V2C2

Translator: Anne Noh

Ke Luo just held his knees with his hands and sat still. He looked at Shu Nian with his red eyes and didn't intend to stand up.

Shu Nian went toward Ke Lou, stretched out his hands and touched his head affectionately. He prepared his mind to get ready to accept Ke Luo's complaints and did his best to comfort Ke Luo: "I'm really sorry that I'm late. I don't mean it. This afternoon, I suddenly..."

Ke Luo suddenly pounced on Shu Nian. The huge momentum made Shu Nian slightly moved backwards and he instinctively held on Ke Luo's shoulders. The young man tightened his slender strong arms around Shu Nian's waist and affixed his head to Shu Nian's abdomen.

"It's okay. I'm glad you come..."

"I am really sorry."

"I'm glad you come..." The young man murmured sadly and his tight hold was quite painful, "I thought you wouldn't come...you don't want to see me..."

"How could I." Shu Nian clumsily touched Ke Lou's head, "You are freezing. Your face is so cold. Let's go into the house. It will be bad if you catch a cold."

Shu Nian had forgotten that he was having a high fever. He only though that Ke Luo was frozen since his palm was cold once he touched Ke Luo's face.

As expected, Ke Luo' house was warmer than outside. There were a few untouched dishes that had turned cold on the long table in the living room. Apparently Ke Luo had been waiting for him and he didn't even eat the rice.

"Are you hungry? I'll reheat the dishes. It won't be good to your stomach if you don't eat anything by this time..."

Shu Nian didn't even know either he was cold or hot. His was slightly sweating on his forehead. He took off his coat feebly since he wanted to enter the kitchen.

"No need. I'm not hungry...Just stay with me..." Ke Luo hugged Shu Nian. Shu Nian didn't know if it was an illusion caused by his weariness but he suddenly felt Ke Luo that was standing in front of him was stronger and taller.

"Okay..." Shu Nian took the opportunity to slowly sit down on the sofa since his dizziness was getting worst. He could only look at Ke Luo who was half kneeling on the carpet in front of him. Ke Luo didn't say anything and he was holding Shu Nian tightly since he was afraid that Shu Nian might go away.

"Shu Nian..."

They way they were hugging tightly while looking at each other were slightly strange, but Shu Nian became soft-hearted when the young man bent down and buried his warm face on Shu Nian's burning chest. Shu Nian gently placed his hand on Ke Luo's back: "What is it?"

"I am an adult today."

"En."

"I've grown up."

"Yes."

Ke Luo lifted his head from Shu Nian's shoulder. Some of his soft black hair fell on his forehead and covered half of his pitched black eyes. Suddenly there was a matured and warm expression on the youngster's handsome face.

Shu Nian felt a warm breath hitting his lips. He was unable to conjure any thought in his mind, as his lips were suddenly covered and his eyes turned blurry.

Shu Nian momentarily unable to comprehend the thing that had happened and the lips that was kissing him passionately was making him more confused. Shu Nian could only gapped his mouth stiffly as Ke Luo held the back of his head as he was exploring and sucking Shu Nian's mouth deeper. The soft and rough tongue passionately pursued Shu Nian's tongue as he instinctively retreated away from Ke Luo's advancement. The tightly clasped lips and intertwined tongues almost made Shu Nian couldn't breathe.

Shu Nian was pressed against the sofa. He was in daze and obediently complied with all Ke Luo actions. Shu Nian still couldn't believe that they had just kissed even when Ke Luo already withdrew slowly from his mouth.

"You..."

Shu Nian stared blankly at the young man who was kneeling in between of his legs. The young man's strong arms were holding his back and Shu Nian's mind was in a jumbled.

"I love you," Ke Luo's attractive face was blushing slightly and it looked like he was trying to summon up his courage, "will you be with me?"

"Wh...what?"

"I have grown up...I'll take good care of you in the future. Be mine, okay? I will make you very happy..."

Shu Nian was completely shocked as if he was violated by his biological son. He used his strength to shoved Ke Luo away as he was leaning his face toward him: "Don't be nonsense!"

"I like you..." Ke Luo couldn't conceal that he was slightly dejected, but his tone was still very firm, "I like you...I feel good around you...I'm happy when I'm with you...I want to be with you everyday...It's okay if you can't accept it. I don't want you to immediately respond to me. Why don't we try it first and see how it goes? I already kissed you. We'll take it slow if you can't adapt to it. I can wait until you are comfortable..."

"Don't be silly..." Shu Nian's dizziness was getting worst. He pressed his temple strenuously and his voice turned stern, "a proper boy should find a girlfriend. Why do you go for an old man like me? Right, didn't you told me you used to have a girlfriend? You aren't gay! Nonsense! Who taught you these awful things?!"

"I am!" Ke Luo hurriedly interrupted Shu Nian and cupped his face, "I did. That's before I meet you...Now I'm gay. You should be responsible. I never like a man...You are the one who made me like this. You have to be responsible...You can't ignore me..."

Shu Nian looked at Ke Luo in surprise. He looked blankly for a while and then his eyes darkened.

"You are the one who made me like this."

Shu Nian really loved Ke Luo and spoiled him just like his own son. He just wanted to give him the best and wanted him to be happy when they were together so that Ke Luo could lead the most perfect life. He couldn't receive warmth and happiness unlike Ke Luo, and he hoped Ke Luo didn't turn out like him. He hoped for him to lead a "normal" and glorious life.

But...

"You made me like this."

Even though Shu Nian had cautiously hid his sexual orientation, did he unconsciously lead Ke Luo astray?

He had forgotten he was "abnormal", and he never knew that this sexual orientation could be contagious like a cold virus.

Yes, Shu Nian was that kind of person, thus he wasn't qualified to say being homosexual is bad. But, because he was a homosexual, he didn't want Ke Luo to become like him.

It was too hard to live that kind of pitiful life where he was unable to be his real self and must be cautious...

That kind of bitter life, it was enough for him to taste it alone.

He didn't want Ke Luo to experience it.

"Ke Luo, think about it carefully," Shu Nian was slightly in desperation. "It may not be like that. You don't like a man. Could it be that you are mistaken because I'm nice to you? You only regard me as someone you could rely on...That wasn't love. You have mistaken. Right? Think about it carefully and don't say anything like that. If...If I did something that could mislead you, just ignore it...it's my fault..."

"Ke Luo, you are very sensible. You know what you should do and what you shouldn't do. Right? What's good about liking a man...you should get a girlfriend...Could it be that you don't have a girlfriend because [1] uncle doesn't have one? We aren't the same. You are young and nice...You will find a good girlfriend. You..."

[T/N: [1] Shu Nian usually refers to himself with 'I', this is the first time he refers himself as 'uncle'.]

Ke Luo looked at Shu Nian with sad and angry expressions. He bowed his head and wanted to kiss Shu Nian to stop his chatter. Shu Nian hurriedly pushed him away and wanted to get up: "I'll go back first...In the future...we shouldn't meet again. It's better like that..."

Ke Luo's face suddenly turned pale: "You hate me?"

"No..." Shu Nian was in turmoil, "but it would be better if we never see each other again...you should never know me..."

"You don't want to see me?" Ke Luo sounded slightly agitated. "You said you will never leave me no matter what happened! You lied to me!"

"I'm sorry..." Shu Nian was at a loss and he didn't know what he was apologizing for, either because it was affecting him or because he refused to be responsible for Ke Luo, "I'm doing this for you...Don't come to see me after this...I won't come to see you too. Let's end it here...You are already an adult. You can be independent and I don't have to accompany you anymore. So..."

"You lied to me..." Ke Luo was angry and in despair, "You said you won't leave me. Even you are lying to me..."

It was too sudden and Shu Nian didn't even have time to react and he was already firmly pressed on the sofa. The fast motion coupled up with his originally weakened state made his head buzzing even worst and his eyes turned blurry.

"What's going on?"

Shu Nian's head was buzzing so badly and he could only see Ke Luo's mouth moving and the vague sound it made. Ke Luo didn't answer him and he didn't say anything. He pursed his lips, firmly pinned Shu Nian's legs with his knees and removed Shu Nian's sweater roughly.

Shu Nian didn't have the strength to stop Ke Luo and he couldn't breathe for a while and he was gasping for air once the sweater was completely removed.

"Ke Luo, what are you doing..." Shu Nian's shirt was also being torn roughly. He definitely knew what Ke Luo was doing, but he couldn't believe it. He refused hurriedly, but it was useless. His naked upper body was covered in goosebump due to the coldness even though the house had a central heating system.

"Ke Luo, don't fool around..." The belt was undone and Shu Nian instinctively struggled to protect himself and desperately trying to fight, "don't fool around..."

In normalcy, Shu Nian was also a man even though Ke Luo was young and fit, there was no way that Shu Nian wouldn't be able to fight if they were really fighting. As of now, even if Shu Nian used all his strength, there was no way for him to stop Ke Luo's stubborn hands and not to mention the other things he wished to do.

His lower part was exposed in the cold air and Shu Nian heard his own voice sounded like he was pleading: " Ke Luo, no ...don't...don't be like this..."

The clear sound of zipper being pulled could be heard and Shu Nian's body went stiff and he clenched his legs desperately: "Ke Luo, Ke Luo...don't be like this..."

His legs were forcibly opened and his waist was hoisted up. The sharp pain that was spreading rapidly at his rear end made him moved backward but the hold on his waist tightened and then he was penetrated deeper.

Shu Nian's limbs went taut instantaneously. He didn't make any sound due to the pain and his chest became even more restricted. He only coughed coarsely after a very long time.

Shu Nian's head was thumping madly as if it wanted to burst open. He widened his eyes in a daze and everything was blurry.

Fortunately, Ke Luo just forced into him and he didn't move or Shu Nian wouldn't be able to stay conscious.

"Does it hurts too much?"

Ke Luo groaned coarsely.

Shu Nian could only breathe raggedly and looked at the ceiling blankly.

"I'm sorry...." The young man kept on kissing Shun Nian's neck, "I'm sorry...but...I love you..."

A crying sound could be heard.

"I want you to have you......"

"I love you...why can't you...try to be with me?"

"You don't like anyone...why can't you try to be with me?"

Shu Nian suddenly coughed violently and he kept on coughing until he almost cried.

Xie Yan, Xie Yan...

Shu Nian had spent almost eighteen years only loving that person...

But...what was the point of it?

He loved Xie Yan but what was the point of it...

That person would never give him what he wanted...not even out of pity.

He loved him but there wasn't even the slightest outcome coming from it...

Ke Luo started to move deeper in Shu Nian and the shooting pain in his spine was resulted from being entered forcefully. He instinctively continued to struggle and used his weak hands to resist the random gropes.

"Don't, Ke Luo...don't..."

"Why can't you give yourself to me" Ke Luo clung on Shu Nian tightly like a baby and his movement became stronger, "Why......I like you......Why can't you accept me......"

"No...Ke...Luo..." It sounded like Shu Nian was choking.

Xie Yan...Xie Yan...

Shu Nian couldn't help but to call that person's name in his mind over and over again. He felt a throbbing pain and a burst of spasm on his lower part and in the deeper part in his head, as well as in his heart.

Anne's Rant:

This is the reason why I can't forgive Ke Luo and why I can accept Xie Yan even though he is a mofo too. At least Shu Nian doesn't mind and allowed Xie Yan to hold him and he kept on thinking of bastard Yan when Ke Luo raped him.

Lanlin really should bring all his mofo seme to see a psychiatrist...

On the other hand, Merry Christmas guys Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ

Please note that some part might be incorrect as I don't know how to translate it to English. Mistakes are bound to happen and corrections are very welcome.