Chapter 861: Can't control my heart

Jin Yao lowered her head and stretched out her hand, revealing a small pale

yellow pill on the palm of her hand.

Mother Chang was surprised: "Why is this medicine... still in my mother's

hands? You didn't put it in the ginseng soup?"

Jin Yao slowly shook her head.

"Niangniang, why didn't you let it go?" Madam Chang was surprised, "The slave

and maid managed to get this, Niangniang, you...do you regret it again?"

Jin Yao still shook her head.

She just sat there, and after a long time, she whispered: "Originally, I made

a big decision. But somehow, when I saw him, I lost my courage. I...really I

don't want to calculate him like this."

Tears dripped from the corners of her eyes.

"Hey." Mother Chang sighed and wiped her eyes with her veil. "When the empress

was in the house, she never cried. When she was in the palace, she had already

shed tears for more than ten years. Look at the slave. Now, it really hurts."

"Mother, I love him sincerely, and I don't want to treat him this way." Jin

Yao choked and said, "But my time is really running out...what should I do?"

Mother Chang sighed: "Either, let's just leave it alone. Let's live quietly

and not worry about this."

"I also want to be quiet, no matter what. But when I stay in this palace, I

look at him every day and I can't control my heart." Jin Yao cried and said,

"I am also a woman, I I want the love of my own man and want to have children

with him. Is this wrong? Why does the emperor refuse to give it to me? My

brother said I always make trouble, do I want to make trouble, I just don’t

understand, what am I? Where is wrong!"

Seeing her crying like this, Mother Chang also shed tears.

"Niang, don't cry. You are not wrong. What is wrong is that the ** is not

fair." Mother Chang sighed, "You are too soft-hearted... This Xiangsi Dan is

not harmful to the emperor's dragon body. "

"But..." Jin Yao hesitated, "What will happen if the emperor finds out

afterwards? If he is angry...I don't know what to do."

"The emperor is so angry, what can I do with the empress?"

"I'm not afraid of what he will do to me, I don't want him to hate me..." Jin

Yao whispered, "The emperor has only one empress in his eyes now. I am really

unwilling, I also want to let the emperor. I have me in my heart instead of

getting him in this way."

Grandma Chang said: "If you change to what you used to be, it's fine. Niang

Niang has time, and slowly let the emperor like you. But now time waits for no

one. You also said that you can't wait."

"I understand all of these. But I don't know why, as soon as I saw him, I...I

couldn't make this determination." Jin Yao lowered her head and covered her

face, "I'm so useless... I hate myself! "

Mother Chang was also helpless.

After Jin Yao stopped crying and her mood slowly calmed down, she asked, "What

the ** did you plan in her heart? This medicine..."

"I will think again, let me think again."

"Niangniang should make the decision as soon as possible," Mother Chang said

softly, "Now it is convenient for you to do anything while the empress is not

in the palace. When she comes, the emperor will be in the Fengyi Palace every

night, where there are others who can get involved. Room?"

Jin Yao shook her head: "But it's not necessarily true."

"Why do you say that?"

"Have you forgotten that the Empress Dowager is now arguing about the big

draft?" Jin Yao said, "This time the draft is to fill the harem, and secondly,

to choose the princess for Prince Qin. At that time, the palace must be

decided. There will be newcomers, can the queen still occupy the emperor

alone?"