Chapter 115

Chu Jiran was still dazed in situ, even though they went away a long time ago.

“Jiran? Jiran?” Gu Yeyu called him several times before Chu Jiran came to his senses.

“What’s up?” said Chu Jiran.

Gu Yeyu grumbled with discontent, “Jiran, what are you doing? Which girl are you thinking of?” Gu Yeyu’s unintentional joke left Chu Jiran lost in thought again.

‘Ill-judged.’

He thought that he had hidden his feeling very well, but he didn’t expect that he should have chosen to pull Bai Weijin away by instinct.

A keen observer like Gu Yeze would certainly notice something strange.

Chu Jiran hoped that his response just now could dispel Gu Yeze’s doubts, and…

Chu Jiran looked at Gu Yeyu with an apologetic smile.

“What’s the matter? Is there anything on my face?” Gu Yeyu stared at Chu Jiran doubtfully and touched her face.

“Nothing.”

In fact, Chu Jiran still had a lingering fear. If Gu Yeze hadn’t pulled Gu Yeyu away in time, the layers of books would have smashed on her.

He didn’t dare to imagine the consequences.

But the girl still smiled and looked at him with 100 percent trust.

“Jiran, what is going on with you? You have been at a loss since just now.” Gu Yeyu asked again.

“I’m just thinking, I should have pulled you away. You almost got hurt, I’m so sorry.” Chu Jiran looked at the innocent girl in front of him.

He felt guilty from the bottom of his heart.

But Gu Yeyu waved her hand and didn’t in the slightest care about it.

“Yeze was there too, I wouldn’t get hurt. If you hadn’t saved Weijin, Yeze couldn’t have made it in time.” said Gu Yeyu and then added wonderingly,

“Isn’t that why you saved Weijin?”

Chu Jiran forced a smile, “Of course it is.”

“There you go!” Gu Yeyu recovered her carefree look.

Chu Jiran touched her head and smiled, “I promised Grandma Gu to take care of you, but almost made you injured.”

After saying that, he beckoned to Yeyu to go downstairs with him. She was probably hungry after such an accident, so he decided to take her to dinner first.

“Jiran.”

“Huh?” Jiran stopped.

Gu Yeyu rubbed the hem of her skirt and hesitated about whether to ask him. Finally, she took a deep breath.

“Did you take care of me because you were entrusted by my grandma?” Gu Yeyu didn’t dare to look at Chu Jiran’s eyes. She was afraid that Chu Jiran would say “yes”.

Chu Jiran’s smile froze.

“Of course not.”

After hearing this, Yeyu was relieved. She was just about to ask another question with a broad smile when Chu Jiran’s following words totally disappointed her.

“You are my sister who I have been protecting since childhood. Even if Grandma Gu and Yeze didn’t ask me to do so, I will take good care of you.” Chu Jiran added.

Gu Yeyu seriously looked into Chu Jiran’s eyes, as if to determine whether his words were true or not.

“But, I… Don’t…Want… To… Be… Your… Sister.” Gu Yeyu said word by word.

She always spoke like a machine gun. It was rare for her to speak word by word.

This time, there was no crying or hysteria.

Gu Yeyu felt very calm now.

“I don’t want to be your sister.” She lowered her head and repeated.

Chu Jiran was sorry. He wanted to stretch out his hand and touch her head, but his hand stiffened in mid-air. Once they crossed the line, they couldn’t get along any more.

“Silly girl, what else do you want to be without being my sister? Do you want to be my elder sister?” Chu Jiran pretended not to understand her meaning and said jokingly.

“Jiran, stop playing dumb. You know what I mean.” Gu Yeyu’s voice became weaker and weaker, but she gradually summoned the courage and raised her head.

She had never expressed her love for Chu Jiran so directly.

“You know, I love you since I was little. So I have been trying to follow you, learning what you like, and clinging to you. What should I do to make you understand my heart?”

Chu Jiran looked awkward, “Of course I know, I like you too.”

“But my feeling for you isn’t the one between sisters and brothers. It isn’t the kind of feeling that I have for Yeze and Weijin!” Gu Yeyu slightly raised her voice.

What she said was somewhat roundabout, but she believed Chu Jiran could understand it.

Although she often called him brother, she never treated him as her brother. For so many years, Chu Jiran was a man in her eyes, the one that she loved.

Chu Jiran went silent.

“What about you, Chu Jiran? Do you love me?” Gu Yeyu’s voice was slightly trembling.

Even when she lost her temper with Chu Jiran or when they quarreled, she never called him by his full name. However, she wanted to call him like that for so long.

She no longer wanted to be treated as his sister.

“I don’t love you.”

Chu Jiran’s answer made Yeyu’s eyes widen in an instant.

“Sorry, Yeyu. I can’t give you the kind of love you want.” This was also the first time that Chu Jiran had given Gu Yeyu the direct reply after all these years. But it made her heartbroken all of a sudden.

“I know your feeling for me, and that’s why I always don’t dare to face the truth. I’m sorry. I don’t want to ruin our relationship, you mean a lot to me. No one can replace you, do you understand?”

Chu Jiran’s heart ached, when he saw Gu Yeyu’s hands trembling under the sleeves, the girl biting her lips and tears welling up in her eyes.

He wanted to touch her head like he used to do, but he couldn’t.

‘I finally summoned the courage to explain to her. If I’m soft-hearted now, all the efforts will be in vain.’

“I know.”

This was the first time that Chu Jiran had heard Gu Yeyu speak in such a low voice, like a pitiful child who was sobbing.

“In fact, I already have the answer in my heart. But I don’t want to believe it. You are not the only one who refuses to face the truth.”

Only the wearer knew whether the shoes were comfortable. Gu Yeyu knew well that Chu Jiran didn’t love her. It was just that she naively thought as long as she didn’t admit it, she still had a chance.

“I have to go home, my grandma is still waiting for me.”

Gu Yeyu turned and walked away after saying this to him. This time, she walked slowly, as if she was saying goodbye to her past feelings .

It was not until Gu Yeyu’s figure was about to disappear at the door that Chu Jiran said, “Am I still your brother?”

“… Of course.”