V1C7

Translator: Anne Noh

Proofreader: Rachel

Xie Yan went home when it was already dark. He had been working overtime lately, even though he was not busy with work.

Actually there was nothing for him to do at the company even though he stayed late. But he was used to being looked after. He had always relied on someone to knock on his office door and urge him to get off from work and return home, and to then pack away his things before also heading home. However, that guy wasn't there to attend to him anymore. Therefore all of the staffs in the company didn't dare to get off from work before the boss and could only look at the time while they suffered in hunger. They hoped that today their boss would get off from work earlier than yesterday and remember that Manager Shu had already gone.

Xie Yan remained very quiet throughout dinner. He had become much more depressed than before, and there was no one to chat with at the dining table. The maid brought out a pot of stew that had been simmering for a very long time and he said spontaneously: "Xiao Nian, give me another bowl..." His face became much more unsightly when he realized that the thin and slightly hunched man wasn't beside him.

Xie Yan felt uncomfortable. It was like a person who has a very serious nicotine addiction that was suddenly force to quit. He would frequently become restless and weak due to the nicotine withdrawal syndrome if he couldn't get a puff.

Xie Yan realized that he really missed that man; it was out of concern and out of habit. He would think of that man's face everytime he opened and closed his eyes. He had tried to consult psychiatrists, but those good-for-nothing psychiatrists only told him useless things that he completely disagreed with and it made his anger even worse. His tendency and extent to get irritated skyrocketed, and he had almost beaten those psychiatrists.

Actually his temper was not that irascible and even if he got really cranky, all his anger would be gone as long as that specific person pacified him, and stayed by his side.

How could someone like Shu Nian make him calm? Couldn't he find a substitute for Shu Nian?

However he also knew that Shu Nian was different than anyone else and Xie Yan had felt it ever since they were young.

Shu Nian gave him a feeling of having a candy hidden in his pocket where others wouldn't be able to have a taste except for himself who had already enjoyed the deep and hidden sweetness.

Shu Nian was completely different than everyone else. He was like a new kind of beauty that never existed before. Therefore, Xie Yan also did not know how to describe and define his feelings.

"Mr. Xie."

"What?" Xie Yan muffled and glanced at the secretary who was shaking in fear. He didn't have a good sleep yesterday and his insomnia made his temper become worse from day to day. He had heard that a person would die if he didn't sleep for 50 consecutive days, and it looked like he only had several days left.

"Please sign this document..."

"Didn't I already sign it?!"

"Yes, but, but..."

He didn't realize that he was glaring, but all of his staffs kept on saying that he was getting more vicious recently. His face was swollen and dark circles appeared under his eyes, due to the lack of sleep. Who has the power to stand his viciousness?

"But you signed it with Manager Shu's name..."

Fuck!

Xie Yan was at his limit and he threw the folder that was in his grasp. He'd had enough! He was unfocused at that time and unconsciously signed with Shu Nian's name. He was sure that he was possessed at that time.

"Quickly book a flight ticket! I want to go to London."

"Ah?" The pitiful secretary was puzzled, "but, but..."

"But what?! I'm going to attend the international conference that will be held on the day after tomorrow. Won't you hurry up?"

"But that conference is handled by Manager Fan..."

"His work is not that good. I'll go by myself!"

"Ah, yes, yes!"

He had lived in London for several years. Therefore he effortlessly found Shu Nian's place. He was starting to get impatient when no one opened the door even after he had rung the doorbell for several times. Hence he odiously pressed the doorbell, and made the bell in the house ring like a fire alarm.

Dare not to be at home? Try to not be at home and let's see what will happen to you!

After a while, sounds of shuffling slippers could be heard. The door opened and he was prepared to vent his anger, but all of it was stuck in his throat.

It was obvious that Shu Nian had been taking a bath, and he had only managed to wear a pair of trousers before he hurried to answer the door. His naked upper body was still wet. Xie Yan could clearly see his ribcage almost protruding up under his translucent skin.

It was only less than two months and yet Shu Nian had become so skinny.

All of a sudden, Xie Yan's heart skipped a beat. He lost control of his expression in a split second, and simply stared at that man's haggard face.

Shu Nian was also dumbfounded. He only gained his senses after a long time and turned around as if he wanted to run to the bathroom. Xie Yan concluded that if Shu Nian wore glasses he might have taken them off and hurriedly put them back on. Shu Nian took a good look at Xie Yan for several minutes. He still didn't believe that Xie Yan was in front of him and asked hesitantly: "Xie Yan?"

"Yes."

Xie Yan's feeling's were originally in a turmoil before he saw Shu Nian, but it seemed that the turmoil was instantly gone, and he was left with only a slight feeling of distressed.

Shu Nian suddenly felt overwhelmed, and he was blushing slightly in embarrassment: "Why are you here? ...Come and have a seat...Wait for a minute. I..." He hurriedly went to the bathroom hurriedly, and came out again wearing a wrinkled shirt.

He felt very embarrassed to be exposed in front of Xie Yan.

"Have a seat. I'll pour some water..."

Actually, Xie Yan already had a seat even before Shu Nian welcomed him. He casually looked around the room, before his sight finally fell upon Shu Nian. He could still see that Shu Nian was very skinny even when he was already dressed.

"Why are you suddenly here? You didn't even inform me first." He laughed as if he was pleased and embarrassed.

"I have a business matter to handle so I might as well drop by and see you." Xie Yan said casually. The truth was he came after he had randomly accused Manager Fan of "sloppy work". Therefore he absolutely [1] took advantage of the situation.

[T/N: [1] 假公济私 is the act of using business/work for personal gain or it could also means someone who abuse their power for personal gain.]

Although Xie Yan really didn't want to admit it, but he really came just to see Shu Nian. Now that he had seen him, he had to admit that seeing Shu Nian was much better than seeing a psychiatrist. It was truly a very long time ago since he last felt calm.

"You just arrived? Have you eaten yet?" Shu Nian was still perplexed, "there's some ingredients in the refrigerator. I can make a simple supper for you..."

"Okay." Even though he was really full.

"Xiao Nian..." Xie Yan looked at the lanky figure that was busy preparing food in the kitchen. He could feel his heart beating wildly and swelling until it almost fully occupied his chest. He forced himself to only stand still at the entrance as he couldn't hug the man's waist from behind like he used to do, "how was your study?"

Shu Nian's hands movement halted and he sheepishly wiped away the sweat on his forehead: "not...bad."

"Oh?"

"...You also know that my English is really bad..." Shu Nian prudently confessed, "it's very hard to attend lectures...I don't really understand what they are saying..."

Xie Yan suddenly felt that he was really stupid. He had actually sent Shu Nian to a country that he had a very severe difficulty in communicating in the native language. Shu Nian had missed the chance to learn that language when he was young. Don't mention about the extreme hardship to obtain a Master of Business Economy in this country, even living a daily life is impossible.

Xie Yan had been momentarily blinded by his rage and recklessly handled the procedure with his power so that he could throw the man all by himself in this country...

What was the difference between a deaf and mute person and Shu Nian when he was abroad?

Xie Yan's heart was filled with a remorseful pain.

Shu Nian would occasionally make a few calls back home, but he had never complained about his hardships. Xie Yan had always only cared about himself and it was obvious that he would have ignored everything else.

"It has been two months. How have you been?"

"Not bad." Shu Nian nodded and concentrated in transferring the dishes out of the pan.

Xie Yan looked at Shu Nian's weary side profile and somehow he didn't dare to imagine what Shu Nian had gone through for the past two months.

"Xiao Nian."

"[2] Yes?"

[T/N: [2] actually Lanlin wrote 'en' which is a cute / nonchalant way of saying yes.]

"You are coming home with me in a few days."

Shu Nian turned to look at Xie Yan and blinked his eyes in confusion. He couldn't understand what Xie Yan meant.

"You have a language barrier even when you stay here, so return home with me."

Shu Nian was in a dilemma and smiled in puzzlement. His eyebrows were slightly scrunched up, the expression on his face made Xie Yan's heart ache: "didn't you say that I can't go back if I don't get a master's degree?"

Xie Yan could feel his heart throbbing in pain: "No need. This master's degree..." He was going to say "this degree is very unnecessary," but he immediately realized the things that he had almost said. It would be clear that the one who had sent Shu Nian away at that time was actually him, and not the Xie family who he had blamed. Therefore he reluctantly swallowed the words.

Xie Yan almost lost control when he could clearly see that Shu Nian's eyes were getting slightly larger.

"You can take your time, and you will certainly be able to get it soon."

Shu Nian smiled at Xie Yan with a tolerance, [3] deceiving and a hopeful kind of smile.

[T/N: [3] It actually means 'deceiving others and oneself'.]

Standing in front of the gentle and unyielding man, Xie Yan really wanted to hug Shu Nian and then press him on to the couch, while enjoying his weak struggle and use his favorite method to punish Shu Nian for being "disobedient" like he often did when they were young. However both of them had already grown up and a lot of things weren't the same anymore.

"Xiao Nian, I will spend the night here." Xie Yan broke the silence as he almost could not control himself from following his desire.

Shu Nian unexpectedly looked at him and nodded.

Shu Nian went to his bedroom and tidied up his bed. He pressed down the bed sheet neatly according to Xie Yan's preference. Then, he got hold of a blanket and went to go to the living room.

"Xiao Nian?" Xie Yan was very surprised, but Shu Nian was even more surprised with Xie Yan's tone. "What is it?"

"Don't you want to sleep together?"

Shu Nian remained silent for a few seconds and then he smiled bitterly: "Young master, you shouldn't make a joke."

Xie Yan had inexplicably some kind of hatred regarding Shu Nian's sexual orientation. If he wasn't gay and if, Xie Yan didn't abstain and abhor gays; then they might still be able to lie on the bed like before. Xie Yan could still hold Shu Nian without any fear, caress his soft hair, the smell of his body's faint fresh taste helping him to sleep, and he would no longer suffer from insomnia.

Anne's Rant:

I'm looking for 2 proofreaders/editors to help me with Uncontrolled Love. Knowing Chinese is a bonus and you won't be proofing the new chapter so don't apply if you just want to read it faster than anyone else haha. I will check the edited version first before giving a green light. Anyone interested can pm me.

How to pm? If you are using wattpad apps you can see 'Message' beside 'Notifications'. If you are using pc then you can go to 'Inbox'.

Please note that some part might be incorrect as I don't know how to translate it to English. Mistakes are bound to happen and corrections are very welcome.