Chapter 55

editor/TLC: serefina & Rin

Zhang Hang was not as ignorant as Lu Chengye imagined him to be. At least when attending school abroad, in such an open environment, even if he was blind and couldn’t see it, he had a little knowledge and understood some of it. As for affairs between men, it was a bit scary to think about what Zhang Hang had come up with through his own fumbling and rambling. When he confessed, it wasn’t that he didn’t know what would happen between the two of them if they were lovers in the future, but he wanted Big Black too much. Big Black was the sole bottom line in his heart. He had experienced betrayal from everyone except from Big Black. Zhang Hang wanted Big Black, and he wanted all of Big Black, no matter what he had to do.

Zhang Hang didn’t know much about feelings, but this did not mean he was unable to distinguish the emotions of others. Because he was blind, he was more sensitive to other people’s emotions. He couldn’t tell whether Lu Chengye’s feelings were love or familial affection because of his emotional foundation with Big Black, but could detect Lu Xincheng and Bai Xiyu’s emotions. At least in other people’s eyes, Lu Chengye liked him.

His friends would eventually have their own families, his relatives had already betrayed him, children… Even if he actually had them in the future, it was also important to let them go and allow them to fly. The only one who could accompany him his whole life was a partner. Partner, Zhang Hang once sketched that one word on paper. Partner. His understanding of this word was that without that person at his side, he was only half of himself and incomplete. Zhang Hang wanted to obtain Lu Chengye’s complete feelings, so when he wasn’t sure whether he liked him or not, he was the first to confess and got the expected response.

Spending every day in the Lu residence and being accompanied every night, Zhang Hang at last felt complete. In this case, it didn’t matter whether or not his feelings for Lu Chengye were romantic or not. He just wanted lifetime companionship.

At the time, that is what Zhang Hang thought.

When he tried to act as bait to protect Lu Chengye, he also thought that.

He knew he was a despicable person, taking advantage of Lu Chengye’s feelings to trap him. He concealed his own dark heart and machinations, only showing Lu Chengye the side of him that the man liked five years ago, and tried to use a mask in front of him for his whole life.

However, last night, his entire understanding was shattered.

When he became aware of Lu Chengye’s intention, Zhang Hang was slightly afraid; as he gritted his teeth and accepted it, he was determined to meet death with bravery; but when he was floating high in the clouds, he unexpectedly could not think of anything but Big Black, and in the end, understood his own cowardly and humble feelings.

The world’s three most sincere feelings. When he was 16 years old, Zhang Hang had enjoyed beautiful familial love. He could now clearly tell that the emotions between him and Lu Chengye were really not familial. When contacting Shen Mingfei and others, he understood this sort of relationship was simple but profound. Normally, he would not reveal key details about himself, but would still without the slightest hesitation extend a helping hand to them when they were in need— this was friendship. But not even friendship could describe how he felt towards Big Black.

So, what else could it be?

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However, he witnessed Zhao Xiaolian and Zhang Qiming fall out and split up, Zhang Jianguo and Zhao Xiaolian’s so-called true love turn into a calculated scheme, and Zhang Jianguo’s family breaking apart. That woman who, although was somewhat rough, did her best for her family, and her young daughter became the victims of Zhao Xiaolian and Zhang Jianguo’s impulsive behavior. Zhang Hang had followed Zhang Jianguo’s family closely, and they later seemed to have gotten a divorce. His wife was quite ferocious and seized most of the small number of properties for herself, then went out to live with her daughter. Even so, it was not easy for a single woman to raise a daughter.

Zhang Hang himself was not aware he was subconsciously afraid of love. To be exact, he was afraid of his own love. He was afraid of Zhao Xiaolian and Zhang Jianguo’s fickle blood that flowed through his body, and would regard love as an excuse for enjoying pleasures and a method to strive for benefits. He dared not admit he loved Lu Chengye. In this relationship in which he seemed to hold the initiative, he was in fact afraid. He was afraid that he couldn’t love Lu Chengye forever, and hoped to maintain their relationship using familial affection.

But now, he had no choice but to admit it.

The early morning sun shone on Lu Chengye’s body. He opened his eyes and discovered that Zhang Hang had already woken up, beautiful eyes wide open as if he was trying to look at him. Lu Chengye naturally put his hand on Zhang Hang’s cheek and asked, “When did you wake up? What were you doing?”

“Looking at you.” Zhang Hang rubbed against Lu Chengye’s hand with his face. “I want to see what you look like.”

Lu Chengye’s heart felt so unbearably painful that he almost cried for Zhang Hang. He would not cry for himself, but many times he had wanted to shed tears for Zhang Hang, this child he loved dearly. It wasn’t that he was crying, rather lamenting on behalf of this stubborn and strong child’s unjust fate.

He put Zhang Hang’s hand on his face and softly said, “It’s okay if you touch my face and use your hand to see.”

“I can’t see it.” Zhang Hang shook his head. He would never be able to see his most beloved person’s face.

“What you can’t see you can touch, then tell me what I look like to your hands.” Lu Chengye pinched Zhang Hang’s hand to cheer him up.

Once again, Zhang Hang touched Lu Chengye’s face. He touched Lu Chengye’s eyebrows, and described him based on what he could feel. “Your eyebrows are a bit straighter than the average person, you are a decisive man. The corners of your eyes… Why are there slight crow’s feet? Are you working too hard? Your forehead is very smooth… No, a little above your left eyebrow, there is a very small mole, unable to be felt without touching carefully. Your nose is high, your lips are thin, your ears… Your earlobes are very big, you are a lucky man. Your entire face is well maintained. There are no pockmarks, meaning you didn’t pick at the pimples on your face during puberty. At a very young age, you were capable of controlling yourself.”

Zhang Hang suddenly froze, put down his hand and said, “I’m sorry, I’m used to using a few characteristics to understand others. I can’t see the expression in their eyes, so I can only try to understand some of their distinctive features first in order to figure out the intentions they are hiding behind polite words and actions.”

“Well said.” Lu Chengye smiled and asked, “Do you know the first impression others get when they see me?”

“What?” Zhang Hang asked very cooperatively.

“The first time they see me, people who don’t know my identity can only say, ‘wow, so handsome!’ (♀) or ‘everyone who looks better than me can go to hell’ (♂). After a period of contact, people will say I look respectable but am somehow so cold blooded. People like Lu Xincheng, who have been with me for a long time, will also think of me as an okay-looking man whose social skills are a bit rusty but is an overall not too bad person. But Hang Hang, only you “see” me differently than others.

Lu Chengye said tenderly, “I don’t seem to have mentioned my mother to you yet. She was a very gentle lady from a wealthy family, somewhat traditional, but still quite gentle. However, she was born under an unlucky star, and died young. I remember when I was a child, she would hold me and say that a mole in the center of the left eyebrow is a Wangfu mole, so how could her boy grow such a thing? My ears hold abundant good fortune, my eyebrows are straight and firm, and my lips are thin. So many people have come in contact with me, but only you, even if you cannot ‘see’, can tell me my characteristics and personality completely. You are not blinded by what you see, and like me for who I am, not because of my face. Of all the people who have approached me, only your feelings were pure, only you cast aside all external factors and liked me for me.

“No, that’s not it…” Zhang Hang said with some difficulty, “I like you, but it’s also because of an objective.”

“Oh?” Lu Chengye’s voice picked up slightly. “What objective?”

“I want to find someone to be with.”

“Then why not look for others? There are so many people who want to be with you.”

“… Probably because, I can only accept being with you for the rest of my life,” Zhang Hang said after some thought.

“Stupid Hang Hang.” Lu Chengye couldn’t help but draw the younger man into his arms. “Those are the best sweet nothings I’ve ever heard. If that’s really your objective, then I will trouble you to please commit to it your entire life and not give it up easily.”

Zhang Hang smiled and leaned into Lu Chengye’s arms, feeling that at this moment, nothing could scare him. Zhang Hang at this moment was the strongest, as he was no longer alone. There was someone who would forgive everything he did and always be with him.

Words of love did not stop hunger. After sticking to each other all morning, both their stomachs were rumbling with hunger. Zhang Hang’s home had been unoccupied for quite a long time. He wanted to order food, but Lu Chengye thought the seasoning outside was too heavy for someone with a sensitive sense of taste like Zhang Hang. He called the Lu house for the chef to do it, ordering Bai Xiyu to bring the food over at once.

With such a fuss, when the pair ate at 10 in the morning, they did not know whether it was breakfast or lunch. Lu Chengye frowned and said, “Let’s live at my place from now on, it’s much more convenient.”

He didn’t really want Zhang Hang to live in this house. He couldn’t live in the past forever.

“Okay,” Zhang Hang nodded. “It doesn’t matter where I live if I’m together with you.”

“Then get ready to move in today,” Lu Chengye replied happily.

Zhang Hang agreed with a smile, then suddenly thought of something and reached out to touch Lu Chengye’s eyebrows. He then said with a slightly wicked smile, “As a matter of fact, everything has been better since I met Big Black. Winning the lottery, buying a house, buying stocks, making a lot of money, opening a bar, becoming a shareholder of a company, and now moving into such a nice villa. Wangfu mole is quite accurate.”

Looking at the now mischievous Zhang Hang, Lu Chengye: …

What else could he do but continue to work hard to bring luck to his “husband” ?

Since he was a Wangfu, then those people who would bring bad luck to Zhang Hang would have to be taken care of. It was his turn to clean things up.

Chairman Lu’s expression darkened under Zhang Hang’s convenient blindness.

rin: time for Big Black to deploy ( and move out (￣^￣ )ゞ)hhhhh😂

sere: *smoothly slides the man into his own home* wifey is here