Chapter 14 - Don't touch me, disgusting

The sun shined through the window onto Tan Tao’s body as he awoke, the warm early morning sunlight alighting onto one’s body just right.

The man on the bed had yet to open his eyes, lips slowly curling into a satisfied smile as the fragrant smell of food gently entered his nose.

He blinked open his eyes, lazily stretching his body before getting up, and as expected, he saw the youth in the kitchen, wearing an apron, busying around.

At hearing the sounds from behind him, Xie Mu turned around, directing a smile at him.

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“Hurry and wash up; it’s almost time to eat.”

The two acted as if they had already lived a lifetime together, tranquil and sweet.

After he finished washing up, the table was already laden with dishes.

All of them were ones that Tan Tao enjoyed.

“Last time, did you not tell me that you didn’t like bitter melon anymore? Today I didn’t make any.”

Xie Mu pulled out a chair before sitting down, eyes curving as he watched the man smile.

His eyes were full of unadulterated tender feelings, as well as the joy of spending time together with his lover.

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Tan Tao spoke, “In a little bit after breakfast, we can go together to see the doctor.”

The brightness in the youth’s pupils slowly faded, the fingertips of his right-hand whitening as they gripped his chopsticks.

Did he want to leave him that much?

He tried hard to maintain his smile as his body turned cold.

Tan Tao noticed the slight paling of Xie Mu’s face, worriedly setting down his chopsticks. He reached out a hand to test the temperature of his lover’s forehead, his warm voice gently probing, “Not feeling well?”

“No.”

The youth smiled, eyes looking expectantly towards the man, “Let’s go out to play today, how about it?”

His eyes were very pretty, round with bright pupils, similar to those of a child’s. They contained the entire starlit sky, under which lay all the love he held for Tan Tao.

Tan Tao did not think too much of it. He hesitated a little, wanting his lover to recover his memories as soon as possible.

Currently, his matters on hand were a mess, potentially able to crash at any moment. If Xiao Mu returned, he surely would be able to sort clear those matters.

When he had been Bo Qin’s secretary back then, was it not like so?

The youth saw his lover’s hesitation.

He had always been very obedient from the time he had woken up at the hospital until now. He was like a beautiful doll without a temper.

He loved Tan Tao and went along with all his desires, unable to bear rejecting his requests.

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But, right now, he wanted to be selfish just this once.

“Today, I don’t want to go to the hospital. Can you accompany me out for a day?” Xie Mu stretched out his hand, placing his ice-cold fingers carefully onto the back of the man’s hand, eyes almost pleading.

Tan Tao didn’t understand why he had to go out today, but seeing the youth’s cautious expression, his heart softened, and he agreed.

“Alright, let’s go out for the day.”

The youth grinned giddily.

Although he smiled, his eyes still contained a tinge of sorrow, but he covered it up by lowering his head to take a bite of food.

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The whole while, Xie Mu was smiling happily.

He really was like a child; he liked the merry-go-round, only young children liked; he liked the Ferris wheel and the roller coaster.

Tan Tao watched as he screamed from fright, time and time again while maintaining his face full of smiles.

Finally, the two sat together on a horse, feeling the slow movements of the machines as gentle music played in their ears. Xie Mu turned his head around from the front, looking back towards the man holding his waist from behind.

At that moment, the sky was already a little dark, and as if they were in a dream, the amusement park shined bright blinking lights onto the two people’s faces.

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“This is my first time riding a carousel.”

The carousel horse undulated forward in up and downward movements, the youth sitting slightly sideways from start to finish. He met Tan Tao’s gaze, smiling as he spoke, “My first time riding a Ferris wheel, first time eating cotton candy, first time coming to an amusement park.”

“Tan Tao, thank you.”

“Silly, we’re lovers, what’s there to thank.”

The man’s gently voice started beside his ear. Xie Mu’s eyes looked up brightly at him, and like a child asking for candy, he asked, “Will you forget me?”

“What?”

A gaggle of kids passed by laughing and shouting, just happening to cover up the youth’s voice. The man only saw the shape of his house, unable to hear what he said clearly.

“I said!!”

Xie Mu shouted loudly, “I really like you!”

Tan Tao smiled, satisfaction appearing in his eyes as he sidled up to the youth’s ear before replying lowly, “Me too.”

The person being hugged by him turned his head back around, and while he smiled, his eyes reddened slightly.

He really, really liked this person, ah.

These days were originally stolen, he should be content.

These few days were originally stolen anyway; he should know to be content.

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By chance underneath the swaying lights, Tan Tao saw a glimpse of the youth’s reddened, and suddenly, doubts flashed in his heart. But just as he was about to ask, the merry-go-round stopped.

Xie Mu didn’t move, staying with his back to his lover, “I want to play one more time.”

At hearing his normal tone of voice, the man dotingly smiled, holding onto him tightly, “Alright, we’ll listen to our family’s little darling.”

The two played until nine something at night. By that time, almost all of the city’s lights were on. The city was as always, ablaze with lights amidst the shadows.

Tan Tao disregarded the eyes of strangers, openly holding onto the youth’s hand next to him. His emotions stayed cheerful, “Darling, after a while, let’s come back again to play.”

Before he had thought couples going to amusement parks for children was a waste of time. But after playing the whole day that day, he could only say that he had not been open-minded enough.

Xie Mu’s expression shuttered as he subconsciously tightened his hold on the man’s hand, “Tan Tao, I…”

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Tan Tao’s phone rang.

He picked up the call.

The youth continued to stare fixedly at his facial expression, watching as his lover went from hesitant to pleasantly surprised while talking on the phone, “Really? Right now? Alright, I’ll bring the person immediately.”

Clearly, he knew nothing of what was being said on the other side of the phone, but he still felt a foreign unease crawling up from deep within his heart.

Tan Tao hung up the phone call, cheerfully telling Xie Mu, “I have a friend who helped us book an appoint with a very exclusive hypnotist. Let’s go.”

The pallor of the youth’s face was very poor, but in the glow of the night lights, it was beautifully concealed.

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“I, I’m really tired today. Let’s go tomorrow, ba…”

He was subconsciously trying to evade it; however, he was cut off by the laugh of his lover, “No worries, we can drive over there.”

“Tan Tao, I don’t want to go. Right now is already very late…”

The man’s eyes were uncertain, but as he watched Xie Mu, he warmly, albeit firmly made his decision, “Darling, don’t be afraid. It’s only hypnosis. It’ll be very fast.”

“After you’ve recovered your memories, we’ll come back here again, alright?”

His eyes were full of anticipation for the future, as well as happiness from his lover potentially being able to recover his memories. Xie Mu dazedly looked at such a Tan Tao before slowly nodding his head.

His voice spoke softly, “Buy another cotton candy for me, ba.”

The two stood in front of the vendor’s stall, watching as the big, round stick of cotton candy was made. Tan Tao took it before handing it off to the youth’s hand.

He spoke dotingly to his lover, “Eat, ba.”

Xie Mu did not actually eat the stick of fluffy cotton candy, instead, holding it in his hand the whole way there as if it were a precious treasure.

Soon, the car stopped underneath a tall skyscraper.

The two entered the doctor’s office, said to be very renowned in its field.

“It’s scheduled for hypnosis, correct?”

The middle-aged doctor spoke, “I’ve already roughly analyzed the situation. Excuse me, are you a member of Mr. Xie’s household register? Before the hypnosis, you need to sign the consent form.”

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“Does it have to be someone on his household register?”

Tan Tao was a little hesitant. Why did he need to sign a consent form for just some hypnosis?

“Yes, it has to be signed by a relative. Of course, it could also be signed by the patient.”

Xie Mu’s left hand held the cotton candy as his eyes landed on the document sitting on the table. He spoke softly, “I’ll sign it by myself.”

After signing his name, it was time to accept treatment.

The doctor entered the treatment room, after which, Xie Mu should’ve followed him immediately. But upon seeing the open door, the youth’s eyes were slowly colored with fear.

“What’s wrong?”

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The man beside him gently asked.

It was this gentle tone that caused Xie Mu to suddenly be unable to stop himself from grabbing onto his wrist. His eyes reddened as tears rolled in the rims of his eyes. He raised his head to look beseechingly at his lover, “Tan Tao, I’m so scared…”

Only thinking that was afraid of pain, the man good-naturedly poked the tip of his nose, “Don’t be scared. You’re only going to sleep for a while, and when you wake up, I’ll bring you home.”

“I keep having this feeling that if I remember everything, I won’t be me anymore…” His consolations did not soothe Xie Mu as quickly as before; he firmly gripped his lover’s hand, eyes full of panic.

“I’ll disappear…”

“Silly.”

Tan Tao smiled at the youth’s naivete.

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“You’re only recovering the memories from before; how could you disappear, ne? We promised that, after your memories are recovered, we’ll work hard together. Alright?”

“Be good. It was very difficult to make an appointment with this doctor. Right now, I’m no longer who I was before, so if we miss this chance, we’ll have to wait a long time before another one. Go on quickly, ba.”

The youth blankly watched the man gently wipe off his tears with red eyes, slowly letting go of his hand in despair.

“Here.” He handed off the slightly shrunken cotton candy that he had carried the whole way to his lover.

His voice carried a slight sobbing intonation as he spoke, “Help me hold this. Wait until I come out before eating it, okay?”

“Okay, now quickly go in to get treated. So good, my Xiao Mu.”

Tan Tao dotingly received the cotton candy, dipping his head slightly to place a warm kiss onto Xie Mu’s forehead.

The youth said, “Don’t call me that.”

And so, he spoke anew, “Be good, dear. You’re my little darling. Now go in quickly, ba.”

“I’ll wait for you to come out.”

He smiled as he spoke, going along with the youth’s unusual stubbornness.

19-year-old Xie Mu truly was very sticky, demanding that he only call him darling, but, well, Tan Tao also quite enjoyed doing so.

He sat on the long couch outside, waiting, and watching as the cotton candy in his hand slowly shriveled up. He thought helplessly that when his little lover came out, he would surely be very disappointed at seeing the state of the cotton candy.

At that time, he would bring the person into his embrace and take his little darling to buy a new stick.

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After who knows how long and the cotton candy had shriveled into a tiny lump, the door opened.

The handsome youth slowly walked out, movements sluggish and his expression slightly confused.

Tan Tao did not notice these little details as he went up to welcome him, full of surprise and expectation. Noticing that his lover’s hair was slightly scattered, one hand went up to help brush it as he spoke up smiling, “The cotton candy already melted; I’ll buy you a new…”

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The cotton candy landed on the ground, the sugar water sticking onto the floor.

The youth shook his hand, hitting aside it heavily.

The man subconsciously looked towards his lover, confused and bewildered, “Darling?”

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Xie Mu’s expression was frigid, and in that pair of beautiful round eyes, remained only layers of disgust for him, all affection gone.

“Don’t touch me, disgusting.”

Author’s Note:

Lalala, little 19 is offline, la!

Translator’s Note:

Hey guys, so I’m hoping to get a co-translator to help me take some of the load off and keep a more regular schedule for now. We’ll see how it goes!

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