Chapter 47

4th ko-fi chapter!

editor/TLC: serefina & Rin

Lu Chengye hadn’t expected Zhang hang to say such a thing. The young man had straightforwardly pointed out the shortcomings he had always wanted to deny, yet also completely acknowledged everything he had done. Hearing Zhang Hang’s words, Lu Chengye’s entire heart was filled with this person with no room left for anything else.

Yes, he was self-centered and cold. This is what Lu Chengye had been trying to deny ever since he met Zhang Hang, because he understood that Zhang Hang would probably not like this type of person. Zhao Xiaolian was like this and had thus caused most of Zhang Hang’s problems during the first half of his life with her selfishness and indifference.

In fact, Lu Chengye was just as selfish. If he wasn’t selfish, he wouldn’t have been able to completely suppress his relatives to the bottom of a valley for the benefit of the company. In fact, there were many methods he could have used to suppress them that allowed them to live comfortably, but doing so would be quite troublesome. Lu Chengue liked to complete what he wanted to accomplish. As for others, who cared what they did? As long as the company was fine, everything was fine. Regarding how his relatives felt about this, he never thought about it, and simply used the most economic and cruel method to knock them all down. If he wasn’t selfish, he wouldn’t have simply left the company to be managed by a hired CEO. Once he was done with business, he only wanted peace and quiet, and hadn’t at all considered whether his relatives would start making a ruckus again after he had left.

He was afraid that Zhang Hang wouldn’t want to be in contact with him if he was like this, and had tried his best to deny the matter. However, if it wasn’t for his excessive methods, how would Lu Hongbo have impulsively tried to kill him in a car crash while drunk? In the end, he’d paid with Big Black’s life and missed five years of Zhang Hang’s youth.

He wanted to deserve being with Zhang Hang. The young man lived within darkness, so there ought to be someone who shone brightly like the sun and could send such light into his heart.

Unfortunately, after all that was said and done, he was not like that. After Zhang Hang determined that both Lu Chengye and Big Black were that type of selfish person, Lu Chengye’s heart gradually became cold.

But in the next second, Zhang Hang recognized him in his entirety.

Even if he was selfish, indifferent, gloomy, and ruthless, there was always a sunny place in his heart, where the warm and soft spring breeze blew, the grass under feet was green, and the sky was blue and clear. Such a beautiful heart was open to only one person. Back when he was Big Black, he kept Zhang Hang in this space within his heart, so that he could always feel the light.

“Hang Hang…” Lu Chengye said in a hoarse voice, “I am exactly the sort of person you describe, but believe me when I say that you are the only light in my heart. I am willing to offer you all of my life’s meager and pitiful good points. If you wish for it, no matter how much you want, I can squeeze out more.”

Zhang Hang smiled and raised a hand to touch Lu Chengye’s face. He was slightly regretful but also very satisfied as he said, “Unfortunately your face has no fur. That would be the best point.”

Lu Chengye: “…”

He should have known that a man couldn’t compare to a dog!

“I can’t squeeze that out.” Lu Chengye also smiled. Now, the big block of stone in his heart had gone, and he was incomparably relaxed and cheerful. Just like when he and Hang Hang moved into the small high-rise bought with the lottery money and lived in their own house, this was his space and this was his person.

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Zhang Hang’s face reddened slightly. He thought for a moment then said, “Later… It’s better to do it less often. After all, you’re a person.”

“But I was a dog for five years.” Lu Chengye stubbornly refused to let go of his own material benefits. Zhang Hang was used to being licked by him anyway. In the future, Lu Chengye would slowly get him used to kissing, and then they would gradually change from family to lovers. He was patient enough to subtly cook this frog in warm water.

“But now you’re human.”

“However, in your heart, dogs are better than people,” Lu Chengye threw caution to the wind and said shamelessly. “You can just pretend I have fur on my face.”

Zhang Hang was amused by him and laughed like a summer afternoon sun, bright, lively, and beautiful. He smiled and asked, “How are you so shameless? Whether or not you have a layer of fur, I don’t care. After all, you are a man. If others see you behave like a dog, won’t they think there’s something wrong with you?”

“Then I won’t let others see.” Lu Chengye stroked the palm of Zhang Hang’s hand. “How about just when we’re alone? Hang Hang, I just changed from a dog into a man, and won’t be able to change my habits for a while. You may not know, but when I was a human who had no fur on my face, I didn’t dare do anything because of my thin skin. When I became a dog I was free and at ease. Now, I don’t want to go back to how things were.”

Zhang Hang: “…”

He rocked back and forth as he laughed, almost unable to stay sitting. Lu Chengye was such a rascal.

In the past when the two people were together, Zhang Hang would laugh when he was very happy. Whenever this happened, Lu Chengye’s heart would itch, which was difficult to endure. He would throw himself at the young man and try his best to lick, from his face to his neck to his collarbone, and would not release him until Zhang Hang had laughed enough. Now, Zhang Hang released some rare laughter because of him. How could he possibly endure it?

Although his current condition made it difficult to maneuver himself, he could still lick. In any case, he had fur on his face. Lu Chengye held Zhang Hang in his arms and licked him once. Seeing Zhang Hang’s uncomfortable appearance, he softly said “woof” beside his ear. Because Zhang Hang was blind, he only recognized people or dogs based on sensation. If he was an ordinary person, even if they knew Lu Chengye’s identity, they would see his calm and elite appearance and not let him lick them, as this kind of thing was too ambiguous. However, Zhang Hang didn’t know what Lu Chengye looked like. He only heard the mellow “woof” beside his ear and sensed the same enthusiasm as before. Whenever he wanted to struggle, he would remind himself that this was Big Black. When he thought of that, he would calm down.

Society’s gaze didn’t mean anything to him. Because he couldn’t see, he lived more freely.

Big Black was the one who’d taught him freedom.

Having fun in private was fine. The problem was that someone entered Lu Chengye’s ward without knocking, and entered the inner room directly. They were struck dumb by the scene in the room!

God, Chairman Lu was holding a very good-looking young man and licking and kissing him (although he couldn’t see see them actually kissing, with their movements it was entirely conceivable). The young man didn’t even resist, and just let Lu Chengye to continue embracing him.

Naturally, how could the average person reject a person as wealthy as Lu Chengye? Even if they were a man, it was unlikely. However, Lu Xincheng knew that Lu Chengye wasn’t such a person. Although he had the appearance of a tyrannical chairman, in his private life he was like a monk. Since discovering that all the women who pursued him were sent by his relatives, Lu Chengye refused to interact with all women except for business purposes. After that, people thought he liked men. When socializing together, someone presented him with a few pretty male teen idols, and Lu Chengye immediately ordered a bodyguard to throw them out. He had no interest at all.

Lu Xincheng always believed that Lu Chengye would live his entire life with only his right hand, and what did he see today? Lu Chengye teasing… wait a minute, wasn’t that Zhang Hang?

Although he only met him a few times, Zhang Hang’s body naturally shone. Lu Xincheng would never forget the youth’s expression as he held his guide dog’s urn five years ago, as if he had lost the entire world. The light disappeared, and all that remained was the endless night. However, such stark contrast only made him attract more attention than ever. When Zhang Hang had held the urn in his arms on board the plane, more than thirty women and children at the airport had wanted to hug the young man in order to comfort him.

It was precisely because Lu Xincheng had not forgotten Zhang Hang that he was even more convinced Zhang Hang would dislike or even hate Chairman Lu. That one time when he had listened to Lu Chengye order him to tell Zhang Hang to investigate Lu Hongbo, he had looked at the man’s expression and thought it was cruel and hateful. The man had indirectly killed Zhang Hang’s dog and was then using this point to fight against the enemy. How much had this hurt Zhang Hang?

Although Lu Xincheng was sure that Zhang Hang had nothing to do with the recent accident, he was also certain that Zhang Hang hated Lu Chengye.

But now, Zhang Hang was letting Lu Chengye tease him! How did this happen?!

With Zhang Hang’s hearing, he should have been able to hear Lu Xincheng open the door to the outer room and notice his arrival right away. However, just a moment ago, Zhang Hang’s ears had been filled with Lu Chengye’s woofing. Lu Chengye could probably be considered skilled at acting like a dog, as his imitation of a dog’s bark was very similar to the real thing. Combined with it sounding similar to Big Black’s bark, Zhang Hang was unable to resist it.

When he saw Lu Xincheng come in, Lu Chengye immediately let go of Zhang Hang and put him behind himself in a practiced manner. Big Black used to stand in front of Zhang Hang when there was danger, but… the position was different.

Seeing Zhang Hang’s upper body stuffed between Lu Chengye’s back and the head of the bed, Lu Xincheng’s face couldn’t help twitching. : uwuuuu