17. toxicity

(Y'all already know what's about to happen and for this scene I have chosen call out my name by the weekend)(Warning: this chapter contains non-graphic depictions of violence in a sexual way:hair pulling, smudged makeup)How in the fuck did you get here?This was not right. How the hell did you get here? An hour ago you were mindlessly walking along the beach minding your business but now?!You ended up deep into an intense makeout session with Eren fucking Yaeger.His lips felt so soft and gentle yet needy and aggressive against your tongue. You could tell Eren was really sexually frustrated and even if you could not say the same about yourself, you still had this intoxicating need for him that hadn't been stilled for quite some time.Yes sex with other men was fire and it had definitely stilled your sex drive, but nevertheless.. Eren was just something completely different.There is no doubt about it... Eren knows what he is doing and he knows how to make a woman feel good.And thinking about the fact that he had made you feel better than any other man before him without even getting his dick somewhat close to your clit.The closest you had come to it was with your mouth. Despite this "setback", if you will, he had made you feel out of this world.His tongue skills were... immaculate and you knew that no one could ever reach and provide you with that immense level of satisfaction.But it was not only the skill that made you drawn to him.It was the intimacy. The first time the two of you had done it, you hadn't know each other at all.Some flirting here and there but nothing more. That was it.Yet Eren made you feel like you had known each other for forever during sex.He felt so caring and you truly felt cherished by him. It was like he was giving you his whole world in just those few minutes.You couldn't explain how Eren did it but the fact that the two of you shared so much intimacy made it hard for you to resist.Even your ex of 2 years had never made you feel this way. He had taken your virginity and he had shared a strong bond with you but he never made you feel as good as Eren did.So there you were... kissing Eren, making out with him, passively begging for his touch.You seriously didn't want this. That little voice in your head was telling you the same lines over and over again.. What are you doing? Get the hell out of there. He is not good for you. He left you alone for months. Months!! And you reward him... with sex?You didn't want this. You just wanted to come over, listen to him, maybe slap him once or twice and head out.You just wanted an explanation so you could finally get him out of your head and mind and move on.But suddenly all of that was washed away when your craving took over and you showed your hatred through kissing. What a dumb idea.Eren wasn't getting what he deserved. He deserved being left behind. Why the hell were you doing this?But it was too late. You knew where this was going but your body was not listening to the obvious red flags your mind was giving it.This shit was going to lead to angry sex...There was no doubt this was going to happen. It was inevitable at this point.But this time... you weren't going to let him fish up an excuse for not going all in. This time, he better listen and fucking do what you need and desire from him.You started deepening the kiss with all of your force. Eren noticed your utter rage once more and slowly sneaked his hand around your throat."Hands off fucker."You were not letting him do that today.. not today.Obviously frustrated, Eren turned you around so that you were now the one who was pinned against the wall."You may be angry at me and I understand that, but no matter what I will always be in control of what happens during sex understand?"There was no way for you to physically get out of his grip so you just angrily continued kissing him roughly as his hand made its way back around your throat yet this time he wasn't sneaking it in, he wasn't being gentle anymore.You wrapped your legs around his waist as Eren lifted you up and continued deepening the kiss while carrying you over to his bedroom.Eren threw you onto his bed with a lot of force but your body was filled with too much adrenaline, so you didn't feel any pain and just slightly lifted your head up again.But Eren didn't give you time for that. He pushed your whole body down until you were laying completely flat on the bed.Eren was quick at almost ripping off each and every last inch of clothing that protected your skin from the cold air.Finally he removed your underwear and stared at your lower body in awe and hunger.You could tell that he was very excited for this part and to be honest, you were too. The sensation that tongue could give you...Without any warnings or teasing Eren went straight to your clit with his tongue."Fuuck."How much you had missed his tongue. How fucking much you had missed the sensation of his warm tongue combined with the cool metal of his tongue piercing.The cold feeling hitting your most sensitive part and made you jolt up in delight and shock.You knew you were going to cum. And you were going to cum quickly.Your hands flew to his hair almost like a reflex and you started pulling at it harshly, looking for some type of friction to be able to handle the pleasure.On top of that tears started forming and rolling down your cheecks and with that your makeup got smudged all over your face. At this point you weren't moaning anymore.It was a sick mixture of whimpers and cries. But it felt so. Fucking. Good."I hate what you're doing to me you fucker."As you had expected you came in a matter of minutes. As always, it felt like an euphoric high and it took you time to get back to earth after such an insane amount of pleasure.But Eren wasn't granting you that break. He wanted to continue straight away and started pressing your body back down to kiss along your breasts but this time you weren't having it. You jolted up and grabbed a huge amount of his hair forcing him to look straight at you and for a change, be was not being able to move."Listen little fuck... I don't give a shit about your little 'ohHhHH I'm to big for woman ohhhh they cry and can't take me' shit. You are going to fuck me right now. I don't give a shit if it hurts because I am filled with so much adrenaline and anger that i won't even feel it. You messed up so the least thing you can do is stop whining around and finally fuck me. Godamn it!"Eren was looking both amazed and shocked. He didn't expect for you to be so direct with what you wanted.But he directly understood and knew that this was what he needed to do."If that's what you want..."You released your grip from his hair and leaned back letting him lean into you and remove his underwear completely.You didn't bother looking at his dick. You had seen it before and looking at it now would make everything worse anyway.Eren quickly pulled out a condom from his side drawer and put it on as fast as he possibly could.Eren looked down at you one last time checking if you were really okay with it and you just nodded, reassuring him one final time.And then it happend. He entered you. And he wasn't doing it slow and steady. This fucker was already thrusting after only two seconds of entering.You were sure that if you wouldn't have been this angry, it would have hurt immensely but because of the adrenaline rush the only thing you felt was utter delight.It felt, it felt fucking amazing. Your eyes widened as he started thrusting even faster.You felt him push up deeper and deeper into your core hitting all of your sweet spots over and over again.You looked up, seeing that Eren was a shaking and sweating mess. He reached out to his headboard for support because he aswell couldn't handle the insane amount of pleasure.Suddenly you got lost in your thoughts again and everything around you started fading away.Why were you doing this? Just why were you doing this? Your relationship with Eren is so incredibly toxic. It's filled with disloyalty and trust issues.It was the peak of toxicity but you couldn't help it because in that moment you knew that Eren is the fucking one. You had fallen for him and there was no way that you were ever going to fall for someone like you haf fallen for him.But it hurt like a fucking bitch. You thought to yourself that there is no way he has to be the one. Why did your stupid heart have to choose him?Why him? Why not some normal dude? Why the fuck Eren Yaeger?All of those thoughts were buzzing through your head and it led to you screaming out the same thing over and over again."I hate you!!! I actually fucking hate you!!! Why are you making this so hard for me?"You could feel Eren quiver under your words. He knew what he had done and he was so ashamed that he had the audacity to do it.Nevertheless he continued thrusting in and out, continuing to go deeper with every thrust.For a third time this night, you started tearing up again.This time it was a mixture of pleasure, hatred and adrenaline that made you cry out the same words over and over again."Too hard?"Quickly, you reached down to his waist and you started pressing him even deeper into you."Harder."Again, Eren looked at you in utter amazement as he obeyed and started pushing himself in even faster and even deeper. At this point his entire length was buried deep inside of you and the two of you melted into one big sweaty mess of moans and groans."Y/n I'm gonna-""Me too-"You could feel that Erens thrusts slowly got more sloppy and less controlled. You too slowly lost all of your power and control as the two of you got closer to your shared climax.Finally you felt his dick twitch inside of you and with that, complete ecstacy took over your mind.Everything faded away and it was just the two of you together riding out your orgasm after a round of angry and aggressive sex.It had happened. Because of your anger and adrenaline, he came inside of you... for the first time in his life.