Chapter 130 - Deep Feeling

Unedited (It will be edited later today, and I will re-update this after the edited version is finished, sorry for inconvenient~)

Zhu Qingyue returned to the dormitory of the club and stood in front of the mirror in a daze. He was wearing a low-necked sweater today. The kiss mark on his neck could not be covered. In case he was seen by his teammates, he did not know how to explain it. In addition, his eyes were red and his face was pale at the moment, everyone would know something was wrong at first sight … his teammates were not stupid. His appearance in the training room would certainly arouse suspicion. Thinking of this, Zhu Qingyue simply sent another text message to Qin Mo: “Captain, I’m sorry, can I continue to ask for leave tonight?”

Qin Mo quickly replied: “What’s the matter? Is everything all right?”

Zhu Qingyue made up an excuse: “I met my uncle at the company. I haven’t seen him for a long time and want to have dinner together with him. Maybe I will come back a little bit late.”

“En, be careful when you come back at night.” After putting down the phone, Qin Mo touched his chin thoughtfully and looked out of the window.

Xiao Han poured a cup of coffee and handed it to him, standing next to him to ask. “Are you watching the night view here?”

Qin Mo took a sip of coffee, whispering softly in Xiao Han’s ear. “I saw Qingyue enter the club just now, but he sent me a text message asking for leave and saying that he would not be able to come back tonight, he had dinner with his uncle.”

Xiao Han was stupefied. “Do you mean Qingyue is lying?”

Qin Mo nodded. “En, I didn’t expose him, so don’t talk too much… He may have a problem and doesn’t want us to know.”

Thinking for a moment, Xiao Han replied. “When Chu Yan appeared on the shooting set today, Qingyue’s face froze completely. Is it because the knot between master and apprentice has not been untied?”

“I guess so, too.” Qin Mo took a look at Xiao Han and replied. “We can’t get involved in this matter, Qingyue has to solve it himself. Let’s organize the training first.”

Qin Mo turned back to his seat. Xiao Han followed him back to the computer and asked other teammates to continue to the challenge arena.

In the dormitory, Zhu Qingyue was taking a bath with hot water, the rubbing mark became redder, seemingly horrible to see.

Thinking of the picture of being pressed by Chu Yan on the bed and being kiss wantonly today, he felt a strong sense of shame that Zhu Qingyue wanted to peel off this layer of skin.

After washing his whole body red, the kiss marks finally faded. Drying himself, Zhu Qingyue went back to his bedroom, sitting beside the bed in daze.

At this moment, the mobile phone suddenly lit up. Looking down, there were many unread messages on the screen.

Zhu Qingyue picked up his mobile phone to unlock the screen and opened WeChat, which was full of messages from Chu Yan——

“Have you arrived at the club?”

“Tell me when you’ve arrived, I’m worried about you.”

“I’m sorry Qingyue, it’s my fault today.”

“It doesn’t matter if you ignore me in the future, but please give me a reply and tell me you got to the dormitory safely, okay?”

Zhu Qingyue’s eyes were hot, as he typed a few words: “I’m arrived…”

Chu Yan breathed a sigh of relief and immediately replied: “That’s good, don’t think too much. Just a good sleep and forget about it.”

——That’s easy for you to say. Can you forget it after sleeping?!

It was his first kiss. At that time, his mind was blank and his mouth was numb. He felt as if he was going to be eaten by Chu Yan. Zhu Qingyue still remembered clearly the strong, exciting and ravish kiss on the back of his mind. Afterwards, he was kissed by Chu Yan again when he was fully awake, which was a gentle kiss like scratching the surface…

Zhu Qingyue thumped his head hard to expel these messy memories, sat down by the table and opened his laptop.

He had never been in love and was confessed by his respected master, he had no idea what to do. After thinking about it, Zhu Qingyue simply registered an account called ‘Headache’ and posted his topic to a large forum in China: “Today, I was confessed by my master, whom I have always respected, and I was kissed by him. I am very confused. I don’t know what to do. Can you give me some advice? Should I cut off the relationship with him? Note: he and I are both men.”

As soon as this topic was posted, many onlookers responded——

1L: Catch the baby landlord alive! The newly registered account matter seems to be true?

2L: Landlord, seeing from your hesitation that you are not willing to cut off your relationship with your master!

3L: Upstairs+1, if you really want to cut off the relationship, will you come to the forum to ask?

4L: Excuse me, landlord, did your master kiss you violently?

Headache: En, when he kissed me suddenly, I wasn’t able to respond…

6L: Wow, violent kiss! So you didn’t hit him?

7L: Exactly! If you are violently kissed by a hated person, you will slap that person on the spot! You also said that you were very confused, but also seek to the forum for help? Actually you don’t hate him kissing you?

8L: If I am violently kissed by someone I hate, I will hit him with a fist and beat him to his knees until he cries for help! The landlord didn’t do it, which means he didn’t hate it.

Headache: No, I have a good relationship with my master. When I was young, he helped me a lot and always took care of me. It can be said that without him, I would not be where I am today. In fact, I respect him very much in my heart, how can I beat him?

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13L: Suggesting the landlord bring a stun baton in his pocket and aim it at his head. See if he still dares to bully you?

Headache: Don’t misunderstand, my master is not the kind of dirty old man who molested his apprentice. He is very young, only four years older than me. I recognized him as my master when I was 15 years old. He didn’t bully me on purpose. He had been pretending to be very good before. This time he was muddled by fever, and he kissed me vaguely. By the way, he told me the truth… What should I do?

14L: The landlord has been unconsciously defending his master. The implied meaning of the word for your master is good, isn’t it already obvious?

15L: You called his master scum, but he defended his master. Yo, yo, this is biased!

16L: We also suggest the landlord to beat him. The landlord obviously can’t do this! After being kissed once, you can’t hit him; after being kissed for the second and third times, you will get used to it.

17L: Baozi landlord! Identification completed!

18L: Let’s disperse, wish the landlord’s happiness.

19L: You don’t want to beat your master or cut off the relationship with him. Then stay with your master, don’t hesitate! I wish the landlord happiness!

20L: I wish the landlord and his master love each other O(∩_∩)O~

Zhu Qingyue looked at the netizens’ replies and couldn’t help being stunned. He came to the forum to seek for help because he was in a state of confusion and crisis. As a result, the netizens of the forum said that he was a baozi…

He naturally knew the meaning of baozi. It was the kind of weak person who had been bullied but did not dare to resist, but Zhu Qingyue was not a baozi. If someone did this to him, he would have beaten him to lose the teeth. But the man was his master, who trained him to be a world-class assistant. The man took good care of him for many years, and changed him from a little crying bag that only shed tears to a captain with responsibility. Without Chu Yan, there would be no him like today.

How could he beat up Chu Yan? Wouldn’t that be ‘unfilial’?

In his heart, Chu Yan’s position was not lower than that of his uncle who raised him from childhood…

All the posts on the forum turned into “I wish the landlord happiness”. Zhu Qingyue awkwardly turned off the web page and was at a loss for a moment.

If he had been more decisive, he should have cut off the relations with Chu Yan. But what about the strong reluctance in his heart? He felt particularly sad at the thought that he would never see Chu Yan again.

That night, Zhu Qingyue did not sleep well. When he got up in the morning, his eyes were still a little red, but he was much better than yesterday. He sorted himself out in front of the mirror.

After breakfast, Zhu Qingyue consciously came to the training room. Seeing him, Qin Mo took the initiative to greet him. “Morning, Qingyue.”

Zhu Qingyue smiled as calmly as possible. “Morning, do you want to continue play qualifying matches this morning?”

Xiao Han came over and informed him. “Qingyue, you don’t need to train with everyone for the time being. Today and tomorrow you go to Qingyang company. Manager Meng just called me. Your advertisement shooting plan has come out and shall be finished in two days.”

Zhu Qingyue was stunned and asked. “Am I going alone?”

“En, the next video advertisement will be shot in batches. You shoot first, then sister Xiang and A-Hong, and I will shoot with Xiao Mo at the end.” Xiao Han paused and asked. “Shall I drive you there?”

Zhu Qingyue replied instantly. “Don’t bother. I’ll take a taxi by myself, don’t delay your training.”

Qin Mo advised. “Then be careful on your way. It’s raining outside today, remember to take an umbrella.”

Zhu Qingyue nodded, turned back to the dormitory and tidied up. He found a white turtleneck and put it on, then put on a blue coat. He picked up the umbrella and went out.

The temperature outside was colder than he expected. Zhu Qingyue pulled up the collar of his coat and wrapped it around himself. He waved a taxi and headed for the company headquarters.

Manager Meng waited for him in the lobby and took him to the third floor. The studio was set up yesterday, the printed advertisement solo photo had been taken, so they shot a short video today. The girl from the advertising company enthusiastically described the scene to Zhu Qingyue, who listened attentively.

The focus of the short video will be on the brand new lightscreen control panel. Zhu Qingyue needed to sit in front of the computer and control it personally. The commercial shoot would focus on his fingers and the blue luster of the lightscreen. The camera would gradually move up from the hand. Bringing out his smiling face, and then transfer to the computer screen, which happened to be Peerless Jianghu game screen. What Zhu Qingyue needed to do was simple—— Manipulating the lightscreen panel with his fingers and putting a little smile on his face.

It was just a natural game performance, which was much easier to do than working with models to take photos of lovers yesterday. This plan was checked by Chu Yan. Was it because he knew that he wouldn’t do anything too difficult, so he simplified the shooting plan? When he thought of this, Zhu Qingyue could not help feeling a little complicated.

Seeing Zhu Qingyue in a daze, Meng Ke could not help smiling and reminded him. “Qingyue, go and change your clothes.”

Zhu Qingyue returned his senses and replied embarrassedly. “Can I just wear this sweater? This is the new cloth I just bought some time ago…”

“You wear a turtle-neck sweater, you will be more masculine if you wear a low-neck one.” Meng Ke replied. “Yesterday’s new clothes were specially bought for the purpose of this advertisement, and the effect is very good.”

Zhu Qingyue’s felt embarrassed. Although the kiss marks on his collarbone were very shallow, it still could be seen with a closer look. So many people were present here, could he still use the excuse of being bitten by mosquitoes in winter?

In the middle of his dilemma, Zhu Qingyue heard a low sound from behind. “It’s raining today and it’s too cold to change your clothes, take a photo first to see the result. For the low-neck clothes, just shoot it on location for another day.”

It was Chu Yan’s voice, which was a bit hoarse because of a cold.

Zhu Qingyue immediately turned his head and looked away nervously.

Chu Yan walked over and informed Meng Ke. “Since this scene is a natural performance, there is no need to embarrass him in terms of clothes.”

Meng Ke chuckled. “Alright, let’s have a look at it first.”

The photographer and the props engineer immediately started work. Sitting in front of the computer, Zhu Qingyue logged in his account and began to operate the lightscreen board. As a result, due to his uneasiness, his account, Bright Moon Clear Sky fell off the cliff.

His fingers were being photographed by the camera, and the slender fingers of the young man were unnaturally pale, and the tips of his fingers were so tight that they almost punctured the LCD screen.

The photographer laughed. “Relax, don’t be nervous.”

As a result, the more the photographer spoke, the more nervous he was, there was a layer of cold sweat in his hands, and the smile on his face was ugly.

Knowing the reason, Chu Yan walked behind him and leaned into his ear to whisper. “Relax a little, don’t worry about me, I will go now.”

Zhu Qingyue was stupefied. Looking back, he saw Chu Yan turn around and leave quickly, disappearing at the end of the corridor.

After ChuYan left, Zhu Qingyue took a deep breath and adjusted his expression. He was really not as nervous as before. He smiled shyly at the photographer and then cooperated with the requested action. The short video was finished soon and the planning girl asked him to change to the next scene.

The shooting of the advertisement in the morning went very smoothly. Manager Meng felt very satisfied after watching the replay.

It was winter at the moment, and Zhu Qingyue appeared in a turtle-necked sweater, because of his long neck and well-proportioned figure, contrary to expectation he also looked classy. The fingers photographed in the camera were very beautiful, sliding quickly on the LCD control panel, and the skill icon clearly appeared where the fingertips touch. In line with the skill release screen in the game, the young man had a smile on his face. The appearance of playing the game seriously was very charming.

This was the simplest short film, which could be used as a few seconds advertisement during the break of the competition in the future. Later, it should be accompanied by voice-over to introduce the product, and the effect should be good.

Meng Ke e-mailed the short film to Chu Yan, who also said that there was no problem, so she asked the advertising company to do post-processing.

During the lunch break, Meng Ke ordered takeout, and also bought one for Zhu Qingyue, then told him. “Go to the office upstairs to eat and take a nap. We won’t start work until 02:30 p.m.”

Zhu Qingyue smiled gratefully and followed Manager Meng all the way to the office on the tenth floor.

The office was located at the end of the corridor, the french windows on one wall made the room very spacious and bright, the bookshelf on the left side was full of professional books, and the middle desk was very large, with an office computer and a neat stack of folders on the table. The opposite, there was a set of black leather sofas and a transparent glass coffee table.

Meng Ke said. “You can eat here. After eating, you can lie on the sofa for a while. I’ll call you at 2: 30 p.m. in the afternoon.”

Zhu Qingyue was somewhat flattered and asked. “Manager Meng, is this your office? If I rest here, then you…”

Meng Ke smiled: “This is director Chu’s office. He just went out and specifically told me to call you up. You have a habit of taking a lunch break, right? Just sleep here and I’ll get you a blanket.” She took a blanket from the cupboard, put it next to the sofa and said, “have a good sleep after eating. Mr. Chu said he wouldn’t be back until this afternoon.”

After Manager Meng left, Zhu Qingyue sat on the sofa as if sitting on the bed of needles. He was very embarrassed at the thought that all this was explained by Chu Yan.

Master had been very considerate to him before, but he made it clear yesterday, and now he knew Chu Yan liked him. How could he continue to brazenly enjoy Chu Yan’s care?

Thinking of this, Zhu Qingyue quickly finished his meal, turned and walked out of the office.

As soon as he went out, he heard a conversation between two people. “Have you recovered from your cold?” It was Zhu Ran’s voice that asked. “If you don’t feel well, go home and have a rest.”

Chu Yan coughed and replied. “The fever has subsided, but my throat is a little sore.”

Zhu Ran: “By the way, did Qingyue take care of you yesterday afternoon?”

Hearing this, Zhu Qingyue’s back stiffened and his ears pricked up.

Chu Yan replied. “En, he took good care of me and also ordered takeout for me.”

Zhu Ran patted his friend’s shoulder. “I don’t want to see this kind of sudden pass out again. Qingyue was scared to death by you yesterday. He called me for help, I carried you back.”

Chu Yan laughed. “I know, he certainly can’t carry me.”

Pausing for a moment, Zhu Ran changed the subject and asked. “Say, Meng Ke like you, is your heart actually a mirror?”

Chu Yan didn’t answer.

Zhu Ran said seriously. “A-Yan, I do not object to office love, you and Meng Ke joined the company in the same year, we are alumni, if you two can succeed, I am also very happy. Meng Ke is beautiful and has a strong ability to work, no matter in terms of appearance, schools, and family backgrounds, they all match you very well. Why don’t you like her?”

Chu Yan calmly replied “Emotional matters cannot be judged by whether they match or not. I only regard Meng Ke as my junior. I already have someone in my heart.”

Zhu Ran was surprised. “Do you have someone you like? Who is it?”

Zhu Qingyue: “…”

Standing at the corner, Zhu Qingyue turned pale. He clenched his fist nervously, fearing that Chu Yan would say his name.

A moment later, he heard Chu Yan’s flat voice. “It’s not convenient to say the name. Anyway, it’s a person who I loved for a long time, making me captivated. I think I’ll fall into his hands in my life. Even if I can’t be with him, I won’t fall in love with others anymore… So, put aside your thoughts of being a matchmaker and don’t worry about my affairs.”

Zhu Ran laughed. “Unexpectedly, you are still a great lover! I’m really curious, who makes your love so passionate?”

Chu Yan whispered. “Hopeless love, gradually becoming a kind of obsession, you and your girlfriend have a smooth relationship, naturally will not understand my feelings.”

Zhu Ran had never seen Chu Yan in such pain, he was stupefied and wondered. “Then why don’t you go after her? With your skills, appearance, and methods, isn’t it easy to chase someone?”

Chu Yan frowned. “I don’t want to hurt him.”

Zhu Ran was stunned. “Why?”

Chu Tan chuckled. “There are too many obstacles between us. When he is with me, he will be under a lot of pressure. He is very simple, I can’t let him live so hard. If I don’t take this step and reveal it, he will live a much easier life.”

Zhu Ran sighed. “What about you? Are you going to suffer alone? I really don’t understand, What kind of person are you in love with, and you don’t even dare to chase?”

Chu Yan felt funny—— if you figure it out, I am afraid that instead of standing opposite to chat with me now, you will take a knife to chop me.

While they were chatting, they suddenly heard a ‘bang’ sound coming from the corner, as if something had fallen to the ground.

Looking back, Zhu Ran was surprised. “Qingyue, why are you here?”

Hearing this, Chu Yan’s back stiffed, coming forward in two steps. Sure enough, he found Zhu Qingyue squatting down and hurriedly picking up his mobile phone, looking embarrassed, and his face seemed to be covered with tears.

Zhu Ran laughed. “Hey, your eyes are red, are you crying? What’s there to be sad about breaking your mobile phone, I’ll buy you a new one.”

Chu Yan frowned and helped Zhu Qingyue pick up the battery that fell to one side and handed it to him. Zhu Qingyue took it with trembling fingers, saying “thank you” and lowered his head to hurriedly turn to leave. Chu Yan gently held his arm and whispered. “Qingyue, let’s talk.”

Zhu Qingyue’s whole body turned rigid.

Zhu Ran looked at his nephew and his friend, and asked curiously. “What’s the matter?”

Chu Yan casually replied. “Some unpleasant things happened during the advertisement in the morning, it’s no big deal. You go back first and I’ll talk to him.”

“Alright, I’ll go back to the office first.” Zhu Ran nodded. “Qingyue, if your mobile phone doesn’t work, let me know and I’ll buy you a new one.”

Giving an “En”, Zhu Qingyue added. “See you later, uncle.”

Zhu Ran waved and turned away. After he left, Chu Yan took Zhu Qingyue into his office and asked in a low voice. “How much did you hear about what I just said?”

Zhu Qingyue’s eyes were a little red, and he choked up as he replied. “I almost heard it all.”

Stepping forward, Chu Yan gently touched Zhu Qingyue’s hair and replied softly. “What I told your uncle is the truth. I like you for a long time, but considering that you will face great pressure from your family, and you respect me very much. That’s why I’ve been hiding it from you, and I’m not going to pursue you. Qingyue, I don’t want to take you into the mire, you will have a better life… Forget the stupid thing master did yesterday. I believe that you will find a gentle and kind girl in the future, and you will be very happy.”

The man’s voice was so gentle that it almost made people melt. Zhu Qingyue clenched his fingers harder—— Chu Yan meant that he would not pester him again and let him go to find his own happiness. He should feel happy, but why would he feel sadder listening to this man’s gentle voice?

——I think I’ll fall into his hands in my life. Even if I can’t be with him, I won’t fall in love with others anymore.

——I don’t want to hurt him.

——When he is with me, he will be under a lot of pressure. He is very simple, I can’t let him live so hard.

What Chu Yan said to Zhu Ran just now echoed clearly in his ear.

That kind of repressed deep feeling, like wine hidden in the cellar for many years, once opened, the strong taste could no longer be dissipated.

The man in front of him thinks about him everywhere, burying all his deep feelings in his heart, because he was afraid to hurt him, and even didn’t dare to take the step of pursuing….

In this world, who else would love him more than Chu Yan?

Zhu Qingyue was a soft-hearted person, and he could feel Chu Yan’s deep feelings.

In the face of a person who protected and took care of him since he was young, and who loved him deeply when he grew up, he was really ruthless.

—— Don’t want to beat your master or cut off the relationship with him. Then stay with your master, don’t hesitate!

A netizen’s reply suddenly came to his mind when asking for help in the forum last night. Looking at Chu Yan’s depressed and painful appearance, Zhu Qingyue felt a little soft and suddenly blurted out a sentence. “Otherwise, let’s try to be together.”

Chu Yan. “…??”