V2C7

The room was quiet for a long time, the two people sat silently without saying anything, and the unpredictable silence made Shu Nian's heart beat even more wildly, beads of sweat began to emerge on the tip of his nose, his blood vessels became even more obvious under the pale skin of his forehead.

"Xiao Nian."

Shu Nian knew that Xie Yan was commanding him just by listening to his tone, his Adam's apple bobbed, and he opened his eyes. The man who was sitting next him ruffled his fingers into his recently dried hair, and then he stroked his black hair.

"You should come back."

......

"Move back in tomorrow."

"Young master?"

"No, stay here tonight, you don't have to go tomorrow. I will ask someone to help you to pack your things."

Shu Nian remained silence for a while, and didn't show the excited expression that was just like an excited loyal dog, instead he looked away, escaped from Xie Yan's hand, and muffled a reply: "Just forget about it, young master."

"Why do you want me to come back? So that you can kick me out in less than a month?"

"You are always acting like this. Always make me run back and forth, I will also get tired," Shu Nian smiled bitterly, "Young master, you are already an adult, don't play around like this anymore, I'm already at this age, and it is not appropriate."

"Ever since you are eight years old, you would throw things out and then told me to pick it up, and then you will start the stopwatch, I have to pick it up again if I don't arrive in the specified time, you remember the bow that you always used? You always exert so many force, and you ended up shooting very far..." Shu Nian smiled wryly at the memory, his eyelashes were slightly wet, "young master is really willful ...I had always run as fast as I could, sigh..."

"I was really foolish when I was young, I will go all out to run even when you shortened the time, even when I obviously knew that my speed would never make you satisfied, I still dash forward. I was really energetic when I was young ...but now... I couldn't run anymore."

Xie Yan coughed embarrassedly when his previous misdeeds were suddenly being revealed bluntly: "ah, that, that was a long time ago, and it isn't the same now ..."

Shu Nian looked like he wanted to say something, his Adam's apple bobbed a few times, but he only sighed: "it is the same, young master. The same."

"I'm that kind of person, I only like a man," Shu Nian uttered difficultly, but he uttered it slowed and clearly, and his despair gave him the courage to utter those words, "and it has always been you..." He paused, and finally said it even though it was hard to say, "You also know it, young master. So it is inappropriate for me to move back. A person like me who work by your side, it will make you feel uncomfortable in just a few days, and then once again you will ask me to leave."

"Therefore, I won't bother to return back, young master." As if resigned to his fate, Shu Nian smiled embarrassedly and pulled the blanket, "I'm really thankful to you for tonight, I'll leave tomorrow in the early morning."

His face was suddenly being cupped firmly. Shu Nian didn't react, he hesitated and stared blankly at the man's face that was close to his.

"No..."

"No, it wasn't the same this time...I..."

Something dried and warm touched his lips. Shu Nian only felt his body slowly turned stiff, became rigid.

Their lips were molded together, and the gentle sucking motion made his body stiff, Shu Nian felt that it was hard to believe and opened his eyes to see the person in front of him and his expression, but Xie Yan was too close, and it was blurry no matter how hard he tried to see, and it was getting even more blurry, and he became completely muddle-headed.

"Xiao Nian..."

Shu Nian's heart almost jumped out from his mouth, both his hands and feet trembled slightly out of control, and his throat tightened.

"Xiao Nian..."

What is this? We are...kissing?

"I love you."

I'm still dreaming? Still having this kind of shameless dream...I will feel ashamed when I wake up. What kind of wishful thinking is this? Stop being stupid...

"Xiao Nian, come back. I love you."

......

Shu Nian moved his face slightly to have a clearer look. Shu Nian looked over and over again, tying to confirm the man in front of him was Xie Yan, truly Xie Yan, and it was still Xie Yan no matter how much he looked.

But Shu Nian couldn't believe it.

"Let's be together."

Shu Nian's fingers were around that man's chest as he clutched on his shirt, and wanted to push Xie Yan away to save himself from the absurd dream. But he didn't dare to let go of his hold as he scared Xie Yan might suddenly disappeared if he blinked his eyes and he was rendered speechless.

"Okay?"

"Young master..."

"En?"

He struggled: "Don't fool me, young master. Don't joke with me...Don't make fun of me...Young master..."

Xie Yan leaned over without saying anything and kissed him, and then he pulled Shu Nian into his arms as he felt a surged of pain: "[1] Idiot, Why are you crying? Because you hate me?"

[T/N: [1] there are many ways to say idiot or fool in Chinese and this is the mildest and usually used by friend etc and it's not that insulting.]

Shu Nian also didn't intend to cry in front of Xie Yan, but the tears unknowingly trickled down, and he couldn't stop it. The happiness came too sudden, too tremendous. He couldn't stop the tears even if it wasn't real even if he was just dreaming.

Even if it was an illusion, Shu Nian felt content just being held by that person, and lie together for a night.

Shu Nian moved back to Xie family according to Xie Yan's wish and it had been for quite some time, and also continued to work at Xie Company, became Xie Yan's assistant once again. But Xie Yan could always felt that something was wrong. It was obvious that everything was as he wished for, but it wasn't how he wanted it to be.

Shu Nian was still docile and respectful as before. It wasn't obedient of dependency between lovers, but rather his obedience was more cautious than previous.

He won't resist being held, nor would he refuse being kissed passionately. He would blush, tensed, and gasping for air was a normal response from Shu Nina, but, even someone who was very insensitive like Xie Yan could felt that Shu Nin's response wasn't passionate but he was rather very cautious.

Although they were finally dating, but it wasn't completely romantic.

"Hrmm..." Xie Yan remembered when he kissed Shu Nian in the car that morning, Shu Nian went stiff and didn't dare to move. Xie Yan threw away the fountain pen out of frustration and rubbed his eyebrows.

Could it be that my kissing skill is getting worst until it is unbearable to deal with?

Or his feelings for me aren't the same as before?

Uh, both speculations are pretty bad.

Xie Yan didn't want to dawdle on his love issue and press the intercom: "Call Manager Shu to come immediately."

"This is the material that you wanted," Shu Nian panted slightly, and handed over a stack of folders. He really came "immediately". Because he ran hurriedly, he was slightly sweating on his forehead, and his usually pale cheeks were slightly red.

"En," Xie Yan smiled and stretched out a hand. He didn't take the files, but he grabbed Shu Nian's waist and pulled him over suddenly.

"Whoa - "

"[2] Smack..."

[T/N: [2] The Chinese word (哗啦) is actually an onomatopoeia when Shu Nian falls on Xie Yan.]

Shu Nian fell on Xie Yan's lap, and the files fell on the floor.

"Oh, no..."

Xie Yan didn't have time to use his other hand to hold Shu Nian firmly in his arms, Shu Nian has quickly broke free, half-kneeling on the ground as he nervously picked up all the paper that was scattered all over the floor.

"..."

Xie Yan maintained the awkward posture of both of his hands stretched out, his face twitched slightly once he regained his composure.

This guy, didn't even have the slightest sense of "the chance of being alone together"?

Oh well, being scrupulous was indeed one of Shu Nian attractive features, but he was outrageously well-behaved even at that time, and it really made the young master Xie to doubt his attractiveness.

"Xiao Nian..." Xie Yan simply didn't want to look at all those documents that had just been picked up. He finally succeeded to firmly held Shu Nian and pressed him down on his lap, "Let's go out after we finish work."

"Oh, okay." Shu Nian sat straight, his body looked uncomfortable.

According to common sense, judging by the way Xie Yan was holding Shu Nian from behind, ambiguously nibbled around his neck, wouldn't a couple who was passionately in love would succumb and turned around, and then kissing as their tongues intertwined together? But Shu Nian kept on trying to evade and looking at the side, and Xie Yan ended up could only bite the slightly red earlobe.

Xie Yan didn't stop biting, he bit down harder in grievance as he felt slightly hurt.

"Where do you want to go?" Xie Yan was acting coquettishly as he was sticking at the back of the skinny man.

"Anywhere you want...I'm fine with anything." Shu Nian totally looked like he was sitting on pins and needles, as he was writhing uneasily and kept on trying to run away.

Shu Nian was still tensed by the fact that he was being pulled down by Xie Yan, and Xie Yan didn't let the opportunity to slip as his hand took advantage to probe into the gap of Shu Nian's shirt.

"Ah..." Shu Nian could feel Xie Yan's fingers, and he became extremely nervous, he couldn't stop Xie Yan because his arms were pinned around, he could only writhe, and arching his back to evade Xie Yan, "Don't, don't be like this..."

"Why?" Xie Yan never has a good endurance to tease others, "I just want to fondle it, stay still..."

"I, I have nothing to be touched..." Shu Nian's neck turned red in shame because of the fingers that were fondling his chest, and he desperately wanted to escape.

Xie Yan felt that Shu Nian was extremely cute, unfortunately they were at the company, and they weren't immoral to the point where they would have sex in the office, besides he was afraid that the teasing might escalated into something else, and he might ended up getting turned on and walking around with a very embarrassing tent, hence he had to reluctantly withdrew his hand.

"Oh well, I won't bully you, we will have dinner after work, and then go to the hotel."

"Ah?!" Shu Nian was extremely startled, his face turned from red to white, and then back to red, "Why...why are we going to the hotel?"

"What do you think?" He deliberately smirked.

Of course Shu Nian didn't say anything, his thin skin instantly turned red and it was almost burning up, he was embarrassed for a while: "No, no need to go to that kind of place, at home..."

"The ambience is much better." Xie Yan would also want to try to [3] secretly enjoyed that kind of sweetness like ordinary lover with the person he likes.

[T/N: [3] 'secretly enjoyed that kind of sweetness' refers to going to the love hotel.]

"Oh..., then..." Shu Nian shoved Xie Yan's wondering hand before he stood up: "We, we will talk about it later, I'll...go back to work."

Xie Yan's mouth went agape as he watched Shu Nian left, his mouth almost fell on the table, and he looked like a husband that was completely abandoned.

What went wrong? That day Shu Nian had clearly said, "It has always been you...", but now Xie Yan felt like Shu Nian didn't even have the slightest feeling on him.

While having dinner at the reserved restaurant, Shu Nian was very cautious, and his nervousness was becoming even more obvious by the time they were almost finish eating.

Not only nervousness, it was also laden with fear. His worried look was extremely obvious, and it also made Xie Yan to slowly lose his appetite.

It was obvious that Shu Nian was afraid of the thing that would happen next.

Why are you so unwilling to sleep with me?

Xie Yan frowned, trying to maintain his mood that was about to be spoiled, and pretending to tease Shu Nian: "Where are we going next?"

As long as Shu Nian grumbled, "Didn't you already arrange it?" or even if he stayed silence out of embarrassment, then Xie Yan would be in a good mood and went to book a nice room.

But Shu Nian felt embarrassed for a while, and even hesitated: "don't know."

Xie Yan couldn't control some of the coldness on his facial expression.

Sitting closely to the unwilling expression in front of his face, Xie Yan felt humiliated and felt like he was someone who was addicted and starving for sex.

Sorry but he would never force anyone to have sex with him.

"Then let's forget about it," Xie Yan didn't even tried to hide the sudden coldness in his voice, "Let's go back."

"Ah?" A look of relieve flashed across Shu Nian's face.

Xie Yan felt his chest tightened, he was angry and frustrated, but he also didn't know how to vent it, he was rendered speechless by the grievance, and he looked very unsightly. He looked up and saw an acquaintance, and wasted no time to beckon her "Hi, Lizzy."

"What a coincidence," A woman with a curly hair and looked like a Barbie doll smiled pleasantly, a pair of slender legs in stilettos walked toward them and sat down, "I didn't see you for a long time, what made you busy recently until you don't come to see us?"

Xie Yan met her during the time Shu Nian left, she was a well known designer that helped to design a rough sketch of a display counter for him, her boyfriend was actually Xie Yan's business partner, and they have a good friendship with each other.

"Ah, who is this? And you are completely different, look very gentle ~ ~"

"My employee." Xie Yan was slightly malicious, especially when he looked at Shu Nian.

Shu Nian didn't even care about the "employee" that he had bluntly said, instead he smiled kindly and greeted her, and then looked down indifferently to concentrate on cutting the food in his plate.

How nice, you didn't even bother to [4] eat the vinegar.

[T/N: [4] Vinegar in Chinese is jealous and eating vinegar is feeling jealous or bitter.]

Xie Yan took a deep breath, he had been frustrated for the whole day hence he didn't have the strength to get angry.

He wholeheartedly intended to ignore Shu Nian for the rest of the dinner, he chatted enthusiastically with the young woman, did some ambiguous actions from time to time, she was amazed by the teasing, and covered her mouth as she laughed. Shu Nian just concentrated on eating his dinner, and his undisturbed expression didn't change at all.

When there was nothing more to eat on his plate, Shu Nian just sat quietly at the side, his expression was still the same, it was undisturbed and he didn't get angry at all. Xie Yan felt his heart became slightly cold, he was like a clown when he tried his best to verify their status. He didn't understand why he would humiliate himself like that.

"You're full, then go home by yourself first," Xie Yan lifted his chin wearily. "I'll go for a ride with her later on."

"Okay." Shu Nian stood up, slightly bowed at Xie Yan, and really went away.

Shu Nian didn't even say anything and it was really straightforward. Xie Yan held firmly the glass that was filled with red wine, and he almost crushed the glass.

"What's the matter with you?" A hand reached to touch him, "did you have a fight with that man?"

Xie Yan shook his head irritability, and then nodded, cursed lowly, and the glass really ended being crushed by his hold.

The audience already left, and Xie Yan felt that he shouldn't put a show anymore. He went to his car to drive home after he made the waiter in the restaurant bustled with work due to his wine glass accident.

Xie Yan parked his car at the garage, and ruthlessly kicked around before suppressing his anger and went into the house.

He went upstairs and opened Shu Nian's bedroom door, no matter what Shu Nian might have heard the noises, or even his temper as his [5] liver would definitely exploded if he acted nonchalantly for the whole day.

[T/N: [5] Chinese believes anger will effect in poor liver function.]

"What are you doing?!"

The gushing sound of water in the bathroom overshadowed the sound of Xie Yan's footsteps, until he stood behind Shu Nian and asked a question. Shu Nian was shocked and slightly raised his head from the wash basin.

"Ah...I'm...washing my face."

"I have something to say to you." The tone was rough.

"En..." Shu Nian replied vaguely, but he didn't turn around.

"Turn around." Xie Yan was getting annoyed, "you can wash whatever you want to wash after you finish talking to me."

Shu Nian still refused to turn around, and he bent down even lower, and vaguely said, "Wait a minute..." roughly splashed his face with water, and even wiping his face several times before hesitatingly looked down and trying to take the face towel. Xie Yan became impatient, grabbed his shoulders and forcibly turned Shu Nian's body toward him.

Shu Nian looked extremely embarrassed as there were water droplets across his face, he bowed down, and refused to look at Xie Yan. Xie Yan held his chin and lifted his face firmly, he hesitated for a while and then he caressed Shu Nian's red eyes with his left hand and spoke in a gentle tone: "what's going on?"

"Nothing... there was something in my eyes, so...I keep on washing..."

The slightly drooping eyes looked even more pitiful, Xie Yan sighed: "Did you cried?"

Please note that some part might be incorrect as I don't know how to translate it to English. Mistakes are bound to happen and corrections are very welcome.