Chapter 78

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Crossing the hill~ Though my hair is already white~

Chattering incessantly~ The sorrow of time not waiting~

Not yet fulfilling the wish to see the immortal~

I've already lost myself~

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In the real-time video, Guan Yaling, wearing a cute dark brown teddy bear pajama set, was holding a folk guitar and playing and singing Lin Zai Shan's "Hill" for Li Xiaoni.

At this time, it was already midnight in the East China Sea time zone.

If it were any other time, this lazy girl would have been so sleepy that she could fall asleep standing up.

But now, stimulated by the big villain Lin and a glass of red wine, Guan Yaling was energetic and fully engaged in her performance.

She had remembered about 90% of the chords Lin Zai Shan used when he sang "Hill," and she had almost memorized the main melody after one listen. However, she didn't remember all the lyrics, but she clearly remembered the climax.

Lin Zai Shan sang the climax several times, and each time she listened with great concentration. She remembered the detailed design of the song's structure, but her singing skills couldn't compare to Lin Zai Shan's. She could only roughly convey the meaning and flavor of the song to Li Xiaoni.

Lying on the King-size bed in a five-star hotel, wearing high-end earphones, Li Xiaoni was overwhelmed with amazement as she listened to Guan Yaling sing.

How could Lin Zai Shan have written such a song?

Not to mention the mature and restrained melody, which also carried a hint of faint helplessness and regret.

Just the lyrics alone were not something Lin Zai Shan could have said!

After experiencing the ups and downs of life, this was a grand work of reflection on the past. Although Guan Yaling sang it a bit modestly, Li Xiaoni could still feel the profound life insights contained in the song.

If the "Shattered" from years ago was just Lin Zai Shan expressing his inner frustration and anger, then this "Hill" was completely expressing his entire life's sentiments!

What has happened to him in the past two years?

How could his music style have changed so much?

Hill... Hill...

Hill also means grave!

(Cao Zhi's "Konghou Yin" says: "Living in a splendid house, returning to the hill after death." Zeng Gong's "Nan Xuan" poem: "Sages and virtuous people, though they return to the hill, their hearts may still be cherished." Both refer to graves.)

Thinking back to the scene of seeing Lin Zai Shan in the cemetery two years ago, Li Xiaoni was startled!

A dying person speaks well.

Could that guy be dying?

Is this a last moment of clarity, summarizing his life?

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Chattering incessantly~ The sorrow of time not waiting~!

Tempting love~ Fate's manipulation~!

Fighting back with all my might~ Until death do us part~!

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Why can't I remember the last time someone gave me a hug~!

When was it~!

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In the video, Guan Yaling was learning to sing the final part of "Hill" as Lin Zai Shan did, but the flavor she sang lacked the dramatic twists and turns that Lin Zai Shan conveyed, and it felt more like a release. She even seemed to be shouting by the end.

"Ha ha." Guan Yaling felt embarrassed and shyly smiled, saying to Li Xiaoni on the other end of the video: "Sis, you should listen to Lin Zai Shan sing it himself. My performance is not even a fraction as good as his."

"Is he going to die?" Li Xiaoni suddenly asked.

"Going to die?"

"I think this song is something he wants to write on his tombstone."

"Thinking about it, this song could really be inscribed on a tombstone." While still playing a gentle melody, Guan Yaling carefully recalled and said: "But from what I felt at the scene, he wasn't singing this song to write his own epitaph. He didn't look like someone who was about to die. From what he said, he really seems to be making a comeback."

"What has he become now? I just searched online, and there's no news about him making a comeback."

"That's why it's so shocking! From his words and actions at the scene, he has completely changed from the Lin the Big Villain I remember. I don't know if he's really old, but he doesn't have any violent aura. He seems very calm. Facing the criticism from the audience, he just smiled faintly and didn't explain or say much. At that time, all four of us mentors were at a loss, and no one paid attention to him. He stood on the stage, awkwardly smiling—just thinking about that scene makes me shudder!"

"Why didn't anyone pay attention to him?" Li Xiaoni's tone was helpless and reproachful.

"Who would dare to pay attention to him! You know him best, he's just a big pile of dog shit! Would anyone actively talk to shit?"

"Are you feeling itchy again? Can't you speak nicely about others!" She glared at Guan Yaling and made a gesture to grab the air in front of the camera.

"Ha ha, I found that every time I curse the big villain, you defend him. But the problem is, when you're drunk, you curse him even more fiercely than I do! I learned this from you, but I only learned the surface. Thinking about the words you used to curse him, I still blush! You always compared him to some geometric cylinder, don't you remember?"

"Are you deliberately trying to get yourself killed?"

"Yes, hit me! Pinch me! Ye ye, I'm not afraid!"

Before singing, she had a glass of red wine, which made Guan Yaling's face flushed and extremely excited, almost turning into a lunatic, shaking her chest in front of the camera to provoke Li Xiaoni.

"You have one more week to live, make the most of it—fulfill your unfulfilled wishes. I'll be back in a week."

"Ha ha, sis, I'm not joking with you, don't bully me when you come back. You should think about Lin Zai Shan's situation first. Are you sure you have no lingering feelings for him at all?"

"I haven't had any lingering feelings for him for a long time. I just miss the him in my heart." Li Xiaoni was straightforward with Guan Yaling.

"Then what if the him in your heart reappears?" Guan Yaling asked curiously.

"It's impossible. That person is long dead."

"What if the big villain rises from the ashes?"

"The sun rises in the west, hey, you're actually speaking up for him?"

"I'm thinking about this realistically. If we don't think about the big villain's past and just listen to his songs and see the person he is now, feeling the沧桑 (cang桑) of someone who has experienced great storms, I really think he's super charming! Before he admitted he was the Lin Zai Shan who sang 'Wheat Field,' I almost fell in love with this guy (his music)! I don't know what he was like when you loved him the most. But the current Lin the Big Villain, I must say realistically, has a particularly unique charm. It might be influenced by his music, but I genuinely think he's a super charming old man!"

"Is it really that exaggerated?"

"I'm not lying to you, sis, I'm giving you a heads-up. He's absolutely not the same as the person you described from two years ago. He has aged a lot, but he's far from being in his fifties or sixties. He's still very young, just with white hair. Just looking at his face, he's a young uncle with a mix of good and bad. From my own perception, I think he's even more handsome than when he was young! His voice is even more irresistible! Ladies and gentlemen, allow me to curse: Damn! It's really too good to listen to!"

"I shouldn't have let you drink that glass of red wine."

"I'm not drunk, one glass of red wine can't make me drunk. I'm really worried about you, sis."

"What are you worried about?"

"I'm worried he will affect you."

"That's all old news from years ago, no one will care anymore, and Lin Zai Shan himself doesn't even remember these things. You don't need to worry."

"But I'm worried you might fall in love with him again."

"Are you serious or joking? Are you going to shake your chest in front of the camera to provoke me again? I have my own material, I'm not envious of yours."

"No, I'm not joking with you, I'm serious this time. I'm really afraid you'll fall in love with him again. You always tell me your heart is dead, but I think your heart has never really died. Otherwise, why haven't you opened your heart to start a new relationship after so many years and so many people pursuing you?"

"I have my reasons for not wanting to start a relationship, and it has nothing to do with Lin Zai Shan. I'm tired of deceiving the whole world. I'm sick of living a life of lies. If I have to deceive even my lover and can't truly open my heart to share the storms with them, I might as well die and be done with it."

"Don't always think so extremely. If someone truly loves you, they won't care about your past. You can tell them your secret."

"Do you know if he loves Li Xiaoni or Li Qilin? Telling this secret will not only destroy our love but the entire world!"

Regarding her identity, Li Xiaoni's nerves were always on edge, and she never relaxed.

Over the past decade, this has been the biggest source of pressure, causing her to wake up from nightmares more than once.

Guan Yaling felt Li Xiaoni's tension and sighed with a touch of sadness.

Mentioning this, Li Xiaoni becomes extremely nervous, almost to the point of being neurotic.

Guan Yaling felt very sorry for Li Xiaoni and increasingly understood why she wanted to find a Lin the Big Villain who would dare to stand up to the whole world.

In Guan Yaling's view, Li Xiaoni wasn't really looking for such a person to love, but rather, Li Xiaoni herself wanted to become a Lin Zai Shan who was carefree and dared to destroy everything!

The growing pressure made Li Xiaoni's subconscious accumulate too much desire for destruction.

In her subconscious, there has always been the shadow of Lin Zai Shan. She can't forget this person because she wants to become this person so much!

If she could be like Lin Zai Shan, not caring about anything, not fearing the world's condemnation, she could have long been free from the tormenting mental pressure.

"Sis, I've told you everything I should. I won't say more. Lin the Big Villain is really making a comeback, and he's doing so with an unexpectedly mature style. I was afraid he would affect you, but after talking to you, I suddenly realized: if you and he can rekindle your old feelings, it might not be a bad thing. The sky that is going to collapse will always collapse. Having someone to share the burden, even to take the hit and divert the target, might actually make you feel more relaxed."

"You're thinking too beautifully. Why would he help me? He doesn't even know who I am."

"He doesn't need to know who you are. Didn't you say he has shoulders that can carry the sky? If the sky collapses, having him help you carry it isn't that great? Who cares if he knows who you are."

"I once thought he could carry the sky, but that might have been a naive expectation and illusion from my teenage years. The real him might not be as great as I imagined. I just have some lingering thoughts about the 'him' in my heart, but in reality... forget it, I have no feelings for him. Don't add to my chaos, I know you want me to start a relationship to relieve stress. But I really can't start a relationship now!"

"Sis, don't always keep your heart so closed. I don't know if there are other men in your heart, but you've never forgotten the big villain—this I'm sure! Maybe the big villain is the key to unlocking your heart?"

"You're making me want to vomit."

"Then what should I say? A comfortable massage stick?"

"I shouldn't have let you drink!!"

"Ha ha, sis, I'm not drunk, just a bit excited. Don't be angry with me, just treat what I say as if you didn't hear it. I can't control my scattered thoughts and mouth right now."

"You're drunk!

"No, I don't feel drunk. In a few days, Wu Lao Da will go to see Li Zongheng to ask for his opinion on absorbing Lin Zai Shan. Then he will personally interview Lin Zai Shan, using the pretext of helping him create, to test his character and creative talent on the spot. To see if he can really help us put on a good show and not mess things up. — See, I remember these things clearly, I'm not drunk. If Wu Lao Da really interviews the big villain, I'll call you to let you listen to him sing live and experience his renewed,沧桑 (cang桑) voice!"

"Damn! What are you doing taking off your clothes!"

"It's hot, why is it suddenly so hot? Is the air conditioner broken?"

"You shameless woman! Go to bed quickly!"

Li Xiaoni couldn't bear to watch anymore and angrily turned off the video, no longer wanting to be stimulated.

Rubbing her slightly sore neck, she lay flat on the big bed, lost in deep thoughts.

Was what Guan Yaling just said because she was drunk or was it real?

Judging by Guan Yaling's excitement, she was really affected by Lin Zai Shan's voice. Could she be hallucinating?

Lin Zai Shan's super lightning voice in his youth was very heart-wrenching.

But according to what Guan Yaling said, Lin Zai Shan's current沧桑 (cang桑) voice is not a high-pitched voice. Is this change really more charming, or has it lost its luster?

Listening to "Hill," Lin Zai Shan has indeed changed a lot.

Why did he change?

Was it because he was influenced by his young girlfriend?

If so, the power of love is truly great! It could pull Lin Zai Shan back from the brink of death and make such a significant change in him, which is amazing!

Recalling the frail back of the little girl two years ago, Li Xiaoni was moved again, but she felt no jealousy.

For the real Lin Zai Shan, Li Xiaoni genuinely has no thoughts or feelings.

Lin Zai Shan's comeback is like a natural miracle of resurrection to her!

She is just very interested in this event, not in the real person Lin Zai Shan.

However, now that Guan Yaling has piqued her interest, Li Xiaoni really wants to see what Lin Zai Shan has become after his rebirth.

Even Li Zongheng gave Lin Zai Shan a standing ovation, has he really transcended and been reborn?

Is he even more powerful than when he was young?

After all, he didn't have the ability to make Li Zongheng stand and applaud when he was young.

Li Xiaoni found herself becoming more and more curious, even wanting to return to China early to see how this miracle was born.

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【Kneeling for recommendations!】

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