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Xie Yan rarely smile at the company, recently he would smile happily almost every day, and it made all female staffs blushed; his sign on the documents were also signed elegantly that it could be considered as a calligraphy, everything he did reflected on his good mood, therefore everyone took the opportunity to ask for his approval, various documents that were long overdue because of his bad mood long time ago were submitted for approval.

The reason of why Xie da shaoye was extremely happy was very simple, it was because the submissive Shu Nian was getting more enthusiastic than before, simply said, he was getting bolder.

Although Shu Nian would flee just by the action of wrapping his arm around his shoulder in public places, but when they were alone, Shu Nian wouldn't resist, obediently let him to manipulate his body, and even summoned the courage to spontaneously kiss him once or twice.

It seemed like he was afraid that Xie Yan would get bored because of his meekness, so Shu Nian tried his best to show a little proactive behavior, he looked very loveable when he was kneeling in front of Xie Yan and trembled as he took the initiative to unbutton his shirt,. Xie Yan evilly violated Shu Nian until his eyes were red and moistened as his constantly pleading appearance was the ultimate temptation to him, and it would always entice Xie shaoye in spite of he often fell deeply into the euphoria and couldn't help from thinking about the aftertaste, and it made every directors that were participating in the meeting felt extremely terrified due to his smile.

Oh, it still didn't go as far as initiating to provocatively ride him and such, although Xie Yan really wanted it, but for now he didn't demand too much of it.

Xie Yan knew that Shu Nian was just being obedient, he still didn't trust him, maybe it was because he didn't do well enough, but sometime he would still felt angry, even when he gave him that ring, what else could he do to prove his real feeling?

He tried to find a way to make Shu Nian confess, but it still didn't work, it seemed like no matter how hard he tried, it only proved that right now there was no way for Shu Nian to be secured about their future.

It also wasn't easy on Xie Yan. He is a master in flirting, but he wasn't a love expert, he couldn't be certain of human's subtle mood.

The unpredictable one wasn't only Shu Nian, but also his parents that had been travelling all year round. To be more specific the FASHIONWEEK season in Paris already over, flew back home without saying anything and it was alarming.

Xie Yan was sitting on the sofa and straightened his legs, he was holding Shu Nian as he absent-mindedly watching news, Xie Yan was focus in kissing the marks around his lover's neck that were about to fade away, as he was having fun, the living room door was suddenly opened, and Xie Yan immediately stiffened.

But Shu Nian's reaction was much faster, it only took him a second to flee out of Xie Yan's arms, and finally fled from the awkward situation.

It was too sudden, although Xie Yan's parents didn't see anything, Shu Nian was scared and turned pale, became even more quiet, sitting far away from Xie Yan at the table, looked down to eat silently, didn't dare to make any sound until it was bedtime, when they already went upstairs to take a rest, and yet he still didn't straightened his back.

That night Shu Nian's bedroom door didn't open for Xie Yan like usual, it was closed tightly, Xie Yan felt funny that his lover was acting like taking a refuge during a catastrophe, at the same time he also felt bad mood to be left alone, hence Xie Yan deliberately knocked on the door with unnecessary strength: "Xiao Nian, it is me."

It looked like Shu Nian planned to hide in his room for the whole night, there was nothing he could do to stop Xie Yan's knocking, he was even more afraid that Xie Yan's parents might hear it, and he had to open the tightly shut door.

Xie Yan grabbed him once the door was opened, Shu Nian was startled, and he evaded the fierce kisses that were showered by Xie Yan: "This, this isn't a good idea, go back to your room tonight."

"Why?" Xie Yan failed to kiss Shu Nian's lips, and went to the next best place, he tilted his head and sucked on Shu Nian's ear, he heard Shu Nian gasped because of his small stimulation, he smiled and said frankly, "You obviously want me too."

"No," Shu Nian resisted strongly, "master and madam are back..."

"What's wrong with it?" Xie Yan answered calmly, "Just ignore them."

"How can I ignore them!" He resisted and then was pushed to the bed, Shu Nian desperately grabbed his clothes," if they found out...ah, don't touch...stop it..."

"It doesn't matter if they found out, aren't they going to find out sooner or later?"

Shu Nian said in surprised: "Let them..."

"Could it be possible for them to be completely unaware when we are together for a lifetime?"

"That..." Shu Nian smiled wryly, "Possible, now... isn't the right time..."

"You don't have to worry that much, just leave everything to me."

Although the person in his arms didn't stop struggling, Xie Yan managed to hold him down, smoothly stripped his clothes and entered from behind.

Although Shu Nian was reluctant, but he was used to accommodate his da shaoye's behaviors, his body didn't have a good tolerance to withstand for a long time, he simply let Xie Yan to ram straight into him.

Even though the sex was semi-forced, he could only resisted weakly, panted heavily, buried his face in the pillow, and let the person behind him used massive strength to penetrate into him deeper.

His naked back rapidly moved up and down, it had turned pink in passion, it was much more intense than usual until the large bed made squeaking noises, Shu Nian suppressed his moan as he was trembling from the strong penetration, beside from the low groans and skin slapping sounds, every sound was swallowed in his throat.

"Don't hold it in...just moan..." Xie Yan egging Shu Nian to moan aloud, as it enticed him to get completely out of control because he looked alluring when he was trying to suppressed himself, Shu Nian's knees weakened, and he could only bit his pillow desperately.

"You don't have to hold it in, they wouldn't hear," Xie Yan saw Shu Nian trying hard to suppress his moan, his forehead was covered in sweat, he was unable to breath normally, Xie Yan felt sorry, "even if they hear us, you have me, you don't have to worry..."

Shu Nian still didn't dare to relax his taut body, until he could feel the swell in his body reached its limit and suddenly he could felt the hot wetness, he could only panting for air, and unable to move his weakened limbs.

"You ah..." In the end Xie Yan wasn't successful in making him moan aloud, he lay on Shu Nian's back, lightly kissing his cold cheek, he also didn't know whether to admire his perseverance or to despise his cowardice, "why are you so afraid?"

Shu Nian breathed slowly, he was very tired, his eyes were slightly closed and he smiled sheepishly.

Shu Nian also understood his cowardice was unpleasant, and he was well aware of his flaws.

"Afraid they will make things difficult for you?" Xie Yan changed his position, he was holding Shu Nian from the side, and didn't put too much weight on Shu Nian, "or you are afraid I couldn't stand their persuasion, and I will let you down?"

Shu Nian moved uneasily: "...no."

"Don't worry, it won't happen." Xie Yan pasted their foreheads together, held him tight and stroked his back, "I won't make you feel sad...you just have to believe in me."

"En..."

Shu Nian answered faintly.

He didn't have any confidence.

He was optimistic that there wouldn't be too much opposition, his parents were accustomed to their son's wayward behaviors and would continue to behave like that, both of them would be happily together for long time — it was a fantasy that he couldn't obtain.

There was no sign of Xie Yan wanting to stay, as for Xie Yan's confession, it was a miracle that was beyond his imagination.

Shu Nian had been having a crush for that man for so many years, Xie Yan had clearly rejected him, he unabashedly expressed his disgust after touching him, he was unable to accept homosexuality and cursed him as disgusting, one day he suddenly changed and said he likes him.

This kind of love, could it be like a jackpot falling from the sky?

Shu Nian had wanted to ask Xie Yan, what could be the reason for him to change his perspective. He was still the same as before, he didn't change, it had always been the same, was there really a part of him that could attract Xie Yan?

Or Xie Yan was just having a momentarily confusion.

For example, perhaps Xie Yan was accustomed to have him by his side, couldn't adapt being apart for too long, just like feeling the emptiness in one's hand, everything would be inconvenient, and would like to revert to old routine.

Things such as physical contact, making love, kissing, as long as he was used to it, even if it was between same sex, it might not be a big deal.

As for the proposal...the ring was already slipped around his finger, he would confirm the existence of the silver ring every time he woke up, as it could tell him that it was a reality and wasn't an illusion, but it couldn't guarantee that it was right.

He didn't think Xie Yan was playing with him, he was just afraid of Xie Yan making a mistake.

Perhaps it wasn't love, but something else, something stronger than a friendship, coupled with the affection and warmth from growing up together.

Of course, it didn't matter even if it wasn't love, he didn't mind even if it was just an illusion. He only hoped for it to last slightly longer, a little bit longer.

If anyone found out about their relationship, then it would be an illusion, and would probably shatter.

Xie Yan's parents would spare no effort to wake up their son, told him to let go, and then prepared the best woman to make their son turned back as he used to. It was inevitable.

Shu Nian had expected it, and he also knew that everything would be over after this.

Hence now he was only trying to maintain their current relationship, and he was willing to let go from being pulled around.

Perhaps Xie Yan was right, the next day Xie Feng saw his son came out from Shu Nian's room, didn't say anything, just frown and said: "you are already grown up, but yet still want to sleep together?"

But this kind of luck only lasted for a few hours only.

"Shu Nian, follow me to my study."

Shu Nian was alone in the kitchen to prepare snacks for Xie Yan's afternoon tea, suddenly his name was called, Shu Nian was slightly surprised, hurriedly cleaned his hands, took off that funny apron, and went to his study.

Xie Feng's face was like usual, therefore Shu Nian's hands didn't tremble too much.

"Take a seat first." Xie Feng pointed at a chair, looked at Shu Nian as he pulled the chair meekly, carefully sat down, although he was sitting, but it was awkward, his back was straightened, and he didn't dare to relax his body.

"I remember I had told you to take care of Xiao Yan," Xie Feng had always didn't show any expression on his face, and one couldn't see his real intention, "but you had been taking care of him too thoroughly."

Shu Nian straightened his back, his face was covered in embarrassment as if he had done something wrong, his dampened hands became rigid, and he was speechless.

"You don't have to be afraid, I called you to have a talk, and nothing more. No matter what happened you were brought up in Xie family, and I didn't regard you as an outsider."

"It's..." Shu Nian looked at the floor. He was a grown up man, and yet his dignity and rights were only equivalent to a child.

"How long have both of you been like this?"

"Not...not long ago."

Xie Feng looked at the paled man in front of him, meek and docile, such face would lead other astray, but it wasn't enough to wipe off his anger.

Xie Feng didn't know either he was lucky or not. Fortunately, it was Shu Nian, he had been watching him growing up, well-behaved Shu Nian, he would be easy to take care of than other person; perhaps it wasn't that terrible it turned out to be Shu Nian.

Silence engulfed the room, Shu Nian was already covered in cold sweat, he looked like a lamb that was about to be slaughtered. Xie Feng sighed inwardly, but he was still cold: "You grew up with him, you should have already known everything by heart, and don't allow him to make too much ruckus. Although Xiao Yan makes a ruckus, but you should also keep everything under control for him, we are relieved to be away from home for many years, only to know that he even touch a man now, it is outrageous!"

"It became like this, because you followed his lead. You are older and much more outrageous, man of this age should take care of one's family and yet both of you start to play this kind of thing? How do you look after him?"

"Young master...he is still young, fooling around...it wasn't that serious..." it was hard for him to say it. He couldn't confidently announced that Xie Yan is serious about me, and said to be with me for a lifetime, gave me a ring, and...

Such confident words, he couldn't say it to Xie Feng, even he felt like he was talking in his sleep.

"He was slightly curious, why do you let him have his way? This kind of matter wasn't a joke! If others know, what would happen to Xie family's dignity? Impossible things are simply impossible, you don't have to listen to him! Also, I want to ask you, although Xiao Yan was fooling around, it was unlikely for him to use force, he didn't force you, right?"

Shu Nian slowly accepting his fate bitterly and let out an "en".

"You and Xiao Yan, isn't serious, right?"

"..."

The expected reaction, Xie Feng wasn't ready to ask anymore, he called him originally wasn't for a discussion.

"Shu Nian, you are more sensible than Xiao Yan, you are already clear with the disadvantages of this kind of relationship without having me to say it. Xiao Yan will get married and have children, it is unavoidable, he is almost twenty six, and he shouldn't act willfully."

"And you, you shouldn't take his words seriously, is there any man that wouldn't say sweet words when he is fooling around? He would get tired sooner or later, you have been with him for many years, and yet you still don't understand?"

"Previously women would always wrap around his legs, it made us as his parents look bad, and things are getting worst, no one know what he is thinking and a few days later he broke up with that girl. Later on the one who helped him to ward off the girl's calls every day is you, and you couldn't be possibly vague about it."

"You want to follow him, I wouldn't say anything, but you should also know what to expect, and don't be too stubborn. Following Xiao Yan, but you has to let go once it is the time to let go, don'ts stubbornly intertwine with him, otherwise when things get out of control, I would have to do something and I wouldn't show mercy."

"Understood......"

"You shouldn't blame me for being honest. You are one of us, I had to say this so that you will understand. Being blunt will do well to both of you."

"Also, Xiao Yan should settle down, as for what kind of lady, we already has a candidate, and both families had prepared almost everything. You should be clear about it, have a clean break with him, or accompany him to play along, but it would be better if you break with him. But if you aren't willing to do it, that is also fine, I won't force you. Take a good look of him for me this time around, so that he wouldn't create trouble outside and others wouldn't know anything, this matter shouldn't be known by others. I wouldn't hinder whatever kind of love both of you has right now, as long as you don't tarnish my face when the time comes, just break up when it is time to break up."

"Understood......"

"Alright, you can go out."

Xie Feng felt that he was being generous enough, he had wanted to say something harsher than those, but he unknowingly cool down in the midst of it. He couldn't pinpoint what made him soft-hearted, whether it was Shu Nian who did his best to meekly follow his son around, or his son showing that kind of expression around Shu Nian.

But he also had things that he must do, it wasn't because he was afraid that his son's impulse might tarnish Xie family's name. Young people always felt that parents always unreasonably interfere with their emotional life, but children didn't realize that parents were burned out and helpless and yet they would still be busy working for the next generation after all those years.

"Understood......"

Shu Nian stood up and opened the door. He couldn't ask such a question: "What if young master refused to let go?"

Such possibility, even he himself didn't believe it.

Shu Nian was like hanging on the edge of a cliff, and completely depended on Xie Yan that was holding on one of his hands. If Xie Yan wants it, perhaps could pull him up. If Xie Yan let go, how could Shu Nian be reluctant, when he didn't even have the chance to struggle.

In fact, even if Xie Yan let go, he wouldn't blame him. He would only regard it as he was too heavy, and he was too difficult and boring for Xie Yan.

Shu Nian also wanted to be slightly charming, but those flaws couldn't be changed, coward, fool, and also, being a man.

He was ashamed about his awkwardness and anxiousness.

Shu Nian felt Xie Yan swiftly became a beast when he let Xie Yan touched him afterwards, Xie Yan couldn't restraint from ravaged him severely, he refused to stop even when Shu Nian was trembling and on the verge of fainting, holding him everyday wasn't enough, he simply wait for him to break down and devour him whole.

As long as he is willing to do it, when he was pushed against the wall and being violated without any explanation, letting out wanton moans, felt his knees weakened until he almost fall down, and yet Shu Nian didn't intend to stop.

Because Shu Xin didn't resist, he would accept it no matter how shameful the position was, he also took the initiative, and even clumsy enticed Xie Yan.

He didn't know what else he could do, he suddenly remembered when Xie Yan praised him and said about having "real sex".

A thirty-something man, with no advantages that he couldn't flaunt, and even his physical attractions were aging. He wasn't young.

Although Xie Yan may be married to a woman, might get tired of him, nonetheless that day haven't yet to come, and he hope the time they could be together could extend.

Shu Nian was desperately fighting for it.

Anne's Rant:

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Please note that some part might be incorrect as I don't know how to translate it to English. Mistakes are bound to happen and corrections are very welcome.