39-I can't look at you because I'm embarassed

After tea, Couge needed to go home with Norn to prepare for work tomorrow. My head was filled with thoughts from our conversation, and we went down to the room on the first floor together.

Couge was worried about me being able to walk steadily, so he carried me down the staircase like I was a baby, however, Couge was different from Krish-san. Everytime I shook, I screamed, "Hyaa!" in a pathetic voice.

In my original world, girls would happily say that Couge has a soft macho look, but, sure enough, the thickness of his muscles cannot compare to Krish-san who is a knight.

I'm used to the firm stability of Krish-san's hug, so even a tiny bit of shaking is frightening.

"It will be okay, I won't drop you."

"Yeah, I know. I know, but HYAAAAA!"

My screams continued until Couge finished going down the stairs.

Norn said, "You two both look like you had fun." with a big grin on his face. Wrong! I wasn't screaming because I was having fun, it was because I was really scared!

Because there are no curtains in my house you can easily see the interior from the outside. There aren't any houses nearby, so that's fine right? That's what I thought so I didn't put any curtains up.

Since I was screaming, "KYAAA, KYAAA" when being carried down the stairs, one of the knights working outside was able to see us and spoke to us from the windows.

"Huh, are your friends already going home?"

I can't see his face because he is wearing armor, but I could recognize his voice as the knight who rolled the pumpkin.

Couge replied, "Yeah, we're leaving because I have to prepare for tomorrow."

"I'm seeing them off. Couge gave me a lot of baked goods. I'll share them with all the knights. Later, let's eat them together."

"Wow, thank you! I have a sweet tooth."

The knight pushed up his helmet with a crash and took in the scent of the baked goods with a delighted face. So the face of the helmet was moveable? That surprised me, for a moment, I thought the helmet was broken.

"Shinobu-san's friend's restaurant is the one with the daily set meal right? Because there's always a line I haven't been able to eat there yet. If I waited in line, I'd be late for work. Man, I'd really like to try eating there at least once. Do you take reservations?"

"No, because doing that would be unfair to the other customers. But, recently I started selling takeaway sandwiches that you can buy without waiting in line."

Norn added, "Couge also makes the filling for the fried bread at the bakery next door. If you like it, please try that too."

"Hmm, thanks for letting me know. I'll try it next time!"

Norn and Couge took the opportunity to advertise their store and bakery next food to the friendly young knight before leaving for home.

Once they left, I thought to myself, 'Okay, let's do it,' and 'I've got a bit of fighting spirit, let's do it.'

The pumpkin knight asked, "Shinobu-san, would you like me to help you back to your room?"

"No," I replied, "I'm a little constipated so I'm going to the bathroom."

It's fine right?! It's not suspicious at all, right?!

My plan is to tell people that I'm constipated because I'm too embarrassed if they find out what I'm really doing. My thinking is that even if it takes a while, they won't worry with this excuse.

"Ah, that's tough. Please do your best. But don't be too enthusiastic or you might hurt yourself."

"Yea-yeah, I'll be careful."

With the knight's support, I headed for the bathroom with determination.

In this world, the toilet was a dug hole, covered with sawdust, and maybe a bottomless jar? Or maybe is it a bowl? And then you just sit on it like a normal toilet seat to do your business.

There isn't any toilet paper, so I use leaves to wipe my butt as a substitute. When I used the toilet for the first time, I thought that the leaves might get crumbly when I wiped my butt, but these leaves become very soft when you use them. It's a natural material, so it's very eco-friendly.

I sat down on the toilet seat with the lid placed down to prevent the smell from coming up, made sure that the knights were not nearby, and pulled down my pants.

I'm about to do something a little embarrassing.

Norn and Couge told me that I might be in love with Krish-san, which would explain the changes in my body, but it's also possible that I'm just frustrated.

I thought that if I tried to rub it out, the tingling sensation would go away.

I squeezed on my manhood for the first time in a while, and got a slight reaction. Maybe it's because I'm worried about the voices of the knights in the distance, but I don't think the reaction is very good.

I have to finish quickly and get back to my room before Krish-san comes back.

Impatiently, I tried to picture a picture of a girl in a bathing suit, but somehow, the response was still not good. Maybe it's because I'm not in my best state? But, why was it that I was in good spirits when Krish-san applied the medicine to me?

As soon as I imagined Krish's hand sliding from my shoulder, between my shoulder blades, to my hip, I got hard.

Wrong, wrong. I have to imagine a girl.

The most erotic picture I had ever seen was of a girl in a short-cut white bathing suit with her legs spread and her head tilted back.

She was a very cute girl and was in a magazine I was reading with my classmates. My friend said excitedly, "If you looked from the side you would be able to see everything!" and then he yelled, "If only I had clairvoyant powers!" All the girls in our class looked in our direction and frowned in disapproval.

I'm feeling a little down because I remembered something I shouldn't have. No, no, no. I have to concentrate. If I don't hurry, Krish-san will be back.

As I was rubbing and rubbing, I was almost there, but due to my lack of imagination, I couldn't cross the final line with a decisive move.

I licked my lips, caught my breath and thought that the girl in my imagination, who had often taken care of me when I was in my original world, should try a little harder.

I have to keep my voice down. I don't want anyone to know that I'm doing this. I'm afraid the young knights will hear me, and if Krish hears me, he'll resent me.

Just a little bit more, I was so engrossed in rubbing that I didn't notice the sound of approaching footsteps.

Knock knock.

"Shinobu, are you okay?"

"—————!!!"

As soon as I heard his voice, I exploded. Even though I wasn't able to cum even when I was desperate, but now, it was as if that was a lie.

It felt so good that my mind went blank, and it was a miracle I didn't make a noise.

I didn't have time to catch it with the toilet paper leaf I was holding in my left hand, and the semen splattered all over my thighs. I was relieved that I had my pants down to my knees so I didn't get them dirty.

As I squeezed the twitching part of my body, and tried to hold back the sound of my voice that threatened to leak out through the crack of my mouth if I wasn't careful, the door to the bathroom was knocked once more.

"Shinobu?"

He called my name, and I responded by leaking semen from the tip of my cock. My right hand was slick with semen all the way down to my fingers, and when I spread them apart, I heard a slurping sound.

"K-Krish-san, welcome home. You got home early."

"What's wrong? Does your stomach hurt?"

"No, I'm fine. Ummm, you know, it's hard to concentrate when you're so close..."

"Oh, my bad. Call me if you need anything."

Krish, who had obviously heard from the young knight that I was constipated and holed up in the bathroom, quickly left my side.

I let out a sigh of relief that there was no longer anybody nearby, and looked down at my still twitching cock.

Oh my god, what should I do? Just as I was about to cover my face with my hands, I remembered that I had semen on my hands and hurriedly pulled them away.

I, I... I think I've really fallen in love with Krish-san. As Norn had said, in a special way.

When he called my name, I imagined Krish-san hugging me and gently stroking my dick.

I had only a dull reaction when I imagined the girls in their bathing suits, but as soon as I thought of Krish-san's hand stroking my dick just once, I exploded.

The reason why I was happy to see him, the reason why I wanted to touch his warm hand, the reason why I felt sad when I saw him with Annette, it was all because I loved Krish-san.

"I feel like it would have been better if I hadn't noticed..." I thought to myself.

When I thought about how Krish-san was going to get married, I was longing for him and felt like, "I'm lonely because I can't be the one who will take care of him."

I wonder if I will be able to smile and say, "Congratulations!" I wonder if I will even be able to say, "Congratulations!" at all.

I let out a big sigh of sadness as I cleaned up the mess using several leaves as toilet paper.

I washed my hands, opened the small window to get rid of the smell, and left the bathroom with an unsettled feeling.

"Shinobu, will you drink too?"

"Yes please."

In a room on the first floor, Krish-san, who had already taken off his armor, was making tea.

What is this? I'm embarrassed to look at him. This is because I've realized that I like him, but even though it was a spur of the moment thing, I feel guilty for doing something so outrageous while imagining Krish-san's hands.

When I turned my gaze away to hide my reddened face, I saw something unfamiliar.

"Krish-san, what's this?"

There was a large sofa by the window that hadn't been there when I saw Norn and the others off, with soft cushions spread out on it.

It was big enough for me to stretch out my arms and legs and sleep.

"I brought something from home. You said the other day that you couldn't see out of your bed in the upstairs bedroom, right? Starting tomorrow, you can spend the day here."

He seemed to have taken the trouble to adjust the height of the cushion to match the height of the window. I don't remember seeing the blanket folded up on the back of the sofa, so I guess Krish-san prepared it for me.

I felt ashamed of what I had said and done two days ago. Even though it was about my body, I can't believe I was pouting and saying that I wanted to go outside and that I was bored.

I was just being selfish because Krish-san was being nice to me. And yet, Krish-san was listening to me and took the trouble to prepare a sofa for me.

I couldn't help it, could I? He's such a nice guy. Love between men was out of the realm of my common sense, but I still fell in love with him, which meant he was amazing.

It doesn't matter if it's the opposite sex or the same sex, I fell in love with him because he's Krish-san.

(There is no way that people around me would leave someone like Krish-san alone.)

It's natural that such a person already has a lover because there is no way that the people around him could leave such a nice person alone.

It should have been sad for me to realize that I was going to lose my love and be broken hearted, but now my mind was so clear that it was like a lie that I had been so depressed just a moment ago.

"Thank you, Krish-san, for always being so kind to me."

As a beginner in love, it was all I could do to express my gratitude. I can't make a passionate appeal to him, and even if I could, I don't intend to do so because I don't want to cause any more trouble to Krish-san who has a girlfriend.

I want to give him the best I can so that he can at least know that I appreciate him and that I'm glad to have met him.

Norn said that it would be a pity for my heart if I didn't acknowledge my feelings. That's right, I have to admit it.

I'm ashamed to admit it, but I've been alive for 19 years and this is my first love.

I moved to this world at the age of 18, and as I spent my days in this new world, I grew older.

I've grown up, experienced my first love, and I'm going to live in this world.

Krish-san said, "You're welcome."

My heart skipped a beat as Krish-san lifted the edge of his lips in a small smile. I said to myself, "Yeah, yeah, I know. He's really cool. Let's cherish these newborn feelings."

But the more I realized I was in love, the more embarrassed I felt. The moment my eyes met Krish-san's, I was so embarrassed that I covered my face with my hands.

"Shinobu, what's wrong?

"......... Nothing."

It was hard to look at him because Krish-san looked even better looking than before. I'm so embarrassed, I can't even look at him.

Translator: FrankenWife