Ch1.19 - (I) It Was You Who Failed Me [End Of Volume I]

Yan Chen would occasionally see Rong Jun sitting by the window with a glass of water in his hand, looking out in a daze.

But as soon as he walked over, Rong Jun would put down the glass in his hand and very actively wrapped his arms around his waist, budding himself intimately in his arms, making him almost irrational.

He’d gently pull Rong Jun into his arms, covering his half exposed body to the sun with his hands, and felt that it was already a little hot.

“The sun is a little hot, don’t you want to take a proper rest?” Rong Jun leaned his head on his shoulder, “Then you can carry me back.”

“Okay.”

How could he refuse such a request. Being able to make him rely on himself and get close to him is what Yan Chen has been praying for all the time. Now they are sticking together day and night as he wished.

He completely confined Rong Jun in his own world. Even though the sun outside was still high in the sky, and the room was also brightly lit, Rong Jun still reached out and hooked Yan Chen’s neck, twisting his face and kissing him before he reached the bedside.

There is no shyness in his eyes anymore, only lust. “Yan Chen…” As if he couldn’t wait, he stuck out his tongue and lightly licked the man’s chin, intending to arouse his sexual desire.

Yan Chen has seen such a sudden act more than once. Now Rong Jun is like a desire that can never be filled.

As long as he smells other people’s smell, and touches other people’s body, he will become very wanting. It was also one of the reasons why Yan Chen no longer allowed him to see anyone.

Yan Chen kissed his lips back softly, and rushed to the bed in a few quick steps to press him on it. Rong Jun was wearing a loose nightgown that was easy to take off all the time, and by untying the front tie, he could immediately see the white and tender skin inside.

“Are you uncomfortable in the back? I seemed to have done too much last night, and it seemed to be swollen.” While kissing him, Yan Chen opened his legs and stroked his hips.

Rong Jun didn’t answer, but rather let his body do the talking. He dragged his neck down, coiled his legs around his waist, nimbly wrapped his tongue around Yan Chen’s lips and kissed him deeply in his mouth, blocking the words that were supposed to come out.

He was demanding, moaning under the man’s body, trying his best to invite the man inside him, begging with hoarse voice of lust.

And as if Yan Chen understood his actions, he said, “I will give you whatever you want, so never leave me.”

“I love you, Qingqing.” Seeing Yan Chen drowning in happiness, Rong Jun smiled brightly. He hugged him tightly, and replied softly, “I hope that’s true.” The corners of Yan Chen’s grinning mouth almost turned up behind his ears, and now Rong Jun can’t live without him just, as he too can’t live without him. They were destined to be entangled forever, to live and die together.

But all his fantasies were shattered in a sharp cracking sound. Yan Chen, who was in his sleep, was startled from the bed immediately by the ear-piercing sound.

He quickly touched his side, and found that Rong Jun was gone, and when he looked up, he found that he was standing by the window not far away. Suddenly, there was a pile of broken porcelain scattered on the window, and a cup handle was mixed in it.

It seems that the cup has been accidentally broken. Before he could relax, he called his lover’s nam, frowning.

“Qingqing, don’t move around, I’ll take care of it.” But Rong Jun didn’t listen to him, he picked up a large and sharp piece of porcelain from the pile of fragments, and pressed it against his neck, before Yan Chen could get his feet off the bed. And his tone was very indifferent, as if he was without any emotion.

“You just sit there.” Yan Chen’s body froze suddenly, he didn’t dare to move, he looked at the scene in front of him in disbelief, his thoughts were thrown into panic for a while, and he couldn’t think of any reason for Rong Jun’s behavior.

“Qingqing?” He called out softly.

“Yan Chen.” Rong Jun replied with an eerie but mellow voice. His eyes suddenly turning red,

“I loved you, but you betrayed me.” He spoke with a soft and shaky voice.

“Qingqing…don’t mess around…” Yan Chen’s face was pale with fright, and he couldn’t help sitting up anxiously from the bed, but as soon as he moved, the sharp piece of porcelain pierced the skin of Rong Jun’s neck, and the eye-catching red color suddenly rushed out of his pale skin, stopping his movements.

“Okay! Okay! I won’t move! Don’t hurt yourself!”

“Don’t you think your words are ironic?” The mist in the bottom of Rong Jun’s eyes slowly rippled, his tears cascading down his cheeks.

“You didn’t hesitate at all when you crippled my feet…”

“I just…just want you to stay by my side… And…you have already said you liked me, so you can’t leave me…” Rong Jun was tired of hearing his selfish remarks.

“You’ve destroyed me, and yet you still dare think that I’ll love you!? I will never love you! Not in this life or the next! I CURSE YOU! I CURSE THE GODS WHO’S RESPONDIBLE FOR THIS WRETCHED FATE I HAVE!!!” Yan Chen was startled by a sudden heart-piercing roar.

“Qingqing…”

“Since you want to be with me so much, let’s die together.” Rong Jun didn’t give Yan Chen a chance to react, he swiped his hand suddenly, and the porcelain slice cut his neck immediately, and the image of blood splashing out of his neck was reflected in the eyes of the man watching him, causing bursts of cries of pain piercing his eardrums.

He fell to the ground, and the bells on his feet made a series of sounds. Yan Chen lost his voice for a moment, then rushed over and hugged the person who fell on the ground.

He was terrified and clutched Rong Jun’s bloody neck, his red eyes dripped with tears and dripped down on his red hands,

“Qing…Qing…Don’t leave me!! NO! You can’t leave me!!” Rong Jun’s body began to convulse, and his eyes gradually lost their luster of life.

Facing the man who was in despair, and as he took his last breath, he tried his best to move his gaze aside, not even wanting to see him for the last time.

“No…Qingqing…you can’t treat me like this!!!” The eyes that lost their brightness, the arms that hang down, and the chest that no longer rises and falls all tell Yan Chen that the person in his arms is dead.

“You can’t leave me…”

Everything happened too fast and hastily, Yan Chen has not been able to accept the reality of the momen, he did not give up and clutched Rong Jun’s bleeding neck, and hugged him tightly in his arms.

The servant who heard the sound and rushed in saw the large bloodstains on the two of them, and hurriedly called someone to call for the doctor.

They were all at a loss, and they couldn’t even summon up the courage to call out. Yan Chen noticed that the body temperature of the person in his arms seemed to be slowly dropping, his blood-stained hand finally moved away from m his neck, and touched the blood-spattered cheek.

He wanted to help him wipe off the blood spots on it, but instead stained his entire face. He looked at the man who could no longer respond to him, looked at the face that was stained red, and suddenly laughed out loud.

That burst of laughter was slowly stained with desolation, and was soon drowned by drops of tears.

His eyes were lifeless, entangled and engulfed by the breath of despair, he finally closed his eyes and put his head on Rong Jun’s face.

He was smiling at him. But his smile was not the smile of anticipation, it was the smile of realization.

Rong Jun has finally escaped from him.

He is free.