyone. You had to pass these exams and they were your top priority.Finally the last Final came around.You were exhausted because you had pulled an all nighter the day before and you were basically living off of coffee.But you pulled yourself together and entered the exam room with pride and excitement, considering this hell of a week to almost be done._______________________________________After your exam was finished, you headed straight back to your dorm.Sasha wasn't back yet because her physics exam had started a while after yours. You mindlessly plopped down onto your bed and turned your phone on again for the first time in 5 days.Immediately your eyes jumped to a certain text message from a certain someone.Eren:Meet me at 5 at the Italian restaurant at Meds Beach on Friday, cutieYour eyes lit up in excitement and the butterflies in your belly erupted in seconds. This was what you needed. After such a stressful week, spending time with Eren would be your perfect escape.You didn't bother answering because he knew you would come if you see the message. Eren knew you were longing for his presence.Without any second thought or hesitation, you picked out something to wear. It was quite a chilly day, so you opted for a deep brown roll neck, some beige pants and an oversized dark blue suit that your mom passed down to you from the 80s. You quickly texted Sasha about your whereabouts and headed out to the restaurant by train.You arrived at exactly 5 pm and swung open the door of the petite Italian restaurant. It was very beautiful and cozy. It felt like you walked straight into italy despite still being at a beach in America.It took you a while, but you finally found where Eren was sitting.He was sitting at a little table in the way left corner of the room. The seats were coated with red velvet and they looked alluring to sit on.Eren flashed you a quick genuine smile and gestured you to sit down."Wow you look beautiful Y/n."You hid your face a little so he couldn't see your blushing cheeks."Sooo why did you want to meet up?""Do I always have to have a specific reason? I just wanted to see you again."Those words hit harder than anything else. Thinking back to how it started out. Purely physical. You both honestly just wanted pleasure, but now your "relationship" with Eren had contorted into way more of a loving and comforting connection.The both of you didn't expect it to go as far as this but you were pushed into a flow and it was too late. Eren and you had both already caught feelings for each other. You and Eren were truly made for each other. You look for men who are dominant and confident. Men who force you into submission. But also men, who still have a soft spot. A soft spot for you and only you.Where as Eren looks for women, who are stubborn and strong hearted. He personally doesn't take a liking in women, who are extremely needy and throw themselves at him. Extremely submissive women aren't his type. Eren needs a challenge. And you are exactly what he is looking for.The both of you are very proud and stubborn people. You fight for control and dominance. You are up for the challenge and you crave the chase. That's why the relationship between Eren and you was going so smoothly. You balence each other out.And now here you were on a date with Eren Yaeger. The man who stole you heart from day one.The two of you started chatting about life and just general topics.After a while the food came and you enjoyed every last second of it.But then out of nowhere, Eren's eyes widened. He wasn't looking at you, he was looking behind you.Confused, you slowly turned around.In the entryway of the restaurant stood a tall man and a ,compared to him, tiny young lady.The man had blonde hair and a blonde beard. He wore glasses and was smoking a cigarette even if you aren't allowed to smoke inside.You couldn't shake his similarities to Eren off.The woman next to him was very different though. She had long presumably soft and silky blonde hair. Her hair fell around her face perfectly. On top of that she had ginormous blue eyes with such an innocent shine within them. Her body was tiny and fragile but it was shaped perfectly. She was everything you wanted to be. She was perfect."Zeke, Historia? What are the two of you doing here already?"Eren was smiling and his eyes were glowing.Sadness flushed over your body. This was the first time Eren truly hurt you. You felt empty all of a sudden. You tried to convince yourself that you were just overreacting as always, but you couldn't shake the feeling away.Eren stood up, completely ignoring you and rushed over to the pair standing at the door. He hugged the guy first and then leaned down and embraced the woman softly.You were just sitting there. Frozen. Eren was hugging this perfect girl. Envy was the only thing your mind was fabricating in that moment.You noticed them coming closer and put on a perfect smile, hiding your true emotions."Y/n, this is my older half brother Zeke Yaeger. And this is our very good friend Historia Reiss. The two of them were in Germany for a while and they said they wouldn't return until next year. But here they are."You continued your act of kindness and gave the two of them a genuine looking smile."Hey I'm Y/n Y/l/n, I'm Eren's F-friend."Publicly saying that you were only Eren's friend felt draining. Yes it was true. Officially the two of you are only "Friends" but the two of you knew you are more than that."I wouldn't say just that Y/n."Eren smiled at you. You understood that he meant the two weren't just friends. But it still kind of hurt that he couldn't pluck of the courage to actually say the whole word."Hiiii Y/n I'm Historia. OH omg right Eren already said that. OMG yeah Eren and I have been friends since FOR EVER. I remember that in kindergarten we even promised to get married one day."She laughed shyly but you could almost taste her fakeness in your mouth. You know and have learned to hate these types of people. You cringed with every word that left her lips. She was obviously flirting with Eren while knowing that the two of you were basically together. She fucking knew it.You just nervously laughed it off and scooted to the side, kindly gesturing Historia to hop in."Ohhhh no I'm fineee. Actually I think I am going to sit next to Erenii. We're reaaaaalllly close you know? hihi."It was extremely hard to hide your growing disgust.What a bitch, what a fucking bitch.You could tell that Zeke was also a little confused. He also knew Eren and you were basically together and wondered why Eren wasn't saying anything. He passed Historia and sat down next to you. He carefully scooted to your ear and whispered"Don't mind Historia. She can be clingy sometimes."You gave him a quick smile, pretending that everything was okay. But everything was not fucking okay. You had to watch Historia flirt with Eren infront of your eyes. A beautiful woman flirting with the guy you like. It was torture to your eyes and your heart. Thankfully you were good at hiding your emotions."Hihihihi Erennnnn that's not funnnnny. I know I'm soo short. Wait oh em gee your hands are so big. Let's compare them."You sat there with your eyes wide open in shock as Historia and Eren placed their hands on top of each other.You couldn't believe your eyes.Is she for real? What happend to girls supporting girls?The worst part about this whole situation was that Eren wasn't doing anything. Eren wasn't flirting with Hiatoria per say, but he was doing everything that Historia wanted. He didn't seem uncomfortable. Eren totally ignored you. It felt like the two of them were on a date and you and Zeke were the awkward third weel.You and Zeke exchanged awkward glances. You wondered how Zeke managed to spend time with Historia without completely freaking out.Then it happend. The final straw. Historia placed her fucking head on Eren's shoulder and that asshole wasn't doing anything.You snapped."That's fucking enough I'm leaving."You slammed your hands on the table, gaining the entire restaurant's attention. Zeke understood your gesture and quickly stood up to give you room. You stood up in seconds and speed walked a few meters. Then you took a deep breath and turned around.You stared deep into Erens eyes.He could see the immense rage and anger in your eyes."Have fun lovebirds."You turned around again and walked out of the restaurant. You had never ever been this mad. How could Eren just let this whole thing happen."Wait darling, don't leave please.. i need you."You couldn't believe it. You froze in your tracks and turned around."Don't fucking Darling me Eren Yeager."You turned around once more and stormed out of the restaurant."Y/nnn!"The last thing you heard was Historia calming Eren down."Just let her leave Eren, you have us!"Hearing that bitch say those words finally broke your tough barrier. Your eyes started tearing up. You started running to the next trainstation. You didn't want to give Historia the satisfaction of your tears. As you finally entered the train, you bursted out crying. You held your jacket infront of your face to mute yourself. At least that worked. No one noticed your emotional outbreak. You didn't need any pep talk from random strangers, who would pretend to care, right now. You needed Sasha and a cup of fucking coffee.