Chapter 46

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Fortunately, Lu Chengye reacted quickly. After Zhang Hang hugged him, Lu Chengye immediately raised his head and extended his long arms, pulling Zhang Hang into his embrace. He let the young man’s head rest on his shoulder.

Zhang Hang was slightly stunned. Because he couldn’t see, he could only rely on his sense of touch and his imagination to understand people. Since he determined that Lu Chengye was Big Black, he had immediately replaced Lu Chengye’s image with the dog’s. When Lu Chengye was Big Black, he was limited by his body and never hugged Zhang Hang. Every time he felt lost, Zhang Hang would hold Big Black and bury his head into the dog’s chest, and Big Black would rest his head on the boy’s shoulder. As a result, Zhang had embraced Lu Chengye very naturally, but it had not occurred to him that this man, even if he was Big Black, was no longer a dog.

Zhang Hang felt somewhat uneasy and struggled for a second, but Lu Chengye held him tight and did not let him go, even as his wounds hurt so much that he drew in a sharp breath. Although the sound was very quiet, how could it be concealed from Zhang Hang’s sharp hearing? He immediately stopped struggling, but his posture remained stiff.

Lu Chengye inwardly sighed. Even if they now recognized each other, he still had a long way to go. It was Big Black, not Lu Chengye, who had been with Zhang Hang for five years. Now, Lu Chengye could not lick Zhang Hang’s tears when he cried. He couldn’t sleep in the same bed as Zhang Hang. He couldn’t bathe with Zhang Hang. He couldn’t even constantly hold Zhang Hang’s hand and take him traveling all over the world.

The things he once did as a dog were now very difficult to do as a man. Even if they were biological father and son, such an act was much too intimate. It would be okay if they were a couple, but Zhang Hang was obviously not in love with him and simply regarded him as his sole family member. Now, this familiar family member had changed bodies. Let alone a lover, even family members would need some time to adjust.

If possible, Lu Chengye wanted to kiss Zhang Hang on the lips and tell him what he wanted. In the bar, when Zhang Hang had not known his identity, he was able to freely express his feelings. But now that he recognized Lu Chengye as Big Black, Zhang Hang’s feelings for him were fixed in the past. Confessing now… would not be appropriate.

He reached out a hand and stroked Zhang Hang’s hair, whispering, “Hang Hang, I don’t know how you guessed my identity, but I can tell you for sure that Big Black is not Lu Chengye, but Lu Chengye was Big Black. It was me from the beginning. Whether it is as a dog or a person, I am Lu Chengye. Actually… When I first became Big Black, whether I was a man or a dog, it didn’t matter to me. But being a man was tiring, and it was much easier to be a dog and not have to think about anything. However, since that winter in 2005, I wanted to be a person many times. Even if instead of being Lu Chengye I was just a classmate or a friend of yours, I could then hold you in my arms and comfort you by telling you you’re not alone. When Zhang Qiming hit you, I wanted to. When I knew the result of the paternity test, and when I knew you had eye problems, I wanted to. When Zhao Xiaolian left you alone, I wanted to. When Big Black died, if I had any strength, I would have wanted to hold you and tell you “it’s okay, don’t cry”.

Following his gentle voice, Zhang Hang’s rigid body slowly relaxed and he gently leaned his head on Lu Chengye’s shoulder. In fact, he wasn’t listening to Lu Chengye’s words. He simply felt that his voice made him extremely comfortable and it felt like finding home. These five years, he was always drifting, the water ebbing and flowing under his feet, and he was unable to find a place to return to. It wasn’t until now, in Lu Chengye’s soft and erotic voice, that he sensed home.

This time, there was no need for Lu Chengye to grab Zhang Hang’s hand. Zhang Hang took the initiative to touch Lu Chengye’s hand and interlock their ten fingers, refusing to let go even the tiniest bit.

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Clenching his fist, Lu Chengye told himself to be patient and not to scare his Hang Hang. He had watched Zhang Hang change from a boy into a man. Let alone things between men, Zhang Hang had never even seen things between a man and a woman. He had always been a top student in middle school and high school, and definitely had no time to get in contact with any pornagraphic material. When Zhang Hang went to college, he should have been taught the popular “science” by his dormmates, but by that time he was blind. If he wanted to understand, he could only feel with his hands. But who would let a blind man touch them while having sex with someone else? Unless it was a 3P, but there was no way Zhang Hang would do such a thing. At heart, he was a pure and innocent big child. Lu Chengye was afraid there was no chance of him growing up.

Lu Chengye was currently worried that he would ruin the reputation he had built with Zhang Hang. He dared not touch that bottom line. What he could do now was let Zhang Hang blur the boundary between Lu Chengye and Big Black and recognize him as a person, and then he could pursue the other.

“Hang Hang, how did you suspect I was Big Black? Last night… I shouldn’t have given any hints,” Lu Chengye said somewhat doubtfully. He had originally intended to wait until after his injuries were healed, then immediately go to Zhang Hang’s house and tell him while they were alone. There were too many people in the bar last night, so he couldn’t tell the truth. He went there to wait for Hang Hang just so he could see him. The later conversation was actually the result of Zhang Hang’s hatred and impulsiveness after he identified Lu Chengye.

Zhang Hang smiled faintly and told Lu Chengye what he thought about after returning home last night. He finally said, “At first, I only suspected it, but what made me sure was that your birthday is exactly the same as the number you gave me for the lottery ticket.”

“You are so smart,” Lu Chengye felt Zhang Hang’s soft hair happily. “Ever since I met you, my Hang Hang has been the best and smartest person.”

“Don’t praise me,” Zhang Hang said, blushing a little. He was not used to direct conversation with Big Black. “If I was smart, I should have figured it out in the bar. How could Lu Chengye bark like a dog in front of me, unless he was Big Black…”

“Actually, Lu Chengye could do it too,” Lu Chengye was quick to say. He wanted Zhang Hang to think of Lu Chengye and Big Black as one entity instead of viewing them separately. “It’s just that you don’t understand me.”

“No,” Zhang Hang shook his head, “If that were really you, you wouldn’t have come to the bar before your injuries healed. There was a two to three hour wait for getting a personal drink made by me. And even if you came to the bar because you had nothing else to do, you would leave directly when hearing my accusations. You would not waste your energy on people you didn’t care about. If I had any devious intentions toward you, you would simply go back and ask your assistant to keep an eye on me and not use any of your own time to pester me. Lu Chengye and Big Black are one and the same.”

“I……” Lu Chengye couldn’t deny anything because Zhang Hang knew him too well. Perhaps it was due to the feelings of hatred and revenge from these past few years, but Zhang Hang had acquired the habit of keeping tabs on him, and so analyzed his actions and motives with near-perfect accuracy.

In the past, he truly was that type of person. Work was too tiring, life was too tiring, and every moment of his time was precious. How could he have the time or energy to care about such unimportant matters? At that time, in his eyes, the only people worth his time to know were useful people, and unimportant people’s matters were taken care of by his assistant.

“Even though it’s pretty unbelievable, a person transforming into a dog and back has already happened, so something a bit more magical might be possible after all,” Zhang Hang remarked. “I assume that because of that car accident one month ago, you went back in time by ten years and became Big Black. After accompanying me for five years, you returned to your current body. This is why your temperament became different after the accident. After all, there is a five-year gap. This also explains why you have the ability to predict things with such accuracy, knew the winning number of the lottery on that day, knew the rise and fall of that demon stock, and understand the potential of e-commerce software so that I could invest in Dong Mingyi’s company at the very beginning.”

Zhang Hang’s imaginative and analytical skills were even better than he had thought. Perhaps it was because he couldn’t see the expressions on people’s faces and could only guess at their emotions by their voices, but Zhang Hang’s thoughts were much deeper than the average person, and his way of thinking was different. Because he couldn’t see and was not influenced by vision, he was able to make such bold speculations. If he were switched with a normal person, then just looking at Lu Chengye’s elite face, no matter what they guessed there was no way they would suspect he had been a dog.

“Your guesses are completely correct,” Lu Chengye praised, “But you still don’t understand me. I’m the type of guy who would help an old lady across the street without fearing a scam.”

He furiously tried to paint a better picture of himself, but Zhang Hang scrunched up his eyebrows and shook his head, saying, after a moment of thought, “Either that old lady is the relative of one of your business partners and you need to maintain a good relationship with them, or she had been blocking the way to your car. If you didn’t get her to move faster, you wouldn’t be able to drive. You drove yourself and didn’t have your assistant with you, so you could only personally go and solve the problem. If it wasn’t for that… you probably wouldn’t even look at her.”

Lu Chengye: “…”

He couldn’t bear this feeling of being completely seen through. Big Black was the one who Zhang Hang should understand, not Lu Chengye! How was he supposed to create a nice impression now?!

He tightened his hold on Zhang Hang and said softly by his ear, “Lu Chengye is a selfish, cold-hearted person who only cares about profits. Then what about Big Black? In your heart, what is Big Black like? Tell me.”

His movements were very ambiguous and his tone was quite intimate. At first Zhang Hang felt uncomfortable, but because Lu Chengye mentioned Big Black, he was able to ignore this ambiguity and allow the man’s lips so close to his earlobes. It was as if in the next second he would be kissed.

“Big Black……” Zhang Hang thought back to his time with Big Black, his actions, his care and affection. Then, he thought about how the dog treated others and suddenly said while smiling, “Actually, you and Big Black are really alike. How come I didn’t notice before?”

Lu Chengye: “…”

Could his reputation recover?

“Just now I wanted to say that Big Black was kindhearted and considerate, but then I suddenly realized that was only towards myself.” As he remembered, Zhang Hang said, “I remember, Big Black would rarely take care of others. At the School for the Blind, the security guard wanted to pet him, but Big Black never let him touch him once. I reckon the next time he saw him, he didn’t even recognize him. The only two people Big Black was willing to interact with were Brother Ren and the part-time worker aunt that worked in my house at the time. In fact, Big Black had a bad attitude towards Brother Ren at first. Later, as he continued to help me, Big Black gradually allowed Brother Ren to touch him. As for the part-time worker aunt, it wasn’t good to get on her bad side. Otherwise, she could secretly add more salt and no one would ever know.”

At that time, Zhang Hang had simply thought Big Black was an independent and special dog. Because he was very loyal, he only paid attention to his master. But now he was comparing Big Black with Lu Chengye, Zhang Hang discovered he was simply the only one in their eyes. The rest were as fleeting as clouds. Both Big Black and Lu Chengye were like this.

But if the part-time worker aunt and Xiao Ren were valuable, what about him? Zhang Hang suddenly came up with this question.

What he originally believed was kindness and compassion was actually only reserved for himself. In that case, why did the selfish and indifferent Lu Chengye treat him this way? Was it because he was his owner?

No, that was wrong. Zhang Hang immediately scratched out this guess in his mind since it had been both him and Zhang Qiming who bought Big Black back then. However, Big Black was even willing to bite Zhang Qiming for his sake. Was it really because of their pet and master relationship that Big Black helped him so wholeheartedly?

Zhang Hang didn’t know. When a matter was related to others he could calmly analyze things, but regarding his own, he was somewhat slow on the uptake.

He raised his head and “looked” at Lu Chengye, with the word “why?” written all over his face.

Lu Chengye’s heart softened at his slightly pained blank expression. He raised a hand to stroke Zhang Hang’s face and said softly, “Why else? You bought me from a pet shop and cared for me as if I was family. You are wonderful, kind, passionate, and honest. Your whole body shines with light I admire. At the time, Big Black had not yet grown up, and every day I looked at you with admiration. Even if you were only 15 years old, I could still see what kind of person you would become when you grew up. Now look how amazing you are. All the hardships of life have not defeated you. You are so dazzling I can’t look directly at you.”

“I became like this because of you!” Zhang Hang tightly held onto the hand that was lightly stroking his face, “Because you, a selfish and cold-hearted man, gave all of your kindness and consideration to me!”

It was because of Big Black that such a Zhang Hang could now exist.

sere: HAHAHA HE GOT EXPOSED BY ZHANG HANG