Chapter 3

Yeming saw that Chen Yi's QQ space was set to be inaccessible to anyone, indicating that her sense of caution was very strong. This also proved from one side that the content in her space diary was absolutely important and confidential, and might even be some dark and unspeakable matters...

With a nervous heart, Yeming clicked on the "Diary" section in the space.

When the page opened, a prominently placed title caught Yeming's eye, making his blood almost freeze in an instant.

The title of this diary was: "Regret Not Meeting Before I Was Married." It was an original diary by Chen Yi, not a forwarded article.

This title clearly expressed Chen Yi's inner feelings: she had fallen in love with a man, but she was already married and could not reveal her feelings to the man she liked, nor could she be with the person she loved. She could only pour out her admiration and longing in her private diary...

For some reason, when Yeming saw this title, a strong sense of jealousy suddenly surged in his heart: Who was this lucky man? What kind of magic did he have to make Chen Yi, the dignified and noble, reserved and high-minded "First Flower of the City's Local Tax System," feel such regret?

Could it be Li Li?

As the saying goes: A good woman is afraid of a man who is deeply in love! Women like Chen Yi, who appear aloof and hard to approach, are actually very vulnerable inside. If they encounter a persistent pursuer, they are often more likely to soften and be captured by a man than those outgoing girls who often flirt with men.

And Li Li was precisely such a man who would stop at nothing in his pursuit of women. Moreover, he was the head of the county bureau, although his character was not good, his work ability and eloquence were quite good, and he had a certain charm. Faced with his intense pursuit, Chen Yi, who already had a poor relationship with her husband, might find it hard to resist and might have already given her heart to him.

Perhaps, the disgust and coldness she usually showed to Li Li was just an act for others to see, a way to avoid suspicion. In fact, she might have already been captured by Li Li...

Thinking of this possibility, Yeming almost lacked the courage to open the diary and read its contents. Moreover, facing this shocking title, he felt a sense of shame for prying into someone's privacy and began to scold himself: Yeming, when did you become so despicable and low? Chen Yi trusted you enough to tell you the password, how could you use it to pry into her privacy? Besides, this privacy involved her reputation and image, an extramarital affair, the most secret part of her heart. Was it too immoral for you to pry into her like this?

After hesitating for a long time, Yeming finally did not click on that diary: no matter who the male protagonist in the diary was, he would rather not see it and let it remain a mystery in his heart forever!

When preparing to close the diary page, Yeming accidentally glanced at the diary below and suddenly saw the title of the latest diary: "Dear Brother, I Miss You," written three days ago.

Brother? Chen Yi seemed to be an only child with no siblings! Why did she write such a diary? Could she have a very close cousin or a god-brother?

Since it was a diary written to a brother, it didn't seem very private, so Yeming casually clicked on it and glanced at the content, only to be struck like a bolt of lightning, his body trembling uncontrollably...

The diary had only a few short sentences: "Xiaoye, my dear brother, do you know that I miss you? In just over ten days, you will be back from the provincial bureau and will sit opposite me again, just like before. I really look forward to this day coming soon!"

After being stunned for a few minutes, Yeming finally came to his senses: the brother Chen Yi referred to was himself! Why did she write such a deeply affectionate diary? Could the protagonist of the diary "Regret Not Meeting Before I Was Married" be him, Yeming?

At this moment, he no longer cared about his sense of shame and morality, quickly moved the mouse to the prominently placed diary, and clicked on it, reading it word by word with great excitement and curiosity:

"Writing this title, I feel a deep sense of guilt. But if I don't write this diary, I fear I will go crazy!

I don't know from which day it started, but my heart, which was once as calm as a deep well, began to ripple slightly.

I always thought: a married woman, if she falls in love with a man other than her husband, or even has an extramarital affair, is a vulgar thought, a despicable act, a shameful fall...

Although my marriage is not happy, and I know that Li Zhi is promiscuous, I have never thought of having an affair or an extramarital affair to get back at him. My family background does not allow me to do so, my education does not allow me to do so, and the loyalty and purity I hold deep in my heart do not allow me to do so. So, I have never been moved by external temptations, nor have I given any man who coveted me a chance. I wanted to live a simple and uneventful life according to the principles I held.

But his arrival shattered my peace and completely overturned my beliefs.

He is so handsome, so handsome that just one look makes one feel refreshed; he is so learned and talented, in my four years of university and six or seven years of work, I have never met a man who can speak so eloquently and think so quickly; he is so cheerful and humorous, as long as he is around, there will always be laughter and joy, and everything will be pleasant...

I admit: I have fallen in love, a love that comes from the heart, deep to the bone!

Only now do I realize: the taste of falling in love is so wonderful, so intoxicating, yet so troubling...

And now I understand: the relationship between me and my husband Li Zhi was not love, but a natural match based on social status: his parents liked my family's intellectual background, and my parents liked his family's wealth.

I understand my parents' thoughts: they just wanted me to live a rich and peaceful life. And I, being a good girl who always listened to my parents, married Li Zhi without any love...

If it weren't for his appearance, if it weren't for the waves he stirred in my heart, I might never have tasted the flavor of love, and I might have thought that all relationships between men and women were like mine and Li Zhi's, maintained by marriage and lived out in a simple and uneventful way...

Unfortunately, when I started to taste the flavor of love, I no longer had the right or the qualifications to savor this sweet and pure love. I am already a married woman, and to put it bluntly, I am a withered flower, and I am three or four years older than him.

And he, so sunny, so handsome, so excellent, should find a pure and beautiful young girl, not someone like me, a withered flower...

I think I am a very rational person, even if I am passionately thinking of him, even if I often can't eat or sleep, I have never shown any of it to him. I believe he has no idea that the sister sitting opposite him often thinks of him to the point of heartache and often can't sleep at night...

I like to take care of him as if he were a little brother. I know he has no father and his mother passed away when he started working. Although he appears cheerful and optimistic, he is actually a lonely and helpless child. So, I often take his clothes home to wash, and often cook a few good dishes and invite him to my house for dinner...

Taking care of him and looking after him makes me very satisfied and happy. Many times, before washing his clothes, I would hold the dirty clothes that smelled of him, put them to my nose, and smell them for a long time, trying to feel his presence...

What makes me most ashamed and embarrassed is: recently, I have been having some absurd and unspeakable dreams. In the dreams, I am entangled with him... It is such a wonderful feeling... Under him, I feel like I am melting, like I am floating... This intoxicating feeling is something I have never experienced in my life, even with Li Zhi...

Every time I wake up from such a dream, my face turns red and my heart races for a long time, and I fall into deep self-reproach: What is wrong with me? How have I become so shameless and vulgar? Why do I keep having such absurd dreams?

Even more frightening is: one day when Li Zhi came back from a business trip, we slept together. That night, I had such a dream again. In the dream, I was entangled with him... I don't know why, but that night's dream seemed more real, more intoxicating... In the final moment, I couldn't control my passion, tightly hugged his body, and even called out 'Xiaoye'...

The moment those words came out, I woke up. Only then did I realize that the person on top of me was Li Zhi...

Since that day, whenever Li Zhi came back, I found various excuses not to sleep with him. I was afraid I would call out 'Xiaoye' in my dream again. I was really afraid..."

Reading this, Yeming felt his eyes moisten, and tears uncontrollably streamed down his cheeks...

At that moment, the door opposite was suddenly slammed open, and Chen Yi, with tears streaming down her face, rushed in, fell onto the table, and sobbed into her hands.