V1C9

Translator: Anne Noh

Proofreader: Rachel

In his eyes, Shu Nian was just Shu Nian. Xie Yan had always loved and treated Shu Nian like a pet dog ever since they were small. He had been reluctant to part with Shu Nian when they had grown up. Sexual needs, age and other aspects were completely ignored. The only characteristic left that related to Shu Nian was effortlessly pure and nothing more.

He could clearly see Shu Nian, who was lying on his back less than fifty centimeters away from him. Shu Nian had his legs spread open and his eyes firmly closed while he was doing the provocative thing. This kind of assault simply couldn't be described.

Xie Yan didn't know whether the high temperature in the bathroom was the reason why he was feeling a little bit dizzy and found it difficult to breathe.

"Um, Xiao, Xiao Nian..." What should he say? Should he tell Shu Nian to stop? It didn't seem like a good idea to stop others from relieving their need. Besides, Shu Nian was totally wasted and it was pointless arguing with a drunkard.

"That, you, you should hurry up, or...you will, will catch a cold." Xie Yan stuttered when he uttered those simple words. He was really ashamed, and even more so when Shu Nian ignored him and acted as if he wasn't there. Shu Nian looked like he hadn't heard anything and continued his movements.

Damn! It would be better if Shu Nian let Xie Yan leave first. Would anything good come from watching a man masturbate? Wasn't it the same; face twisted in extreme intoxication, gasping for breath, [1] moaning, and sometimes drooling?

[T/N: [1] The original words are 'ermm ahhh'.]

There was only three words to describe it - a major turnoff.

Xie Yan stealthily peeked. Ohh...

Xie Yan coughed awkwardly and he suddenly felt like he was about to have a nosebleed.

Shu Nian looked like he wasn't doing anything indecent, when he was obviously behaving lewdly.

His whole naked body lied in the water without any care, his knees were bent and his legs were automatically in a spread-open posture. Somehow it looked like he was teasing, or perhaps...inviting Xie Yan.

Xie Yan let out a few coughs and had the urge to escape the scene. Instead he stood motionlessly as if his feet were glued to the ground.

The slender and soft fingers moved slowly under the water. Shu Nian's complexion was slightly pale due to the lack of color and it looked almost translucent while it was immersed in water; totally exquisite. The features on his side profile were becoming more comely and his lips, which had been bitten until red, highlighted his plain face stunningly.

Could the word 'lovely' be used to refer to a man's body? Eh...Let's forget about it. Xie Yan could barely restrain himself from having any dirty thoughts. However, Shu Nian's coarse groans made his heart race uncontrollably.

Xie Yan was covered in sweat after all the groans had ceased down.

Hrmm, it is really hot in here. Xie Yan wiped his forehead in an attempt to conceal his real thoughts. He was aware that he hadn't blinked an eye and had unexpectedly enjoyed watching the whole process of the same gender masturbating. Xie Yan couldn't help but to take a step backwards.

What the hell...

"Xiao Nian," It was very awkward, "You...have you finished cleaning up?"

Shu Nian still paid no heed to him. His labored breaths slowed down slightly and he suddenly raised his eyes. He looked at Xie Yan who stood blankly with a rigid expression on his face. Shu Nian was like a kid who had been playing around and then suddenly noticed a stranger was in his house; his smiled immediately stifled.

Xie Yan really suspected that he might have a nerve or eye problem after tonight ended. How could he feel that a lingering glance was more enticing than a flirtatious glance?

It was terrible. He set his composure; even if his lust was dissatisfied, he couldn't go as far as being enticed by a man.

However, his scalp was tingling and his lower abdomen was getting hot with excitement. It had been a long time since he last felt like this.

Xie Yan hurriedly took a few deep breaths, trying to make his voice and mind returned back to normal: "Xiao Nian, come out from the bathtub. You will catch cold if you don't dry yourself."

Shu Nian was silent. It was as if the man beside him had completely disappeared. He ignored Xie Yan and began to pour shower gel onto his body and seriously scrub.

Xie Yan felt that if he didn't do something soon, then his problem would become worse due to Shu Nian's sultry pose (according to him) even though he was just standing still. His heart would definitely have a problem.

No matter what, Xie Yan must pull Shu Nian out from the bathtub first, and then put a clean set of pajamas on him as soon as he was dried. Xie Yan calmed himself down for a moment, before he went over and squatted beside the bathtub. He reached out his hands to hold Shu Nian: "Get up. Let's get dry and then go to sleep."

The skin under Xie Yan's palms was very smooth. However, the feeling was completely different to touching women, who are smooth like water. This skin obviously belonged to a man as it was firm, but also soft.

Xie Yan had always been obsessed with caressing and [2] tormenting Shu Nian ever since they were young. It was because he really liked it and felt that it was really comforting, until eventually he became obsessed with feeling that familiar sensation. Being in the same place with Shu Nian evoked his addiction of touching him. Although a man's body was stiff and flat, he felt a sense of satisfaction when he held Shu Nian in his arms. No one could give him that satisfaction beside Shu Nian.

[T/N: [2] Tormenting as in always rubbing and kneading Shu Nian.]

Why did Xie Yan feel happy when he was holding a man?

Could it be that he was addicted to his own pet?

"Xiao Nian." He could hardly stand up as Shu Nian was slightly resisting in his arms. The rough towel Xie Yan used to rub his hair away from his face made Shu Nian feel ticklish. Xie Yan unknowingly gently told Shu Nian, "be good, and don't move around."

Shu Nian didn't say anything. He looked calm, as though he was sober, when his mind was actually in a mush. He closed his eyes obediently and let Xie Yan help wipe him with a big towel. The towel moved towards his waist and he became tense. He was restless in Xie Yan's arms as he was [3] caressed lightly. Xie Yan saw Shu Nian close his eyes slightly and his eyeballs began to move rapidly underneath his eyelids. Xie Yan felt his breath begin to quicken.

[T/N: [3] it was actually 'rubbing lightly'.]

Shu Nian's lower abdomen stirred even more violently in the intense heat. Shit. Man is truly a beast to have a reaction like that just from a few light touches.

"Can you walk?"

Shu Nian opened his eyes and looked seriously at Xie Yan, as if he was trying to identify the man in front of him. He was silent for a long time and then whispered skeptically: "Xie Yan?"

"Yes."

"Xie Yan..."

"Yes, it's me." Shu Nian's expression looked like he was about to cry, Xie Yan couldn't resist reaching out his hand and touching Shu Nian's cold face, he then gave him a reassuring smile.

"Xie Yan..." Shu Nian timidly reached out his hands and hugged Xie Yan's neck. He shrank into himself as if he wanted to hide his obviously scrawny body. At least it wasn't that apparent. Maybe the reason why Shu Nian felt the need to hide was because Xie Yan was there. He made him feel helpless and ashamed of his foolish feeling.

Shu Nian looked hesitantly at Xie Yan. Even though they were standing very close to each other, Xie Yan's face looked blurry to Shu Nian's eyes. Shu Nian's body tensed, like he was mustering up all of his courage, and then he suddenly came closer and plastered his lips onto Xie Yan's.

Xie Yan was caught off guard. His head felt like it was being attacked by a hard thing until it finally shattered into pieces with a loud bang, and the impact made him feel dizzy.

When he regained his senses, he discovered that he was completely naked and was hugging Shu Nian; who was pinned him against the bathroom wall. Xie Yan forced his way in between Shu Nian's legs as he firmly held the back of his head to deepen the kiss. He frantically bit Shu Nian's timid tongue.

It was as if he wanted to break Shu Nian into pieces and then swallow him whole.

It had been like that ever since they were young...and the feeling intensified when he bit Shu Nian, pinched his face or bullied him. He released all of his restless feeling by using violence; it was as though all his restlessness could be vented out through his strength.

And it was the same in that moment.

Xie Yan roughly caressed and stroked every part of Shu Nian's body while he sucked fervently. His crotch was blazing with desire that he had suppressed for a very long time. He was unable to restrain himself from rubbing and pressing aggressively against Shu Nian's abdomen that was also blazing with passion.

He felt like his endurance lasted longer than the night itself.

It was as if the smell of alcohol coming from Shu Nian's mouth was wreaking his conscious and it made him crazy.

If Xiao Nian is a woman...I will definitely hold him...

Xie Yan wanted to hold Shu Nian no matter what the consequences were. He wanted to ruthlessly violate and show his possession of Shu Nian. He wanted to pour out his piled up desires that he couldn't vent...until there was nothing left for him to pour inside of Shu Nian's body.

Xie Yan only managed to last for merely a few seconds when he gathered his courage to take advantage of holding Shu Nian, who was drunk because he couldn't hold his liquor. Shu Nian became alarmed and went rigid, as he was pressed against Xie Yan. He was breathless because of Xie Yan's caresses and the vigorous hard desire he felt around his crotch. It made Shu Nian want to shrink into himself instinctively.

"Spread your legs open." Xie Yan bit down on Shu Nian's trembling shoulder, as he tried to pry open Shu Nian's legs, "open them wider."

"..." Shu Nian was still drunk and his mind became hazier after struggling with Xie Yan. He just leaned blankly against the wall and his body swiftly slid down, as he was barely able to support himself. This along with Xie Yan's actions, made Shu Nian's legs spread open slightly.

The slender fingers forcefully groped Shu Nian's crotch, distracting him as Xie Yan roughly stretched his ass. The stimulation he felt made his breath hitch and he clutched tightly around Xie Yan's shoulders.

After that, Shu Nian suddenly felt something probe inside him that made him feel like he was almost splitting in half. It made his whole body tremble in pain: "Don't want!"

Xie Yan really wanted to control a part of Shu Nian that only he could enter. He simply grabbed Shu Nian's waist and entered forcibly, despite the fact that Shu Nian was trembling and resisting him.

Shu Nian's naked body became taut, as if it could break at any moment after Xie Yan had fully entered him. He said hoarsely: "No. It's really hurts. No..."

"Relax. [4] Behave well." The sensation of being tightly surrounded made Xie Yan almost lose control. He had to resort to slapping Shu Nian's ass due to the pain from being clenched tightly, and then he moved passionately, "...loosen up a little."

[T/N: [4] 乖 is usually said to a child (depend on situation) when you want to coax them.]

The pitiful Shu Nian who had being rocked slowly couldn't even produce any sounds. The pain of being torn in half while he was still alive had broken any intoxication that was still left in his system. Although the pain had made his eyes slightly blurry, he was still able to clearly see that the man who was holding him, and who had moved in a rough rhythm was Xie Yan.

Is it...Xie Yan?

He opened his eyes widely in disbelief, and tried to have a better look at the man who was holding him, but the pain was making his eyes hazy.

Xie Yan?

He never dared to imagine...there would be a day that he would be held like this by Xie Yan...

How could this happen? I'm obviously a man...

Perhaps...perhaps...

Shu Nian didn't dare to speculate, as the idea was out of his reach.

It was fine as long as he could be held by Xie Yan...It was good enough.

"Xie Yan." He forced out a strained voice from his dried throat, but Xie Yan didn't hear it.

It's okay. I'm fine with anything.

Shu Nian was so happy...He didn't care about anything else.

Xie Yan was already awake even before he had opened his eyes, and he was very clear-headed.

He could remember all the things that had happened last night, and his mind was in complete chaos because he could remember everything too clearly.

He's had sex with Shu Nian.

It was really awful.

He still didn't understand...the reason why he held Shu Nian. His lust had been provoked at that time, and men were animals when their minds were dominated by the lower part of their bodies. There was no turning back. He did it because he couldn't endure it; there was nothing strange about that, right?

No matter the causes, or what the consequences might be, it was not like he could hide from the truth that lay in front of him. As long as he opened his eyes, he could see - could feel Shu Nian's strained breath that had been close to his face for a while, and he knew Shu Nian had been watching him secretly.

It made him became even more anxious.

Xie Yan may sound like a bastard if he says this, but he really didn't like men.

It was like he had always hated eating a [5] durian, but he was momentarily fascinated and couldn't stop the temptation to have a taste. Did it mean that he would have to stand the durian's foul smell for the rest of his life?

[T/N: [5] 猫山王 Durian is a delicacy (fruit) that usually found in South East Asia. It has a creamy flesh with a very strong smell. It's either you like it or hate it. Refer to the picture below.]

He inwardly held his breath, and then he opened his eyes.

As expected, Shu Nian was really looking at him in bedazzlement and he was slightly taken aback when he saw Xie Yan suddenly "wake up". Shu Nian was quite flustered and shifted his sight hurriedly.

"...Good, Good morning."

"Yes." Xie Yan pulled down the blanket, and sat up. He saw Shu Nian blush and his chaotic mind got even more agitated. He got out of bed and walked out of the bedroom to go to the small bathroom without saying anything, and gathered his clothes that he had thrown yesterday. Although they were slightly wrinkled, he could only wear and straightened them out, and then he went back to the bed.

It would definitely be weird for two naked people to sit together and have a conversation.

"That ..."

"About last night," Xie Yan rushed to speak, "I'm truly sorry."

Shu Nian's expression slightly stiffened. He still couldn't process the thing that was said by Xie Yan and could only reply sluggishly with an "ah" as if he was in a slight trance.

"Last night was just my spur of the moment so you shouldn't think about it that much."

Shu Nian let out another "ah" while he stared blankly at his hands on the blanket.

"You also know that I don't like men."

"...Yes" Shu Nian only stared at his hands. The flush that had covered his face had completely gone and he looked paler than usual.

"It is good if we forget about this thing and assume it never happened. Okay?"

Shu Nian's chest tightened. He coughed for a few moments and then he nodded.

"I'm really sorry that I have hurt you."

"It's okay..." Shu Nian forced out a smile and pulled down the blanket, but he pulled it up again after a while. It was probably because he didn't know what he should do next, "I am going...to wash."

Shu Nian was extremely uncomfortable when he went out from bed and he was obviously limping when he walked. He went into the bathroom and closed the door, and then a gushing sound of water that was unusually loud could be heard.

Xie Yan realized that he had gone wild last night and had tossed Shu Nian around until the middle of the night, as the bed sheet was covered with blood.

Shu Nian bathed for a long time before he finally came out. His slightly red eyes were probably because they were exposed to the hot steam for a very long time.

"Ah. Sorry Xiao Nian, I wanted to stay for two more days, but I just received a call from the company. I should return today as there's an urgent matter waiting for me, I need to go back and handle it personally."

Shu Nian smiled, nodded and thought for a while before he replied: "be careful on the road."

He flashed an understanding smile on his face and it made Xie Yan feel uneasy. Although it sounded very much like an excuse; it was the truth.

"Then, I'll go first."

"En, okay." Xie Yan didn't know whether it was because Shu Nian was exhausted or because of some other reason, but his usually droopy eyes lack any expression and they made his face look blank.

It was as if they had changed back to the untainted master and servant relationship all of a sudden. Shu Nian opened the door for Xie Yan and sent him away even though it was very difficult for him to walk. He dutifully escorted Xie Yan to the road and hitched a taxi. He waited until Xie Yan got into the taxi and then he helped him to close the door like he usually did when they were young.

The taxi moved and Xie Yan couldn't help to look back. He could clearly see the man that stood at the curb through the glass. He was skinny, slightly hunched and his shoulder shrank as if it was because of the cold.

The figure slowly became a black dot and finally it disappeared.

[5] Durian

Anne's Rants:

Yet another translation by my friend has been taken down due to a report! I hope no one will click the damn report button! It might sound funny to you but it is someone's hard work. You have no idea how much time we spent translating every chapters just to make sure everything is translated according to the context. If you have a problem then by all means come and find me instead of clicking the button.

I'm an Aries and my tagline is 'Part time translator. Full time beyotch'... I actually wanted to update days ago but then I saw comments about updating so I don't update. Saw someone mention about updating yet once again but this update is purely to support my fellow translators and to warn any of the clowns that think reporting is fun.

And they said an Aries is horribly honest and spiteful when they're being provoked...

Please note that some part might be incorrect as I don't know how to translate it to English. Mistakes are bound to happen and corrections are very welcome.