CH 138

Chapter 138

His inconsequential words touched my heart. Sorrow rose up.

Now I can go back to where I came from.

Filina quietly wiped away tears and thanked Lee again and again.

Looking at himself, he said nothing.

I knew.

What Lee wants.

And I knew there was no way I could say no.

Perhaps, killing Lee was not a simple matter.

You’re going to have to fight for your life.

Filina persuaded him to give him a moment, and Lee nodded willingly.

“Philina.”

As she walked back to Huey, Lee called out to her in a low voice.

Filina turned around with a puzzled face.

He smiled slightly and opened his mouth.

“Why don’t you be a little more honest with your feelings?”

She wrinkled her brow at the sound of a flurry.

“What do you mean by that all of a sudden?”

At the sound of Filina’s raspy voice, Lee blurted out.

“You’re going back to your world soon. So, wouldn’t it be okay to open up a little more? Today, everyone around you has wanted you voluntarily. Of course, some people have hurt you before, but it’s only the world that perceives you as a hindrance that has made you sick.”

She reflexively thought of Henry.

His cloudy eyes that brutally killed me in my second life…….

‘Why…, why are you doing this? Philina……. Please, come to your senses……. Huh?’

Even the future that he saw through the fruits of his hallucinations, which he did not know.

‘Philina, I’ve done it all wrong……. You can’t die.’

I couldn’t understand Henry’s face, as if he didn’t know I had died at my hands.

Why did you cry so much when you killed me so cruelly?

Filina let out a rueful laugh.

It wasn’t Henry’s will. In my second life, I put my hand on my neck. It was me who killed myself. He never killed me in any of my life. He tried to save me.

…… The whole thing was just a futile move by the world to kill the obstruction.

At that moment, Lee, who had been looking at Pilina, tilted his head.

“Of course, it’s a little hard to say that the person who killed you in the third life was simply taken advantage of by the world.”

Filina turned around, her expression contorted.

Her chilly voice echoed through the silence.

“…… Does that mean he killed me of his own volition?”

At her question, Li raised his lips softly and opened his mouth.

“Yes. It’s a lot of emotion. For example, a deep sense of betrayal or frustration.”

“…….”

“In the end, it was just a change in the course of the world, but there were so many people who rushed to kill you at the time. They were sent by the world to remove obstacles. I was lucky enough to get mixed up in it and avoid being treated as a hindrance.”

Filina, who had been listening to him silently, frowned.

Because she didn’t understand that who had killed herself out of a sense of betrayal.

At the time, Henry and I were not in a relationship that would have left us feeling betrayed.

After an unexpected death in her second life, she treated Henry as a thoroughly invisible person.

He didn’t talk to me unless it was necessary, and we got along even more awkwardly than in the original.

So, it didn’t make sense to feel betrayed.

Isn’t betrayal an emotion that can only be achieved if there is at least some mutual trust?

As if reading her thoughts, Li suddenly burst out laughing.

“Philina, are you mistaken?”

“What?”

Filina wrinkled her nose. Then Li met her with an interesting face, and then smiled mildly.

“You’re mistaken. The person who killed you in the third life is not the one you think you are now.”

Filina frowned, and blurted out in a cold voice.

“What do you keep saying earlier? I’ve seen it clearly with divine power. Who is the owner of the sword that attacked me in the third life.”

The blade with the crane pattern on it belonged to Henry. I saw it with my own eyes, so I could say for sure.

Philina chewed her lip with reddened eyes.

Li only smiled a small smile on his pale face.

She can’t believe it.

She couldn’t understand. It’s definitely Henry, so why does Lee say he’s not?

Suddenly, I felt a rush of pain that seemed to break my head.

Filina wrinkled her eyes, her hand resting on her forehead. Before I knew it, beads of dry sweat were forming on my parched skin.

“…….”

Her red iris lifted sharply upwards.

Some memories flashed through my mind.

‘Well, why did you betray me! How much I trusted you……! How much I have cherished you so far…!’

What the hell is this memory?

Even if you look back at your past life, there is no story like this in your memory.

‘It’s all your fault, Philina! It’s your fault for betraying me!!’

It was definitely Cecilia’s voice.

And if there was one story that he didn’t remember, it was only one thing.

It was the energy of a noble divine power.

These memories were clear traces of his own death.

Filina’s hand twitched strongly.

My legs seemed to give out, and I slumped to the floor. She gritted her teeth as she clenched her bottom.

“…… Cecilia, was it you?”

Philina blurted out in a hushed voice and slammed her fist to the ground.

“Damn! Did you really kill me?!”

Suddenly, Cecilia’s face, which she had seen in her third life, flashed away. The terrible expressions on Ian’s face as he was wrapped up in a sense of betrayal.

Why didn’t I doubt it until now?

Why did the sight of Cecilia holding Henry’s sword look so familiar?

“Damn!”

Cecilia, who was kidnapped by me in her third life, was betrayed and murdered me while I was crying in Leone’s arms.

She snatched Henry’s long sword from him right next to him.

She showed off her riding skills that weren’t even shown in the original, and she succeeded in her first hunt with immense ease.

So, it wouldn’t have been too difficult to use Henry’s heavy sword to kill me.

Filina gasped with a deep sense of betrayal.

Li looked at Philina like that and spoke lightly.

“That’s what I said. You take advantage of her, but don’t have to feel guilty. You’ve already died because of her.”

Filina scanned Lee with a sharp gaze. His grey eyes and gaze overlapped.

Looking at Li’s cloudy eyes, it seemed to prove that he had only a short time left to maintain his human form.

-ˏˋ ━━━━━━ ʚɞ ━━━━━━ˊˎ-

Filina returned to her dorm with Huey. It was to talk in his room.

Unlike her, who sat helplessly on Huey’s bed, his face was full of curiosity.

Philina, who was looking at it, smirked in disbelief.

“What are you expecting?”

“That’s because I’m going to hear your secret.”

“Do you think my secret will bring you any great jewels?”

Huey’s lips curled up at the sound of her voice.

“It’s not a great gem, but I think it’s going to be very interesting to me.”

At his words, Filina narrowed her eyes and blurted out in a blunt voice.

“Well. That’s only when you really believe me.”

Her face darkened somehow. It was because he had inadvertently remembered the person with whom he had confided his secret for the first time.

He didn’t go into details, but he said that he was repeating his life several times. And Henry believed this nonsense at once without the slightest doubt.

A look of regret flashed through my mind that he had listened to me for nothing, his face swept away by anguish.

Filina quietly chewed on her bottom lip.

Henry never killed me! According to Lee, the world’s brutality perceived me as a hindrance.

Also, in the third life, it was Cecilia’s use of Henry’s sword.

…… So why on earth did I blame you so much?

Huey, who had been looking at Philina, said in a worried voice.

“Are you okay? Do you want to just go and relax today? I don’t care if you tell me tomorrow.”

Filina pursed her lips.

“You don’t have to tell me if I’m having a hard time, you don’t sound like a gentleman?”

“I hate people who pretend to be cultured. If you do, you’ll have a gut ache behind your back. The people who are curious, but who play like gentlemen on the outside, are actually the sloppiest guys.”

Filina snorted, dumbfounded.

“That’s not a sloppy thing, it’s a caring.”

At her words, Huey raised his mouth softly and blurted out.

“I’m caring, too. If it’s hard, tell me tomorrow?”

Looking at his red irises, there was a hint of stubbornness. I felt a small determination to listen to the story somehow.

That didn’t mean anything bad. It wasn’t just curiosity.

If I had to put it in words…, I wonder if the word worry would be appropriate.

Filina let out a small sigh. If I was going to talk to him anyway, I didn’t have to put it off.

“I warn you, don’t laugh at me.”

Filina whispered in a low voice. I was afraid that Huey would hear me and burst out laughing because he was dumbfounded.

“Why would I laugh at you? Do you want to talk to me now?”

He opened his mouth, casually leaning his hips to the side of Philina.

She stared blankly at Huey, who stood beside me, staring at me with glowing eyes. Then, suddenly, I spit it out casually, as if I didn’t know.

“Actually, I’m not Philly or Debussy.”

“Oh.”

A small exclamation passed.

Filina stared at him, her brow furrowed. Then Huey furrowed his eyebrows as if to tell him to do more.

She glanced at him with a suspicious look and then pulled her lips off once more.

“I’m already doing the same thing five times.”

“Is that so?”

She looked closely at Huey, who replied smirkingly, as if it wasn’t a big deal. Philina’s insistent gaze didn’t seem to fall from his lips.

Presently, she noticed the corners of Huey’s mouth twitching very slightly, and she gave her a pouting look.

“I just saw all the lips moving.”

At the sound of her firm voice, Huey said with a look of chagrin.

“It’s because you’re staring at me so piercingly. I didn’t laugh.”

“You’re not forcing yourself to put up with it, are you?”

“No, I don’t.”

At his answer, Filina looked sad. Huey was looking at his expression intently, with a serious face.

As if to reward her efforts, Philina opened her lips again.

“I’m not from this world. But I’ve already tried several times, and I’ve died four times in vain.”

At Philina’s words, he furrowed one eyebrow.

“You’ve already died four times? How did he die?”

“It was all in a different way. And even in this lifetime, I’m probably not going to survive easily.”

His eyes widened at the grave voice of Philina. His face was confused to accept what she had said.

Then I narrowed my brows to see if I had remembered something.

“So you’ve been trying to talk to the dragon all this time? Does he know how to survive here?”

Even as I said that, I asked back with a look of incomprehension.

“No, but why are you dying? Who the hell is going to kill you? How did you end up in another world? So where is the real Philina Debussy?”

Huey’s questions poured in one after another. The face looking at her was quite a mess. He rolled his eyes back and forth as if his mind were a blank slate.