4. guilt

For some unexplainable reason, you couldn't kiss him. Why the hell did you do that to yourself? You ran down all of the floors of the party and rushed out of the door past a desperate Jean.You ran, until you were far enough away, to not hear the music anymore.What the hell is your problem y/n?You could have had the best hook up of your life. Why the fuck didn't you take that chance? He was so attractive. He was the first guy, who made it hard for you to assert dominance, you dumbass.Guilt washed over your body, when someone grabbed your hand from behind.It was Sasha."Hey y/n YOU WILL NEVER GUESS...wait, is everything ok... you seem sad, I swear to God, if jean-""No no don't worry it wasn't Jean, it was someone different. Look, I'm sorry, but I don't want to talk about it right now. How was that girl?""No problem y/n. You know what, tomorrow, we are going to our favorite coffe shop, you know the one that also sells instant noodles and we can talk about your problem in peace... Oh her? HER NAME IS ANNIE!! we had the best time.. she is really good in bed hihi. We exchanged numbers, because we didn't want to only have an one night stand.""Omg SASHAAAAA, that's amazing... you need to tell me more tomorrow, because right now I just want to sleep."After a 20 minute walk, you and your roommate Sasha arrived at the dorm the two of you are sharing and the both of you headed straight to bed._______________________________________You woke up at around 7.30 am, because you and Sasha planned on visiting the coffee shop pretty early.You looked over at Sasha and saw her making THAT face."Ok what do u want Sasha?""I told you about Annie right?""Yes.""Uhm wellll is it okay if she comes with us today? I swear she is really nice and she won't blabber out any secrets.. pleaseee?""Sure why not."You didn't think it would be such a big deal, i mean you weren't going to see that guy ever again, so it doesn't really matter, right? _______________________________________"WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU KISS HIM Y/N ARE U CRAZY? I know your soft spot is when guys know how to spanish dance or dance in general...why just why didn't u kiss him?""I actually agree with Sasha. I don't know you very well yet, but I would also like to know, why you didn't go for it. He was clearly very interested in you.""I don't know, I was also very attracted to him, but I kind of didn't want it to end in a hook-up, 'never see each other again' typa thing.""I understand that, but- oHhH annie, I think i- i forgot to get this one really important thing way back there at the bar, i have to definitely get it.""Yeah ok see you in a few minu- OH uh yeah omg I will totally help you, don't you definitely ehh need help with that, like, right now..?""Yeah let's ehhh go right now!""Wait, what are you two planning??""We will be back..."Suddenly Sasha and Annie left your table and headed to the bar. You were extremely confused. Wasn't Sasha about to complain about something?Whatever, you just went straight back to finishing your noodles."Good morning beautiful, or should I say, miss dancer."Oh fuck... this can't be...wait what?Your heart started pounding like crazy.You could feel his strong intensity behind you but he wasn't to close. He was always so respectful. You turned around and wow. He was wearing sporty trackpants and a loose brown t-shirt."May I take a seat?"Get it together y/n... assert the dominance assert..."Sure, go ahead."Eh could have been better."Since when do they sell Ramen noodles here? that's amazing!""Hmm I think they started around a year ago."He was close, but as always not close enough to make you uncomfortable. He leaned in closer to look at your noodle flavor and you were losing your shit."Wow that's my favorite flavor, good choice.""IT'S MY FAVORITE TOOO. *cough* I mean it's my favorite flavor too."You couldn't see it, but you knew, you KNEW he was smirking, as he pushed you slightly over the edge.Without a word, both of you knew exactly what the other one was doing. You were having this kind of competition. Who is more dominant? Who has the upper hand? And you had to be honest, it was driving you crazy."And why exactly are you sitting here. Was I to hot to forget?""That might have been a reason why, but I really wonder, why u always shiver when I come closer?"Shit he got you this time."I'm just cold. Don't flatter yourself pretty boy.""You sure? It's summer and you are sweating."It was incredibly hard for you, to hold back and not kiss him right then and there. You loved the way he fought for dominance."Whatever."He chuckled and moved your chin with his pinky in his direction to the point where you were forced to look him in the eye. Which you confidently did. You were not giving it to him. You were not submitting. "I will be at the college party next week again. Meet me at the same spot we met yesterday. Do I make myself clear?"He was grinning, but you felt him shiver under your confidence. "Yes ma'am. I will be there. See you beautiful. "He winked at you and slowly stood up. Now you were straight up laughing."Just go already!"The sexual tension with him was incredible, but deep down, you knew it wasn't only sexual. You just didn't want to admit that to yourself just yet._______________________________________"DID IT HAPPEN LIKE I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD HAPPENED? WAS THAT HIM. THE TENSION Y/N,,, THE TENSIOON""Sasha is correct. The tension between you two is amazing.""Yes that was him.. he was just being cocky and I was being cocky back, nothing much.""Oh don't be silly. Y/n y/l/n! I know you... what did he say?""He didn't say much. I said, i will be at the same college party as last time and that he should meet me there again.""Omg omg omg that's so amazing. So the 'problem' isn't so much of a problem anymore is it?""You're right.. wait Sasha, how did you know it was him? I barely mentioned what he looks like and how he carries himself." "Wait Sasha, let me explain this one. Honey, the way he looked at you. The second he saw you he had to take a double take. Not even a double take...a triple take and he was checking you out from top to bottom and smirking to himself.""really?"(Hey y'all... quick author's note. First of all thank you so much for reading through these 4 chapters already. Don't worry NSFW scenes will be coming, I just rlly want you, the reader to understand the sexual and general tension between the two main characters before we get into the spicy stuff. And yes Eren has a tongue piercing so be prepared ;))