Chapter 33

Edited by Ahzinal, genesis & Erin

Wheeeee! Jumping down another pit!!! Thank you shoko for doing such a wonderful job on the previous chapters!!! – Dandan

Ad naturally did not acknowledge this and calmly spoke without missing a beat: “You are both my distinguished guests.”

Chu Xun understood the way he handled this. If it were him, he would also not easily admit it.

Chu Xun didn’t need Ad to absolutely admit it. He did not comment, just slightly smiled and whispered, “I don’t fit well with him, do I?”

Ad frowned imperceptibly, glanced at Chu Xun and said, “You are a gentleman.”

He couldn’t help but also add: “I haven’t seen him be so happy for a while.”

After saying this, he immediately felt that he had said too much and tightly closed his lips as if he were wearing a mask.

Chu Xun didn’t mind, saying, “I saw with one glance that you are a tight-lipped man. That’s why I came to find you.”

“I’ve booked a ticket to go back at 6:00 a.m. on the 1st. Can you arrange for a car to take me to the airport?”

Ad nodded, “Okay, sir, the chauffeur will see you to the airport on time.”

Chu Xun corrected him, “It’s not ‘us’, it’s just ‘me’. I’m the only one who is going back. He doesn’t know. Don’t tell him.”

Ad finally directly looked at Chu Xun, and their gazes met. Chu Xun saw a lot of doubt deep in his eyes. He obviously couldn’t understand what Chu Xun was doing. He had changed his mind over and over again. He had just come back a few days ago, and now he wanted to leave again. And he was also keeping it from Lin Yanchen. It was reasonable to say that he definitely must tell the young master.

Chu Xun: “No matter how I leave, you will know, so I told you.”

Ad was silent for a moment before he asked, “Why? He likes you very much. …this is the first time I’ve seen him like someone this much. “

Chu Xun looked into his eyes calmly and seriously, and said softly, “I should have left the last time I went to the airport, but I acted impulsively on emotions. I need to leave him. I don’t want to make him too sad.”

Ad responded: “He’ll only be sad if you leave him.”

Chu Xun shook his head slightly and said, “I’ll be dead soon.”

Ad: “…”

This was thrown out too casually.

Chu Xun seemed as if he were talking about some other person’s affairs: “More than a month ago, I was diagnosed with a terminal illness. I only have a few months left to live. I didn’t choose to receive treatment, so now the time I have left may be shorter… I feel my illness flaring up, there is no way to continue keeping it a secret. “

Chu Xun smiled.

“Doesn’t it sound ridiculous? But I’m really not lying. I know his mother died of illness when he was a child. He looked on helplessly as she died. I can’t let him experience that pain again.I’ll do my best to not make things difficult for you. I’ll leave a letter for him explaining everything”

Ad wanted to say something, but he hesitated and finally said: “I’m very sorry for that sir… there will be someone to send you to the airport tomorrow morning. “

Chu Xun gave a restrained smile. “Thank you.”

When Chu Xun returned to the kitchen, Lin Yanchen was still struggling to knead the dough. He asked, “Is it ok like this?”

Chu Xun guided him: “You have to knead it until it becomes a ball with a shiny surface.”

They rolled out the dumpling wrappers, mixed together a corn and fragrant meat stuffing, then sat together to make dumplings. Lin Yanchen was making dumplings for the first time in his life. He was good at sports, but not as good at such meticulous work. Chu Xun taught him step by step how to wrap the dumplings multiple times, but his still ended up misshapen.

Chu Xun truly thought it bewildering: “Are you intentionally making them like that? Or is this your way of flirting? Wanting me to teach a few extra times? “

Lin Yanchen didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. He said honestly, “I really can’t learn it well. My hands are stupid.”

But Chu Xun also didn’t let him stop making them. He made him wrap them and fill two large rectangular fresh-keeping boxes. He wrapped and wrapped, and they slowly began to take shape. The two people chatted while making the dumplings.

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Chu Xun had heard about his father’s history of struggle since he was young. He used to adore his father very much, being able to fight his way up from poverty. Later, he thought that his father might not have received much attention from his parents as a child; so he was not good at caring for his children. Because of the environment his father grew up in, it was understandable that he wouldn’t be able to accept the fact that his son liked men, but Chu Xun would still feel sad.

Lin Yanchen wanted to respond to his words and continue the topic of “dads”, but he wracked his brain and found that he didn’t seem to understand what a dad was at all.

Chu Xun asked him, “What would your father do if he knew you were together with a man?”

Lin Yanchen was stunned, then he was immediately ecstatic: “Would you like to meet my father with me? OK,I’ll let him know. He shouldn’t do much. “

Lin Yanchen recalled his memories and said: “When I was in high school… He once randomly asked me if I was gay, thinking that I was dating a friend in the same band as me. He also said that even if I was, he would be able to accept it. I don’t know what flights of fancy he has been entertaining, perhaps thinking that, from morning to night, I’m always just messing around. “

“However, whoever I date has nothing to do with him. I don’t have to inform him of everything, right?”

Chu Xun smiled and sighed regretfully: ” I was thinking that perhaps your father is actually quite a good person. You should have a good chat with him when you are free. “

Lin Yanchen curled his lip and unhesitatingly refused. “No, he’s not good at all. He even wants to restrict my hairstyle. He also only said that because he wanted to manage me. “

Chu Xun didn’t press him further. Let nature take its course. Lin Yanchen still had a long life.. Sooner or later, he would find out who was truly good to him.

They boiled the dumplings to eat.

The difference between the dumplings Chu Xun and Lin Yanchen wrapped was as clear as day and night. You could see whose were better at a glance.

Lin Yanchen said, “The dumplings I made fell apart as soon as they were boiled. You made them strong and good-looking. How did you wrap it so well? “

Chu Xun said, “I like making dumplings. I make them frequently… When I’m in a bad mood, I’ll chop up some stuffing and wrap my bad mood into the dumplings.”

He picked up a dumpling and smilingly fed it to Lin Yanchen’s mouth. Lin Yanchen opened his mouth obediently, “nom”, and ate it up. His cheeks were full as he chewed, and he vaguely said “Delishish (delicious).”

Chu Xun said with a smile, “Then you eat up the bad mood in one mouthful, and only the good mood will be left.”

When they had eaten and drunk enough, Chu Xun secretly went to Ad and said, “Xiao Lin made several boxes of dumplings; send a box of the dumplings made by Xiao Lin to his father, and tell him it is a New Year gift. There isn’t much more I can do for him.”

Ad promised, “Ok… Thank you.”

The two idle people finished their meals and had nothing to do, so they played games.

Lin Yanchen was in bad form today. He had been defeated in battle many times. Chu Xun asked him, “What’s the matter?”

Lin Yanchen put down the game controller and said in a muffled voice, “I actually don’t want it to be like this.”

Chu Xun was confused: “Don’t want it to be like what?”

Lin Yanchen said ambiguously, “I want to ask you about something. I actually wanted to ask yesterday, but, once I actually tried to, I felt like I had a narrow mind.”

Chu Xun moved his head back and leaned on Lin Yanchen’s shoulder: “Say it and let’s see.”

Lin Yanchen said in a low, muffled voice: “You’re always looking at Ad and talking to him alone. Do you think he is very handsome? But he’s not as young as I am, right?”

Chu Xun was stunned. He smiled and pinched his cheek: “What does it have to do with being young? Why are you so cute? “

Lin Yanchen said, “Don’t just not answer me.”

Chu Xun had to respond earnestly, “All right, I do think Ad is very handsome.” There was no need for him to lie.

Lin Yanchen almost exploded.

Chu Xun added: “This is the first time I have seen such a handsome butler in my life, and his clothes are also very nice. When I first saw him, I thought…”

Lin Yanchen, holding his breath, asked sourly, “Thought what? He doesn’t provide that kind of service.”

Lin Yanchen was extremely regretful. If he had known earlier, he wouldn’t have brought Chu Xun here. He was fully aware of the fact that Chu Xun was fond of good looks.

Chu Xun was shameless and said exasperatingly slowly, “I was thinking that if you wore that kind of suit, you would definitely be more handsome than him.”

Lin Yanchen: “…!”

Lin Yanchen went out right after taking a bath. Chu Xun put on his pajamas and sat on the armchair, waiting.

After a while, Lin Yanchen stealthily came back. He not only wore the butler’s clothes, but also used some hair pomade, changing his hairstyle to a 4-6 part, looking like a model.

On the small round table beside Chu Xun was a colored glass lamp. It emitted a soft lemon colored glow, shining onto him.

He didn’t know if it was his shyness from changing into a servant’s clothes, or if Chu Xun’s temperament today was somewhat different, but it was even more alluring than usual. Lin Yanchen felt his cheeks burning hot.

Lin Yanchen came in front of him and bowed, bending his head: “Beloved Master, w-what orders do you have for me?”

Chu Xun performed better than him and calmly said, “Are you new here? Still stuttering when speaking. This can’t do. If you don’t make progress, then I won’t be able to let you stay. “

Lin Yanchen half knelt down and looked up, like a big golden retriever sitting down: “Sorry, Master, I will definitely correct it; please give me a chance.”

Chu Xun reached for his chin and said, “Then let’s do this. Tonight, if you can please me, I’ll forgive you.”

From this angle, Lin Yanchen could see the lines from Chu Xun’s lower jaw to his neck and shoulders, which was particularly beautiful. The neckline of his pajamas was loose, showing a bit of his collarbone. His hair had not been blow dried, and there were droplets of water on the ends of his jet-black hair, sliding from his sideburns onto his neck, then falling onto his collarbone.

Lin Yanchen’s mouth became dry.

Chu Xun took off his glasses, and his dark hair, soaked with moisture, was pulled by the glasses’ arms. It made his skin seem as white as jade, with light shining on it.

Chu Xun said softly, “come here.”

Chu Xun’s face was scarlet, both eyes filled with tears. He did not know whether he was crying or laughing. He stretched out his hands: “Xiao Lin, hold me.”

Lin Yanchen leaned over and hugged him.

Chu Xun buried his face into his shoulder and hugged him tightly, as if this moment would last forever.

After they finished, they still held each other. Chu Xun was still trembling and softly sobbing. Lin Yanchen stroked his back: “Ah Xun, did I hurt you?”

After Chu Xun calmed down, he said, “I still want to hear you sing for me.”

When a man was in bed, he could promise to do anything. Lin Yanchen was naturally also like this. “What do you want to hear?”

Chu Xun said, “Sing ‘Scarborough Fair’ for me.”

Before Sarah Brightman sang the female version of the song, it was an unknown English folk song. The most famous version should be the version adapted by Paul Simon. In the year of its release, it sold even more than the Beatles in the peak of their career. It was a song about a downcast and rough young man with lingering distress.

Chu Xun requested, “Change the ‘she’ to a ‘he’.”

Lin Yanchen slightly changed the lyrics, hugging him and softly singing to him:

“Are you going to Scarborough Fair?

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Remember me to one who lives there

He once was a true love of mine…”

This song is about a young soldier on the front lines thinking of his lover in their hometown, featuring parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme. These herbs represented kindness, strength, gentleness and courage, but they were also used to withstand the God of Death in ancient times.

“Tell him to make me a cambric shirt

without no seams nor needlework

……

Tell him to find me an acre of land

Between the sea foam and over the sand

……

Tell him to reap it with a sickle of leather

And gather it all in a bunch of heather”

Chu Xun listened quietly. The soldier asked his lover to do three impossible things. The lyrics seemed to completely lack logic. Some people said that in fact, the lyrics implied that the soldier had long already died in the war, or that his lover had died of illness in his hometown, which was why the stanza chanting about herbs related to death was repeated. Because he was dead, he was implicitly praying to the God of Death.

Lin Yanchen finished singing and asked Chu Xun, “Do you want me to sing it again?”

Chu Xun sighed silently and said, “It’s enough.”

Lin Yanchen asked, “Why did you suddenly want to listen to this song?” He felt that it was quite weird to sing this song now.

“I just wanted to hear it, there’s not really any reason.” Chu Xun said, “The man in this song was really unreasonable.”

Lin Yanchen said, “When falling in love, you will do unreasonable things.”

Chu Xun smiled, “Then I’ll also be unreasonable. Right now I want to drink fresh apple juice, add some honey. I want you to make it for me yourself.”

Lin Yanchen didn’t ask him why he thought about making apple juice in the middle of the night. He kissed his face. “OK, I’ll extract it for you.”

The house was too big. Lin Yanchen extracted a glass of apple juice. Immediately after he brought it back, Chu Xun said, “Now I’d like to drink orange juice instead. Let’s get another cup of juice, ba.”

Lin Yanchen was not annoyed and ran all the way to squeeze a glass of orange juice himself. Of course, he didn’t wash the juicer and cutting tools on the chopping board, and carried the orange juice back.

Chu Xun was satisfied this time, and said, “Extracting the apple juice and not drinking it, how wasteful. You drink it.”

Lin Yanchen had exercised, sang songs and run up and down, so he was a little thirsty. There was also only about half a cup of the extracted apple juice. He drank it all in a few mouthfuls and said, “Apples oxidize too easily. Unexpectedly it is a little bitter. I should add some lemon.”

Chu Xun praised him: “You unexpectedly know such a trick?”

Lin Yanchen said, “I studied in a boy’s boarding school. I can take care of myself relatively well, but I can’t cook.”

Chu Xun said, “Very good, very good… all right, let’s wash up and go to bed. “

Lin Yanchen went to change into his pajamas and wiped his face. Soon after he lay onto the bed, he began to feel sleepy and yawned, “Turn off the light; let’s sleep.”

Chu Xun turned off the light. Moonlight filtered through the gauze covering the window. It shone gently onto their bodies.

Lin Yanchen had already fallen asleep. Chu Xun had put two sleeping pills in his apple juice. That way, he could sleep way into the morning.

Chu Xun held Lin Yanchen in his arms and lowered his head. He put his face to Lin Yanchen’s forehead, and began to sing in a low voice. His singing was not pleasant to listen to at all:

“Are you going to Scarborough Fair?

Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme

Remember me to one who lives there

He once was a true love of mine…”

“He once was a true love of mine……”

Notes:

CX is so sad bc he has to leave Lin Yanchen ‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )‧º·˚

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