CH 5

What does youth mean?

Translated by Valentin

Edited by Valentin

After I exchanged contact information with her, she began to message me frequently, just as I had predicted.

The normally silent phone was vibrating and making noises as if it had gained its own will.

Her conversation was full of chit-chat, including college-related topics. If I do not respond, she would bombard me with messages and persistently call my phone. Too dangerous.

But I don’t feel bad. In middle and high school, I had been in the dark, and I had never gotten in touch with girls my own age in this way, even in private.

Maybe it’s because of this, but I don’t mind dealing with this girl. I’d like to be a tougher guy.

But why is she making such an effort to get involved with me? I asked about it since the story seemed to be a bit connected.

Then I received only one simple sentence from her.

ーーBecause you’re kind and look trustworthy.ーー

“???”

It didn’t make sense to me. First and foremost, she and I have never talked together in the past.

And yet, unless she’s an esper, she’ll never be able to know I’m kind just by looking at me. In my life, I always considered myself as a plain scary person since I had terrible vision and was a shady guy, if I do say so myself.

ーーI’m not sure if I’m kind or not, despite the fact that I’ve never talked about it. What would you do if I were a bad guy?ーー

She simply said one thing after I sent it to her.

ーーThat’s not true. I’m the one who knows that you’re kind.ーー

She’s always been elusive, but I feel the current exchange was her most elusive remark ever.

To be honest, I’m not sure if she’s clever or simply innately twisted. I’m certain she’s not so stupid, given that she’s in the same rigorous department as me.

ーーWell, that thing aside, what do you think about me?ーー

ーーWhat do I think… about you?ーー

ーーLike am I cute? Or you merely see me as a woman in an erotic way.ーー

ーーAnnoying, noisy, and restless.ーー

ーーWill you stop talking like a report card?ーー

I’m curious what kind of reaction this girl will have if I honestly tell her how cute she is or if I wanted to attack her when she asked me these questions in the first place. I should have given it a go.

ーーWell, I could tell from the indirect kiss that you are a virgin.ーー

“You really are a genius at this, you know that?”

Not everyone wishes to remain a virgin. Of course, if possible, I’d like to have at least one sweet memory in high school.

The key element of a man’s life, though, is his communication skills. It’s not the face. Of course, good-looking guys attract more attention from women, but even if you have a bad face, if you are a great talker, they surely will love you. I hate to say it, but a good example would be a not-so-famous guy with a beautiful wife.

Good-looking guys are only popular because they can interact with girls confidently since girls do not look down on them. Even if you are self-conscious about your appearance, make the effort to talk to girls.

Nonetheless, I’m a small fry who has been mired in the shadows, and I’m old enough to be an adult but not old enough to be an adult in other ways. I’m sorry.

ーーI don’t have the heart to play with the opposite sex like you do.ーー

She’s very pretty. I suppose she had been confessed by a number of guys and lived her life having a great time with the guys she liked.

I don’t care how she spends her time; in fact, I don’t care at all. However, if she has a boyfriend presently, I’d like her to consider contacting me.

I don’t want to get into any trouble.

ーーI’ve never played.ーー

I’m not sure if she’s concerned about me or not, but she always denies these things vehemently. It’s much more difficult when she worries about me. But if she assures me that she’s playing with a lot of guys, I’m probably going to feel kind of hazy. This is a difficult topic for a virgin to grasp.

ーーI mean, girls like you, who declare aloud that they’ve spent a lot of nights out with their boyfriends and friends when they are usually around strangers? Isn’t that how everyone is?ーー

ーーD-do I still look like that side of you?ーー

ーーMn-hmm… I suppose we’re on the same page when it comes to dazzling.ーー

I wish this annoying but cute girl was my girlfriend. That would be a great college life.

Healing comes from a life of simply suffering through study. There are people that just by being there make me happy.

I wonder how much colour that would alone bring to my life.

I understood the idea of making friends since I had done everything on my own my whole life, but I couldn’t grasp everyone’s eagerness to find a girlfriend.

But I think I can understand a bit more now as my life is getting more and more normal with her next to me, irritating me and making me laugh.

Besides, there aren’t many restrictions as a college student. In general, I am in a position to be classified as an adult. Even love might be attractive in many, many more ways.ーー

ーーHow’s that? I’m such a dazzling and attractive person to you poor virgins!ーー

ーーYeah, I’m glad. Thanks for everything.ーー

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to have a relationship with her. But I think I’m now seeing how much having her as a friend next to me is helping me right now.

When I thought about it, I couldn’t help but be grateful.

ーーW-what’s wrong? It’s not like you, is it?ーー

She, too, had not expected this response.

ーーI look forward to working with you.ーー

ーーYes!ーー

She gave me a vigorous reply. She should do that more often, it makes her look even prettier.

But then I received another message from her.

ーーAh, I don’t want to sleep in the morning from now on, so make sure you give me a hearty wake-up love call.ーー

“Are you serious…”

I sent it several times saying I didn’t want to, but it never got read.

She had apparently gotten the better of me yet again. It looks like I will have to call her every morning starting tomorrow.

I wonder how long it would take her to get ready in the morning. What time should I wake her up?

Today too I got pushed around by her for the better part of the day.