6. 6

I lay in my bed. That was it. I tried to forget all the pain I felt when I saw him with her. Not only was he with her but kissing her! Of all the girls who could have picked! He picked her! That was the part that really bugged me. Sure I loved him. Sure he cheated on me but he cheated on me with her!

Mary warned me about this but I didn’t listen to her, no instead I continued on living my life happily. Now what? That was the question I’d ask myself over again.

Do I just lay here heartbroken for the rest of my life? I couldn’t see what else I could do. The pain was so great I could barely breathe.

He was the one. I knew he was. Ethan Dolan is the only one for me but he’ll never again be mine. For the rest of my life, I promise to never love him again. No never love anyone again.

Love would no longer be a part of my life. I wouldn’t love anyone other than my family and I sure as hell won’t love Ethan.

How could I after all the pain he’s left me with? I’ve been laying on my bed for three days only getting up to go to the bathroom and eat a piece of bread a day. Moving was like walking in jello and my heat broke when I did walk. The bread I ate it tasted like nothing but ash in my mouth. I couldn’t sleep the image of him and her together broke my heart all over again.

My sisters haven’t said a word to me. They’ve left me alone the past while. I’m not even sure if Mom’s noticed yet cause I haven’t been to school. I wondered if Ethan noticed.

Well, actually I didn’t care. Ethan could burn in hell for all I cared. He was nothing to me now. Nothing. He was just another asshole attending my school. I hoped it would stay that way.

Or better yet he could move far away so I would never have to see him again.